Here it goes

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

And just like that, another 200 day lapse since last posted in an intro, but a damn near daily post on roll which is what got this fine quitter to the 500 mark! Awesome job, brother. One Day at a Friggin' Time!

Nice job Kyle! Slow and steady is the only way to do this 'oh yeah'

[CavMan83]

And just like that, another 200 day lapse since last posted in an intro, but a damn near daily post on roll which is what got this fine quitter to the 500 mark! Awesome job, brother. One Day at a Friggin' Time!

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

HOF My friend. Nice job and Congratulations. Remember, this is one milestone of many to come. Continue to post roll, continue to be accountable to your group, help some newbs and carry it forward. You posted 100% in your return, you took the advise of a number of vets and you've owned your quit, now keep it nice and shiny for all to see! Proud of you brother!

HOF is special considering where you were 101 days ago. Keep it going!

Nice job brother on reaching the 3rd floor. Keep it going as there has been a 200 day lapse since the last post in your inro. Amazing and guess what you are still quit! As you can probably attest it does get easier!

Carry on and enjoy the day! 'oh yeah'

[Done4Me]

HOF My friend. Nice job and Congratulations. Remember, this is one milestone of many to come. Continue to post roll, continue to be accountable to your group, help some newbs and carry it forward. You posted 100% in your return, you took the advise of a number of vets and you've owned your quit, now keep it nice and shiny for all to see! Proud of you brother!

HOF is special considering where you were 101 days ago. Keep it going!

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

HOF My friend. Nice job and Congratulations. Remember, this is one milestone of many to come. Continue to post roll, continue to be accountable to your group, help some newbs and carry it forward. You posted 100% in your return, you took the advise of a number of vets and you've owned your quit, now keep it nice and shiny for all to see! Proud of you brother!

[GR8WHITEBUFFALO]

I wish you the best with you new quit group. This time reach out and get phone numbers and use them. Use the chat room. Embrace accountability, not just by posting roll but by reaching out when you need some help. Freedom is something that must be earned each and every damn day.

Ask Tony Gwinn and Jim Kelly how they feel right now about dip. All the money and fame in the world won't save them. Go back and check out jaw surgery pics here. That is what dip has to offer you. Go back and read the Kern story until it sinks in.

How tough are you? Tough isn't going it alone, tough is doing what it takes to stay quit.

I do give you huge props for coming back here. Many in August 12 have just disappeared. Its my hope that they are still quit but many have returned to a life of slavery to nicotine. It happens, life is about choices.

GWB

[srans]

FreeFromCope,

Dude...you don't make any posts to your intro page for two years....? Sounds like you didn't learn much while you were here back in 2012...

You're going to have a long road ahead of you with the Sultans of September....before you try and post a day one (in the caver portion, not with the BAQs) I want you to go back and read through the september roll. Sultans are not a very forgiving group, but if you are man enough to take the "you are such a dumbass" flack you're gonna get and can honor your word to post early DAILY, you'll be grudgingly readmitted.

Fair warning, you screw this one up, you're gonna be toast.

I'm getting close to hitting 500. You would have been 100 + obove me. Your missing out my friend! Glad i'm not in your shoes.
Pride and over confidence is the poison's best friend. I'll leave it at that. Welcome back!

[CavMan83]

FreeFromCope,

Dude...you don't make any posts to your intro page for two years....? Sounds like you didn't learn much while you were here back in 2012...

You're going to have a long road ahead of you with the Sultans of September....before you try and post a day one (in the caver portion, not with the BAQs) I want you to go back and read through the september roll. Sultans are not a very forgiving group, but if you are man enough to take the "you are such a dumbass" flack you're gonna get and can honor your word to post early DAILY, you'll be grudgingly readmitted.

Fair warning, you screw this one up, you're gonna be toast.

[FreeFromCope]

Ok so I am back to let you all know that I fucked up and am ready to man up and take my licks from everyone here. First off I want to apologize to August 2012. I let the group down when I stopped posting my daily rollcall. I am sorry for that and now know how stupid of a decision it was. So to let you all know here are the answers to the 3 questions:

What happened: I got over confident with my quit (what turned out to be a time I stopped for 6 months). After posting for roughly 120 days straight without missing a day I left the site (turns out to be the worst mistake I have made in the past 2 years). I didn't go back to it right away. I was still quit for another 2 months before I dipped. There was no good reason for it. I should have come back before I put that one dip in my mouth but I didn't. I didn't use the tools I had here. I threw the rest of that tin away and didn't touch the stuff again for another 2 months. Thought I had it beat once again but I was wrong. It slowly and gradually got worse where I would dip once every 2 weeks up until 4 or 5 months ago I was back to 3 tins a week.

Why it happened: There is only one answer to this question. I was an idiot and left the site. I stopped posting my daily roll call and lost the accountability. I thought I had won the battle but I was way off. Without the daily promise to my August 2012 group I didn't keep my quit strong. It wasn't my number 1 priority anymore because I thought I had won. I will always be an addict and always need to remind myself of that.

