day 4 quit / fishing trip! no nic!

[Copper12]

I've been a slave to the can for nearly 19 years! I've tried many different methods to quit, and failed! I've even posted role on KTC and failed more than once because I leaned on myself instead of leaning on fellow quitters or the site to get me through rough times; therefore, causing me to cave! I don't have any excuses other than I fucked up! I really want to quit, and understand it won't be easy; and I will need the continued support from family, friends, and fellow quitters! What's different this time? Well, I'm more mentally prepared than I have been in the past and plan on attacking my addiction head on! I'm only 35 and have a lot of life left, and want to be here for my two kids and wife!

[bronc]

I've been a Cop for 10 years, and currently working graveyards, and was a slave to the can for over 18 years! I was training a rookie last night, and I let all the stresses of the job and training a rookie who needs a lot of help get to me; and ultimately caved and had one dip! Did I think that was going to help me get through tough times mentally? "YES", but did it, "NO"! I got home and spilled the news to my wife of 12 years, who broke down in tears; ultimately breaking my heart into pieces that I cannot began to describe to any of you today! This addiction has taken a toll on our marriage over the years, and more so today with the fuck up! Was the one dip worth all this pain I caused my wife and me? "FUCK NO"! My addiction mind took over not thinking of the consequences.

I thought I was doing good, but the addiction snuck up on me, and I didn't resort to what this website preaches. Yes, I posted roll every day up to this point, but didn't take it as serious as I should have (reading everything, getting several phone numbers and text/talking outside of this site, etc...) and didn't keep my fucking promise to you guys, which I sincerely apologize! I didn't take my quit serious on this day, and this is what fucking happened, 32 days down the fucking drain! It's 100% my fault for not using all the resources this site has to offer, which I'm convinced contributed to my fuck up! Trust me, if I can go back and change the past, I would! If I can go back and not ever become a slave to the can, I would! But I can't change the past! All I can do is learn from the stupid mistakes and work hard not to ever make the same mistakes; especially with this horrible fucking addiction to nicotine!

I know I will accept a beating from you guys/gals, but I deserve it! I'm sure people have caved before and came to this site to make the confession and ask for forgiveness; which I'm hoping everyone in August will forgive me and take me back as a member of this site! I'm prepared to post day 1 in October, and let October know of this fuck up; hoping they will also accept me!

I'm not going to lie, a part of me died and didn't didn't want to live after I had to see my wife grieve the way she did! But after thinking more, I want to live and have a lot to live for; otherwise I wouldn't be back on this site! I also dumped the can in the trash. I will have to endure the suck again even though it was one dip, but I'm prepared to take my life back with day 1. I learned from this, and hope it will help remind others that even though your 30 days, 60 days, etc.. in your quit, that letting the guard down even a little can and will result in my behavior (CAVE). I know now that the quit may get easier, but I will always be an addict and want chew/nicotine, and will probably always crave chew. Although I have to realize that I'm the one to control the addiction, and I have to be the one to say "NO, NOT EVER AGAIN".

Honestly, I don't know what else to say or how to put it, but owed it to everyone on this site to come back and explain myself! Guys/Gals, I'm so fucking sorry right now, and literally in tears right now! PLEASE, PLEASE, FORGIVE ME! I don't expect anyone to trust my word, because I will have to be the one who proves it to each and every one of you by posting every day and using the site to its fullest capabilities! However, I'm willing to take that step in October group!

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I'll be watching you in October. Prove me wrong, prove that you're a quitter.

Copper, where the hell are you?

[Bombero]

I've been a Cop for 10 years, and currently working graveyards, and was a slave to the can for over 18 years! I was training a rookie last night, and I let all the stresses of the job and training a rookie who needs a lot of help get to me; and ultimately caved and had one dip! Did I think that was going to help me get through tough times mentally? "YES", but did it, "NO"! I got home and spilled the news to my wife of 12 years, who broke down in tears; ultimately breaking my heart into pieces that I cannot began to describe to any of you today! This addiction has taken a toll on our marriage over the years, and more so today with the fuck up! Was the one dip worth all this pain I caused my wife and me? "FUCK NO"! My addiction mind took over not thinking of the consequences.

I thought I was doing good, but the addiction snuck up on me, and I didn't resort to what this website preaches. Yes, I posted roll every day up to this point, but didn't take it as serious as I should have (reading everything, getting several phone numbers and text/talking outside of this site, etc...) and didn't keep my fucking promise to you guys, which I sincerely apologize! I didn't take my quit serious on this day, and this is what fucking happened, 32 days down the fucking drain! It's 100% my fault for not using all the resources this site has to offer, which I'm convinced contributed to my fuck up! Trust me, if I can go back and change the past, I would! If I can go back and not ever become a slave to the can, I would! But I can't change the past! All I can do is learn from the stupid mistakes and work hard not to ever make the same mistakes; especially with this horrible fucking addiction to nicotine!

