Well I started smoking when I was fifteen, dipping came soon afterwards on the long high school hockey bus rides to and from games. Been a smoker and closet dipper ever since- I'm 30 now. Only really smoke when I drink, cut that out a couple months ago. But I've been dipping a can a day for quiet awhile.
So I deployed a couple months ago and found out that my deployed base doesn't sell tobacco anymore! If your ready to quit that's a pretty fantastic deal. But you can imagine how I felt getting blindsided by that fact. I was having copenhagen shipped to me, I was going through withdrawals as I was waiting for my packages to come. I never realized how addicted I was until I got those withdrawals, it was pathetic. I was buying the chew online with a credit card so my wife didn't see the $130 purchase for something she absolutely hates.
So July 24th (edited* I had put 30th for some reason) I randomly emailed the wife and told her I was quitting the next day. I usually never tell anyone that I'm trying to quit, for obvious reasons, the same reasons why I never really quit before. But I did it this time, it's been really hard but once I quit I found this website which has helped. I remind myself of all the stupid crap I do back home to get a dip. The times I didn't let my little boy come with me because I'd rather dip than hang out with him. The random trips to home depot and the gas station. Honestly dipping is about the only reason I've ever fought with my wife. So I've been dip free for 8 days now, the longest I've ever gone since bootcamp 11 years ago, pretty sad it's been that long, but exciting that it's happening now. Haven't been sleeping well but I'm finding myself in a better mood than when I was dipping. So here's to life without nicotine, it's that time and I'm ready for it.