I quit on 12/2/13

[pbrain04]

what will be my new year resolution if Im quit already? Its been my resolution every year for 25 years!

Weird

[pbrain04]

Great job. Stay the course. Your are building a new you. You will be surprised at what the new you will be able to handle. I had some difficult times like you are having. In time you will handle stress and situations better then ever. Your wife will like the new you in time. When it gets hard to handle, take a breath, change venue. You will like where this takes you. I quit with you today.

Thank you

[srans]

Great job. Stay the course. Your are building a new you. You will be surprised at what the new you will be able to handle. I had some difficult times like you are having. In time you will handle stress and situations better then ever. Your wife will like the new you in time. When it gets hard to handle, take a breath, change venue. You will like where this takes you. I quit with you today.

[pbrain04]

I hear ya there bud!! I just had quite a similar situation with my ol lady just last night. I coming to realize we're at war with our brain, day in day out battle after battle. Just like y'all gents said our brain is looking for evry reason and excuse to justify throwing a dip in..but today ill divorce this nic bitch with u!!!

I totally agree. This shit is messing with out brains,

We cant take it out on our loved ones though man. They are there for us and that's why we do it. Its easy. Next time I will try to be different.

[USMCray]

I hear ya there bud!! I just had quite a similar situation with my ol lady just last night. I coming to realize we're at war with our brain, day in day out battle after battle. Just like y'all gents said our brain is looking for evry reason and excuse to justify throwing a dip in..but today ill divorce this nic bitch with u!!!

[pbrain04]

Dip is like low-definition TV. Once you get HD, low def is not even an after thought. Stay strong and stay quit.

exactly! I like that.

My dad still has a low def tv. Says its perfectly fine. He just doesn't know.

[Steakbomb18]

Thanks for sharing homie, we all have days like thatÂ….yet less than a month ago we could go run and hide (i.e. avoid) and throw in a fatty. So what I find is pretty f'n cool is that now you've manned up twiceÂ…1) you didn't avoid the situation and you remedied it on the spot and 2) you stayed quit. Well played brother. Also what resonated for me was "It doesn't feel like its an option anymore." This is what I love about this site and its mission. We don't come here for a break from dip or a dip vacation, we come here to kick that bitch to the curb. Dip is like low-definition TV. Once you get HD, low def is not even an after thought. Stay strong and stay quit.

[ccauley86]

Day 21 of my quit and today is a piece of cake.

Day 20, yesterday, was not.

I don't go shopping for anything...ever. My wife does everything. She asked me if I could go the mall and try and find something for three of my co-workers. She did not have time. I agreed.

I learned a couple things during my trip to the mall.

1) Teenage girls dress extremely inappropriately. Seriously. I was shocked. I never go anywhere that I ever would see this many teenagers. Do these kids have parents?

2) Crowds of people apparently give me anxiety attacks now. I have always had issues with anxiety. I know a lot of people do so it's not embarrassing to me. Normally I would reach for my dip pacifier and all is good. But I don't do that anymore. Things got really bad. Lightheaded. Bright lights. Dizziness. Headache. I felt like people were staring at me. I couldn't take it so I bagged it and went hope.

My wife was pissed. She had a right to be. She needs help and just because I'm still learning how to deal without using doesn't give me a free pass.

We got in a really bad argument. I completely lost my cool. I said some things I had no right to say. Mean selfish shit. The kids were home. It was really bad and I really hurt her feelings badly. I had no right. Its not like me.

I chilled out. We sat down and spoke and apologies were made. She accepted but explained to me that that its not ok to lose my shit regardless of my state of mind. If I lost my cool at work like that I could get fired. Telling my boss I'm a recovering chewing tobacco user would not save my job.

Long message but I'm just venting to myself really. I still feel very bad about my day. Not only the fight but how useless I was out there in the world. It was eye opening. I'm only day 21. Most of it has been pretty easy for me. The 5-6 days before day 20 were a breeze. Day 21 today is cake. So what happened to me on day 20? I don't know but I hope I deal better if there is a next time.

The positive is that I'm still quit. I never even considered caving. It doesn't feel like its an option anymore.

See you all at roll tomorrow.