I know I will accept a beating from you guys/gals, but I deserve it! I'm sure people have caved before and came to this site to make the confession and ask for forgiveness; which I'm hoping everyone in August will forgive me and take me back as a member of this site! I'm prepared to post day 1 in October, and let October know of this fuck up; hoping they will also accept me!

I'm not going to lie, a part of me died and didn't didn't want to live after I had to see my wife grieve the way she did! But after thinking more, I want to live and have a lot to live for; otherwise I wouldn't be back on this site! I also dumped the can in the trash. I will have to endure the suck again even though it was one dip, but I'm prepared to take my life back with day 1. I learned from this, and hope it will help remind others that even though your 30 days, 60 days, etc.. in your quit, that letting the guard down even a little can and will result in my behavior (CAVE). I know now that the quit may get easier, but I will always be an addict and want chew/nicotine, and will probably always crave chew. Although I have to realize that I'm the one to control the addiction, and I have to be the one to say "NO, NOT EVER AGAIN".

Honestly, I don't know what else to say or how to put it, but owed it to everyone on this site to come back and explain myself! Guys/Gals, I'm so fucking sorry right now, and literally in tears right now! PLEASE, PLEASE, FORGIVE ME! I don't expect anyone to trust my word, because I will have to be the one who proves it to each and every one of you by posting every day and using the site to its fullest capabilities! However, I'm willing to take that step in October group!

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I'll be watching you in October. Prove me wrong, prove that you're a quitter.

[Raider]

Cooper. Keep telling your stories. Loved hearing about the fishing trip but keep everything in this Intro Thread. Use this one one as your journal. Things get way to busy in here if people keep making new threads. I'm sure a mod will merge/fix it. I actually think they already did

[Bombero]

Yee-Haw and let's find us some of them stump-broke horses y'all.........glad to be quit with you.

Did he just....yeah, yeah I do believe he did....

[brettlees]

Hey glad it's going good so far. Is this the same copper with the fishing trip? If so an admin will combine your threads for you. Just use the one intro thread. That's just learning tho-- main thing is stay quit!

[Raider]

Well guys, I'm proud of myself today! Day 13, and I went fishing today and took my brother (who still chews)...He knew I was quitting, and still pulled out a can in front of me anyways (bastard)! However, I was strong and told him not to get that shit all over my truck, and told him that he needed to quit too. He gave the excuse that he's just a recreational chewer (Work, Fishing, Hunting), and rationalized why that's ok, and that he only goes through a can every week! I told him it doesn't matter how much you chew, it's still bad for ya! He opens the can and says "ah, copenhagen"..(Fucker) He says, "I'll quit when I'm ready to quit".....That goes to show that it didn't matter what I said about quitting, that he already had his mind made up that he wasn't going to think about quitting! I also walked into gas stations to get snacks, etc...saw those evil cans, and said "fuck you, not today or any day"!!

I also encountered another guy that was chewing on the boat, but still remained strong; and may have convinced him to quit after he's been chewing for over 40 years! I stayed with my plan, and used Seeds, Gum, Jerky, and plenty of water; and was able to have fun fishing without DIP! That goes to show that I'll be able to have fun hunting in September without DIP!!!! Eventhough I may encounter someone chewing on the hunting trip, it also shows that I can remain strong in my quit!

This quit is much stronger than past quits!!!!! And this will be my last quit! Thanks KTC and the rest of August for your Support!

How about punching a mother fucker in the face?? Good god man the love for dipping is making me sick. Get pissed bro or you have NO shot at this.

Oh I would have punched my brother if I wasn't driving! I was pissed, that's why I'm telling my story; as it was a success story for me to share with everyone! Just goes to show guys that even though people choose to dip in front of you, you can remain strong in the quit! I'm not tooting my horn with this story either, just proud to remain strong during tough times, and proud to be quit!

Tough Times? Really. Whats tough about fishing, work, hunting? Not trying to pound a keyboard here, but help me figure out why a dip helps out in this "TOUGH" situation.

I thought he was talking about the temptation/pressure/previous trigger/social cue/whatever that was going on, not that fishing was a tough situation. (For me fishing is, but that's because I suck at it...)

Facing the Nic bitch head on has helped me in so many ways. In the past I stopped for three years, yes over 1000 days. I avoided dip as much as humanly possible. I paid at the pump, didn't go to Wal mart, etc. This go round has been different, not easy but different. I realized just because I quit that doesn't mean everyone else did. Now I go through the dip lane when I do go to Wal Mart. Face it and tell it to FO whenever possible. Male sure she knows you still hate her.