What will change: There are 2 things I will do differently this time. 1 is to be more active on the site. I will post more than my daily rollcall. I will get more involved and make my quit as strong as possible. The second is to never stop posting. I have learned the hard way unfortunately what that can do. I could be at over 2 years quit if I didn't make that mistake and leave in the first place. I quit for good June 2nd and am 15 days in. I will join up with the Sept. 2014 group if you all will have me back.

FFC

[Kubrick]

Just thought I would take some time to look back on the first month of my quit since I am struggling and craving quite a bit right now.

The first week didn't seem too bad and did most of it on my own. I think I joined around day 5 or so and I am very glad I did. If it wasn't for this site there is no way I would have made it this long. I think this week was easiest for me because I was so disgusted with myself for dipping and letting it run my life. I just said fuck it and didn't want it at all. The second week was what got me. The fog started I couldn't concentrate on anything whether it was work, sports, conversations etc. absolutely nothing. The only good thing about this week was the sleep. I would be so dead tired at the end of the day I would pass out for the night really early. I was also really pissed off most of the time. This week just sucked and I never want to repeat that. The third week got a little better. The fog lifted and I wasn't pissed all the time I could start concentrating more and didn't feel like overall shit. I did however start getting headaches all the time and got really bad anxiety a couple of times. Another thing I don't want to go through again. The craves really started kicking in that week. The nic bitch was whispering to me because I forgot what it was like to dip. I actually had to go buy a couple cans of Smokey Mtn. to get me through that. These last 5-7 days have been horrible for craves. The bitch keeps talking in my head and I can't take my mind off of it. Just have one just have one is all I keep hearing. No one will know if you have just one. I keep telling myself that I will know and that I don't want to start back at day 1 again. I don't want to lie to my brothers. It works for a little while then that bitch is back. I may need to get more of the fake to get me through. Sorry for the long winded recap but I needed to keep myself sane and remind myself how much I hate that shit.

Keep using the fake stuff. Day 83 for me, and I've needed more fake stuff in the past 2 weeks than I did during the previous time.

The cravings will come and go. Might be forever, some of the long term quitters can tell you about still getting cravings at 300+ days. It's a lot easier to fight through them though since freedom from slavery is much better than humping a can.


Hang in there, post roll daily, chat with your quit brothers and honor your word. I'm quit with you today. PM me if you need a number.

[FreeFromCope]

Just thought I would take some time to look back on the first month of my quit since I am struggling and craving quite a bit right now.

The first week didn't seem too bad and did most of it on my own. I think I joined around day 5 or so and I am very glad I did. If it wasn't for this site there is no way I would have made it this long. I think this week was easiest for me because I was so disgusted with myself for dipping and letting it run my life. I just said fuck it and didn't want it at all. The second week was what got me. The fog started I couldn't concentrate on anything whether it was work, sports, conversations etc. absolutely nothing. The only good thing about this week was the sleep. I would be so dead tired at the end of the day I would pass out for the night really early. I was also really pissed off most of the time. This week just sucked and I never want to repeat that. The third week got a little better. The fog lifted and I wasn't pissed all the time I could start concentrating more and didn't feel like overall shit. I did however start getting headaches all the time and got really bad anxiety a couple of times. Another thing I don't want to go through again. The craves really started kicking in that week. The nic bitch was whispering to me because I forgot what it was like to dip. I actually had to go buy a couple cans of Smokey Mtn. to get me through that. These last 5-7 days have been horrible for craves. The bitch keeps talking in my head and I can't take my mind off of it. Just have one just have one is all I keep hearing. No one will know if you have just one. I keep telling myself that I will know and that I don't want to start back at day 1 again. I don't want to lie to my brothers. It works for a little while then that bitch is back. I may need to get more of the fake to get me through. Sorry for the long winded recap but I needed to keep myself sane and remind myself how much I hate that shit.

[Mthomas3824]

Col Cope, yea it got to the point where I was mad at myself everytime I put a dip in my mouth. I didn't get that rush anymore or the small buzz it gave me when I first started to dip. I started to say what is the point of this? Why am I doing it? And it hit me that I was a total addict and needed to get it out of my life. I am glad I realized it so soon so it can't ruin my life. It is my life and I don't want to be controlled by fixing a crave. Thanks for reaching out.

'clap' 'clap'

I like the attitude. Embrace the suck and knock the nic bitch out!

[FreeFromCope]

Col Cope, yea it got to the point where I was mad at myself everytime I put a dip in my mouth. I didn't get that rush anymore or the small buzz it gave me when I first started to dip. I started to say what is the point of this? Why am I doing it? And it hit me that I was a total addict and needed to get it out of my life. I am glad I realized it so soon so it can't ruin my life. It is my life and I don't want to be controlled by fixing a crave. Thanks for reaching out.

[Colonel_No_Cope]

Holy sweet merciful crap... you've only dipped for a year and made this marvelous decision on your own?

I am fucking impressed to no end brother.

I wish I had come to my senses back then... just like hundreds of guys on KTC wish they had too.

Stay strong brother. Let me know if you ever need anything at all.

[FreeFromCope]

Hit the wrong button there to reply. Thanks for the feedback. I have posted roll today and will continue to post roll everyday from here on out. I am not using any nicotine only seeds to get me through. It has been tough but I know I can fight it and win.