Hi, new to the forums...not new to dip. Been doing it for nearly 10 years. Started when I was 19, am now almost 28. I am about a can every 2 days guy. In all honesty, Ive wanted to quit for a long time. Ive slowly seen my teeth and gums become more and more eroded and had a scare that maybe I thought oh shit this is cancer when my gums were hurting about 2 weeks ago. Turns out my wisdom tooth is coming through.
Ive quit for periods of time before. But I am addicted. And I hate it. I hate waking up feeling like I need to stick this crap in my mouth to feel good. I hate having bad breath and stinky spit bottles sitting in my room. I hate having to run to make late night runs to the gas station when Ive run out. I hate wanting to stay up late at night just so I can get one more pinch in. And I utterly hate falling asleep with a pinch in, and waking up gasping for air when im choking on my own spit. And as much as I hate it, my body and mind convince me that I need it...that I love it.
I have to stop...I want to do great things in my life, and if I continue down this path, I dont know if Ill be around to do the things I want. I dont want to die from this, and I certaintly dont want to end up with half my jaw and face missing.
I often fear that I have already done the damage...that maybe ive already screwed myself over...I pray I havent. I quit...No more starting today. It will be tough, but im so sick of wasting my money and health on this crap...
Thanks for listening...I will do this.