Good job on having to deal with it and not letting yourself cave.

[Bombero]

Well guys, I'm proud of myself today! Day 13, and I went fishing today and took my brother (who still chews)...He knew I was quitting, and still pulled out a can in front of me anyways (bastard)! However, I was strong and told him not to get that shit all over my truck, and told him that he needed to quit too. He gave the excuse that he's just a recreational chewer (Work, Fishing, Hunting), and rationalized why that's ok, and that he only goes through a can every week! I told him it doesn't matter how much you chew, it's still bad for ya! He opens the can and says "ah, copenhagen"..(Fucker) He says, "I'll quit when I'm ready to quit".....That goes to show that it didn't matter what I said about quitting, that he already had his mind made up that he wasn't going to think about quitting! I also walked into gas stations to get snacks, etc...saw those evil cans, and said "fuck you, not today or any day"!!

I also encountered another guy that was chewing on the boat, but still remained strong; and may have convinced him to quit after he's been chewing for over 40 years! I stayed with my plan, and used Seeds, Gum, Jerky, and plenty of water; and was able to have fun fishing without DIP! That goes to show that I'll be able to have fun hunting in September without DIP!!!! Eventhough I may encounter someone chewing on the hunting trip, it also shows that I can remain strong in my quit!

This quit is much stronger than past quits!!!!! And this will be my last quit! Thanks KTC and the rest of August for your Support!

How about punching a mother fucker in the face?? Good god man the love for dipping is making me sick. Get pissed bro or you have NO shot at this.

Oh I would have punched my brother if I wasn't driving! I was pissed, that's why I'm telling my story; as it was a success story for me to share with everyone! Just goes to show guys that even though people choose to dip in front of you, you can remain strong in the quit! I'm not tooting my horn with this story either, just proud to remain strong during tough times, and proud to be quit!

Tough Times? Really. Whats tough about fishing, work, hunting? Not trying to pound a keyboard here, but help me figure out why a dip helps out in this "TOUGH" situation.

I thought he was talking about the temptation/pressure/previous trigger/social cue/whatever that was going on, not that fishing was a tough situation. (For me fishing is, but that's because I suck at it...)

[duathman]

Well guys, I'm proud of myself today! Day 13, and I went fishing today and took my brother (who still chews)...He knew I was quitting, and still pulled out a can in front of me anyways (bastard)! However, I was strong and told him not to get that shit all over my truck, and told him that he needed to quit too. He gave the excuse that he's just a recreational chewer (Work, Fishing, Hunting), and rationalized why that's ok, and that he only goes through a can every week! I told him it doesn't matter how much you chew, it's still bad for ya! He opens the can and says "ah, copenhagen"..(Fucker) He says, "I'll quit when I'm ready to quit".....That goes to show that it didn't matter what I said about quitting, that he already had his mind made up that he wasn't going to think about quitting! I also walked into gas stations to get snacks, etc...saw those evil cans, and said "fuck you, not today or any day"!!

I also encountered another guy that was chewing on the boat, but still remained strong; and may have convinced him to quit after he's been chewing for over 40 years! I stayed with my plan, and used Seeds, Gum, Jerky, and plenty of water; and was able to have fun fishing without DIP! That goes to show that I'll be able to have fun hunting in September without DIP!!!! Eventhough I may encounter someone chewing on the hunting trip, it also shows that I can remain strong in my quit!

This quit is much stronger than past quits!!!!! And this will be my last quit! Thanks KTC and the rest of August for your Support!

How about punching a mother fucker in the face?? Good god man the love for dipping is making me sick. Get pissed bro or you have NO shot at this.

Oh I would have punched my brother if I wasn't driving! I was pissed, that's why I'm telling my story; as it was a success story for me to share with everyone! Just goes to show guys that even though people choose to dip in front of you, you can remain strong in the quit! I'm not tooting my horn with this story either, just proud to remain strong during tough times, and proud to be quit!

Tough Times? Really. Whats tough about fishing, work, hunting? Not trying to pound a keyboard here, but help me figure out why a dip helps out in this "TOUGH" situation.

[Copper12]

Well guys, I'm proud of myself today! Day 13, and I went fishing today and took my brother (who still chews)...He knew I was quitting, and still pulled out a can in front of me anyways (bastard)! However, I was strong and told him not to get that shit all over my truck, and told him that he needed to quit too. He gave the excuse that he's just a recreational chewer (Work, Fishing, Hunting), and rationalized why that's ok, and that he only goes through a can every week! I told him it doesn't matter how much you chew, it's still bad for ya! He opens the can and says "ah, copenhagen"..(Fucker) He says, "I'll quit when I'm ready to quit".....That goes to show that it didn't matter what I said about quitting, that he already had his mind made up that he wasn't going to think about quitting! I also walked into gas stations to get snacks, etc...saw those evil cans, and said "fuck you, not today or any day"!!

