Where to start and how to startÂ…. I guess IÂ’ll write this with the mindset that some noob will read it. You better strap your boots on because youÂ’re in for one hell of a ride. Never in my wildest dreams to did I imagine quitting would be this hard. I guess two things have kept me truly motivated. 1.) IÂ’m an addict; I didnÂ’t know this until I found KTC. The sooner you realize this and accept it the better off youÂ’ll be. 2.) I never want to feel the way I did in days 1-30, therefore IÂ’ll be damned if I caveÂ….today anyway. I feel you must be smart enough to admit that you might cave somedayÂ… a year from now or 10 years from now, I donÂ’t know. What I do know is I wonÂ’t cave today! Simply wake up every morning telling yourself that.
As for KTCÂ….ItÂ’s a great place. Great source of information, take full advantage of everything the site has to offer. There will be some great elders along the way as well. However if you take anything from this take the fact that KTC tends to be cookie cutter, you donÂ’t have to be! What worked for me might not work for you; IÂ’ll admit that, some on this site wonÂ’t. DonÂ’t be afraid to bend the rules or fight tradition if youÂ’re a hardcore badass quitter. Stand up for what works for you!!!
The futureÂ….Hell if I know other than stay quit. They say itÂ’ll get better, I believe them I think. The craves are starting to spread out just a touch and starting to be not quite as intense. I remember some ole head telling me that I needed to get to where I hated Chew and the sight and smell of it made me sick to my stomach. Ummm, the sight and smell is delicious you stupid fuck. I donÂ’t think IÂ’ll ever change my mind on that one; after all IÂ’m a fucking addict for a reason! I do however hate what it has done to meÂ…all of us. IÂ’ve already started preaching if you will to younger kids I see around my small town. Honestly, IÂ’d start chewing again today and let the bitch control me for the rest of my life and suffer all consequences if it would prevent a couple of young kids from even putting the shit in their lip for the first time!
The HOF isnÂ’t the end or the middle; itÂ’s actually just the beginning. Quitting is hard as fuck; sadly staying quit will be even harder. However, this is where the badasses shine!
TT
