Ever do something that you can't take back?
Ever do something and then even though it isn't "right" you'd not want to take it back?, Yeah, me too.
Well, quitting seems to be a way to "take things back". Probably the ONLY thing that can allow you to do so. Taking back freedom, health, life, love, family. All the things we all left behind every time you packed your lip.
Even with all that, and the strength I have gained in some areas.... today... today I am stressed and it triggers a crave, and I have THAT thought. The only thing different is I won't cave to the mind-set of being "needy" or "weak". I am not "needy" , I am not "weak" (although some quitter told me I was a few months ago), I am a strong person and only because I have support here. I have "my people" . I love "my people". "My people" would kick my ass (or shave my head...Maine)If I ever caved. "My people" would then have a way out of their quit as well if I caved. I respect all of them way too much to be weak and a coward.
So I stay here, posting roll every day. Do I absolutely HAVE to? Am I REQUIRED? No. But I don't stop for 2 reasons, for the ones who help me and for the ones I am helping.