I also encountered another guy that was chewing on the boat, but still remained strong; and may have convinced him to quit after he's been chewing for over 40 years! I stayed with my plan, and used Seeds, Gum, Jerky, and plenty of water; and was able to have fun fishing without DIP! That goes to show that I'll be able to have fun hunting in September without DIP!!!! Eventhough I may encounter someone chewing on the hunting trip, it also shows that I can remain strong in my quit!

This quit is much stronger than past quits!!!!! And this will be my last quit! Thanks KTC and the rest of August for your Support!

How about punching a mother fucker in the face?? Good god man the love for dipping is making me sick. Get pissed bro or you have NO shot at this.

Oh I would have punched my brother if I wasn't driving! I was pissed, that's why I'm telling my story; as it was a success story for me to share with everyone! Just goes to show guys that even though people choose to dip in front of you, you can remain strong in the quit! I'm not tooting my horn with this story either, just proud to remain strong during tough times, and proud to be quit!

[duathman]

Well guys, I'm proud of myself today! Day 13, and I went fishing today and took my brother (who still chews)...He knew I was quitting, and still pulled out a can in front of me anyways (bastard)! However, I was strong and told him not to get that shit all over my truck, and told him that he needed to quit too. He gave the excuse that he's just a recreational chewer (Work, Fishing, Hunting), and rationalized why that's ok, and that he only goes through a can every week! I told him it doesn't matter how much you chew, it's still bad for ya! He opens the can and says "ah, copenhagen"..(Fucker) He says, "I'll quit when I'm ready to quit".....That goes to show that it didn't matter what I said about quitting, that he already had his mind made up that he wasn't going to think about quitting! I also walked into gas stations to get snacks, etc...saw those evil cans, and said "fuck you, not today or any day"!!

I also encountered another guy that was chewing on the boat, but still remained strong; and may have convinced him to quit after he's been chewing for over 40 years! I stayed with my plan, and used Seeds, Gum, Jerky, and plenty of water; and was able to have fun fishing without DIP! That goes to show that I'll be able to have fun hunting in September without DIP!!!! Eventhough I may encounter someone chewing on the hunting trip, it also shows that I can remain strong in my quit!

This quit is much stronger than past quits!!!!! And this will be my last quit! Thanks KTC and the rest of August for your Support!

How about punching a mother fucker in the face?? Good god man the love for dipping is making me sick. Get pissed bro or you have NO shot at this.

[Copper12]

Well guys, I'm proud of myself today! Day 13, and I went fishing today and took my brother (who still chews)...He knew I was quitting, and still pulled out a can in front of me anyways (bastard)! However, I was strong and told him not to get that shit all over my truck, and told him that he needed to quit too. He gave the excuse that he's just a recreational chewer (Work, Fishing, Hunting), and rationalized why that's ok, and that he only goes through a can every week! I told him it doesn't matter how much you chew, it's still bad for ya! He opens the can and says "ah, copenhagen"..(Fucker) He says, "I'll quit when I'm ready to quit".....That goes to show that it didn't matter what I said about quitting, that he already had his mind made up that he wasn't going to think about quitting! I also walked into gas stations to get snacks, etc...saw those evil cans, and said "fuck you, not today or any day"!!

I also encountered another guy that was chewing on the boat, but still remained strong; and may have convinced him to quit after he's been chewing for over 40 years! I stayed with my plan, and used Seeds, Gum, Jerky, and plenty of water; and was able to have fun fishing without DIP! That goes to show that I'll be able to have fun hunting in September without DIP!!!! Eventhough I may encounter someone chewing on the hunting trip, it also shows that I can remain strong in my quit!

This quit is much stronger than past quits!!!!! And this will be my last quit! Thanks KTC and the rest of August for your Support!

[Thumblewort]

Yee-Haw and let's find us some of them stump-broke horses y'all.........glad to be quit with you.

[Copper12]

Great find on the avatar. Must be a country bumpkin to be putting that one up....

I like country music and country women, so if thats what a country bumpkin is, then yes I am!!!!!

Sounds good to me! Copper Up!

Glad to be quit with ya!

[J2thaZ]

Great find on the avatar. Must be a country bumpkin to be putting that one up....

I like country music and country women, so if thats what a country bumpkin is, then yes I am!!!!!

Sounds good to me! Copper Up!