You are doing something that only the strongest and most dedicated addict can do. You quit! You used this site as an inspiration to drive your decision and prolonged success.
Can a quitter be successful without going all in on this site? Without posting roll? Without making connections? Without accountability and brotherhood? I guess??? I dunno... Cause to be honest I haven't met any successful long term quitters except for the thousands in this site. Dude I'm glad you have posted here. I hope you post roll. It works, and is a free insurance policy to protect your quit.
Your family doesn't understand. And I hope they never do. Quitting is miserable at first. Not forever, but it is fucking miserable at first. But you know what...? Dude you are the one that made the decision to do this X years ago. You are the one that bolted out of school to strap on your seatbelt and shove your face full of neurotoxin. You are the dumb fuck that wasted 10s of thousands of dollars on this shit. It hurt your family for years.... It took time away from them. It could have taken you away from them.
Now, I have earned the right to call you a dumb fuck shit for brains dumb ass etc etc because I was you. I chewed s can a day for 25+ years. 45k gone. And I was an ass for a while too. But then I joined a quit group here on Ktc and sone killer dudes helped me through the darkest time of my life. They told me, on day 16 when I joined, that life would get better. That brighter days were ahead. That the misery that I was telling would pass. And that I had no right to punish my family for my bad decisions. Dude I cannot begin to tell you how pissed I was to be told this stuff. These guys on here with 100, 500, 1000 days had no clue wtf I was going thru. They probably had a cakewalk of a quit. Now I get it.
But I listened. I posted. Every day. I got numbers of others in my group, of groups close to mine, and of vets. Day by day it got a little better. Then a lot. The struggles took time. There were hard days, but I listened and followed their lead. And I was completely honest with my wife after that. It is the hardest thing I've ever done too. And the best.
You have my respect sir. I get where you are coming from. I remember what those shoes felt like. And I promise you, brighter days are ahead. My number is your for the asking... Just send me a pm. You can do this.
-w2w