Day 78 and I've reached a landmark of sorts, today I haven't wanted a dip. This wasn't a function of not thinking of dip the entire day either mind you because folks were sitting around talking of quitting smoking today which of course brought my own quit to mind, but I didn't miss the company of the grizzly bear nor wish I was off for a drive with a dip. I merely thought of a phase of life that is no more.
The good news is that it is possible for me to move past the strong desire to use. Of course I knew this already from longer periods of non use in life. The bad news is that now I have to fight against the enemy that will wait in ambush, I also know this from the end of longer periods of non use when I resumed being a fulltime, active addict.
Funny thing is that over the weekend I was jonesing hard but I just ignored it and kept living life. That grizzly bear don't own me anymore