Hi, new to the forums...not new to dip. Been doing it for nearly 10 years. Started when I was 19, am now almost 28. I am about a can every 2 days guy. In all honesty, Ive wanted to quit for a long time. Ive slowly seen my teeth and gums become more and more eroded and had a scare that maybe I thought oh shit this is cancer when my gums were hurting about 2 weeks ago. Turns out my wisdom tooth is coming through.
Ive quit for periods of time before. But I am addicted. And I hate it. I hate waking up feeling like I need to stick this crap in my mouth to feel good. I hate having bad breath and stinky spit bottles sitting in my room. I hate having to run to make late night runs to the gas station when Ive run out. I hate wanting to stay up late at night just so I can get one more pinch in. And I utterly hate falling asleep with a pinch in, and waking up gasping for air when im choking on my own spit. And as much as I hate it, my body and mind convince me that I need it...that I love it.
I have to stop...I want to do great things in my life, and if I continue down this path, I dont know if Ill be around to do the things I want. I dont want to die from this, and I certaintly dont want to end up with half my jaw and face missing.
I often fear that I have already done the damage...that maybe ive already screwed myself over...I pray I havent. I quit...No more starting today. It will be tough, but im so sick of wasting my money and health on this crap...
Thanks for listening...I will do this.
Need to bump this intro back to the front. HmmMaybe,...tough handle for a site that prides itself on fostering badass quit. I'll say this,...that was a great intro. A prototype intro written by a day 1 addict. Please do not take offense to that, I'm not trying to be a jerk, just looking to re-sync your thought process for a minute. Up to this point you have only "stopped" for periods of time and moving forward you have to "quit" if you want great things. There's a huge difference between stopping and quitting. I used to stop for periods of time, but now I am quit. I am quit every day. See the difference.
What makes the intro so great is that it is loaded with addict talk. If you follow through, post roll and promise every day to stay quit, one day at a time. Should you read, learn, build a network of accountability, and own your quit, you will succeed.
Do yourself a favor and re-read this intro maybe after you have successfully quit day after day for 14 days or a month. You won't recognize the addict who wrote this intro, once you re-read it through the eyes of a quitter. I promise you it will be worth it. But until that day comes, I will quit with you every day, one day at time, until you can read this through the same lens as I. Lets do this!
