Long time stalker, first time poster

[Dawgs]

Day 1,588:

It's been a long time since I read my first post.  Today I'm grateful that I have 4+ years of being nicotine free.  I couldn't have done it without the support from this site.

For those who are looking to quit, just accept the help/support.  Swap numbers and make connections.  None of us came to this site because we enjoyed being nicotine users.  We want to quit and struggle. 

You can do this; it doesn't get easier you just get stronger.

I quit with you.

KZ

This is motivation. I am at 42. Even though there has been a lot of suck so far, at the same time, there has been a relief too. A sense of freedom. The longest I’ve made it in my 23 year addiction was a touch over a year. Like you, i had NO support group or ANYONE to keep me honest and accountable. Thank you for sharing this. No matter how good i do, it will never be more than ODAAT, but with the brothers here...it shall continue. Thanks again for sharing.

[KennyZ]

Day 1,588:

It's been a long time since I read my first post.  Today I'm grateful that I have 4+ years of being nicotine free.  I couldn't have done it without the support from this site.

For those who are looking to quit, just accept the help/support.  Swap numbers and make connections.  None of us came to this site because we enjoyed being nicotine users.  We want to quit and struggle. 

You can do this; it doesn't get easier you just get stronger.

I quit with you.

KZ

[KennyZ]

January 27, 2015

I’m at day 77!  While I try to be proud of the count, I’m reminded of why my number is only 77.  About 10 years ago I was roughly at the 6 year mark, nicotine free.  Yes, 6 f’n years without failing!  I started bumming a dip from friends while golfing and chewing on a cigar at parties.  I let my guard down and my addiction started working on my behaviors.

I convinced myself that I could buy a tin and leave it around, just take a dip once-in-awhile when the feeling struck.  Then instead of having a new tin once a month it grew into a tin-a-day addiction.  I was horribly embarrassed that I caved.  My wife was pissed and I let myself down.

As most of you have posted, I’ve tried quitting many times.  I would make it through the suck and speed on down the road only to stop at the gas station to start the cycle again.  

But this time it is different.  Why?  I’ve got this site and bunch of people that will assist me in keeping my daily promise.  I now have a group that will keep bringing the addiction mind games to the forefront for me to see.  For that I am thankful and proud.

So, will I make it past the 6 year mark again?  I don’t know.  All I can promise is that today I will not cave.