PB

I've been there right with you.

Your Story is my story.

[pbrain04]

Day 21 of my quit and today is a piece of cake.

Day 20, yesterday, was not.

I don't go shopping for anything...ever. My wife does everything. She asked me if I could go the mall and try and find something for three of my co-workers. She did not have time. I agreed.

I learned a couple things during my trip to the mall.

1) Teenage girls dress extremely inappropriately. Seriously. I was shocked. I never go anywhere that I ever would see this many teenagers. Do these kids have parents?

2) Crowds of people apparently give me anxiety attacks now. I have always had issues with anxiety. I know a lot of people do so it's not embarrassing to me. Normally I would reach for my dip pacifier and all is good. But I don't do that anymore. Things got really bad. Lightheaded. Bright lights. Dizziness. Headache. I felt like people were staring at me. I couldn't take it so I bagged it and went hope.

My wife was pissed. She had a right to be. She needs help and just because I'm still learning how to deal without using doesn't give me a free pass.

We got in a really bad argument. I completely lost my cool. I said some things I had no right to say. Mean selfish shit. The kids were home. It was really bad and I really hurt her feelings badly. I had no right. Its not like me.

I chilled out. We sat down and spoke and apologies were made. She accepted but explained to me that that its not ok to lose my shit regardless of my state of mind. If I lost my cool at work like that I could get fired. Telling my boss I'm a recovering chewing tobacco user would not save my job.

Long message but I'm just venting to myself really. I still feel very bad about my day. Not only the fight but how useless I was out there in the world. It was eye opening. I'm only day 21. Most of it has been pretty easy for me. The 5-6 days before day 20 were a breeze. Day 21 today is cake. So what happened to me on day 20? I don't know but I hope I deal better if there is a next time.

The positive is that I'm still quit. I never even considered caving. It doesn't feel like its an option anymore.

See you all at roll tomorrow.

PB

[AppleJack]

I'm am so jammed up at work right now. I have so much to do I don't know where to start. Stress Stress Stress stress. Its times like these that drive people to cave. Im not caving. Day 16 has been arguably my hardest. My head is spinning and the lights seem brighter than usual.

I took 10 minutes and started post rolling on other quit group threads. Seeing all the names of people with their quit numbers helped the crave pass. Roll posting occupied my mind. By the the time I was done I felt a lot better.

My two cents. If any of you new guys are struggling give it a shot.

PB

... And that's how we do it boys and girls. Nice job bro!

[pbrain04]

I'm am so jammed up at work right now. I have so much to do I don't know where to start. Stress Stress Stress stress. Its times like these that drive people to cave. Im not caving. Day 16 has been arguably my hardest. My head is spinning and the lights seem brighter than usual.

I took 10 minutes and started post rolling on other quit group threads. Seeing all the names of people with their quit numbers helped the crave pass. Roll posting occupied my mind. By the the time I was done I felt a lot better.

My two cents. If any of you new guys are struggling give it a shot.

PB

[rdad]

Told him I quit by using this website.  He thanked me.  Maybe he will check it out.  I'm glad I said that I himJ

I am glad you didn't get in a fight on the train Pat. Good job though. It's cool you feel so strongly about this. Talk to you tomorrow bro.

[pbrain04]

Told him I quit by using this website. He thanked me. Maybe he will check it out. I'm glad I said that I himJ

[Scowick65]

I'm on the train commuting home. This dude sat down next to me with a huge fatty in his lip. Not even ninja. Spitting in a empty Pepsi bottle. Looks like early 40's?

I feel bad for him. He smells like shit. My trained nose tells me it's cope. He is a slave like I was11 days ago.

I have two stops left. When I get up I'm going to tell him I quit and how I did it. One day at a
time.

Pb

;)

[pbrain04]

I'm on the train commuting home. This dude sat down next to me with a huge fatty in his lip. Not even ninja. Spitting in a empty Pepsi bottle. Looks like early 40's?

I feel bad for him. He smells like shit. My trained nose tells me it's cope. He is a slave like I was11 days ago.

I have two stops left. When I get up I'm going to tell him I quit and how I did it. One day at a
time.

Pb