Day 529.
And obviously still quit.
Over the past few days I've been reading through a lot of stuff that's happened on here since I decided to quit and find KTC.
i've gone back to key moments in my group and another group I'm heavily involved in. Both months were pretty tame, but still butted heads every once in awhile, usually to apologize pretty quick.
The funny thing? So much of it feels foreign now. Parts of my intro and some of my earliest posts seem like someone else typed those words.
The "fights" we had now seem so tame and laughable. I browsed through our HOF celebration and write-ups and was almost startled to see how many reach that milestone. The majority of the people I had forgotten about. I read how so many members of our month expressed excitement and vigor to be quit and how any conversations on the forum were filled with enthusiasm and support. We're down to 13 people posting in our month. Even though it's unrealistic to think everyone will stay on KTC, I still wonder about the people who faded off or made a public exit.
Now, people barely answer the question of the day to induce any conversation. It's quiet. It's more of a ghost town than anything. The rare conversation that gets started quickly dies.
Even though so many people in the two months I referenced before post nearly every day, posting roll has become so automatic. In all of our early days, posting roll in the morning provided a determination. Does posting roll lose effectiveness for some because of that? (Just laying out thoughts running through my head.)
Combing back through old posts was bittersweet. There were forgotten conversations that made me laugh.
There were conversations I came across that hurt like a knife in my back from quitters that decided to either cave or to make a selfish cowardly exit with no regard for friendships that were formed.
It was definitely a nostalgic reminder of where we all started at. We all had a day one. Now, some of us have much longer of a day count.
If you're a KTC member reading this- go back in your post history and see your old posts. Force yourself to remember your early days. I think you'll be surprised at how much you've forgotten.
If you're a guest browsing through intros and happen to read this, you can have a day one on this site and quit one day at a time just like the rest of us. 529 days just doesn't appear, and stretches of that aren't easy.
But it's worth it.
