Vlassic,
When you post roll, you give your word. This site is about accountability...we depend on you to keep your word, you depend on us to do the same. We're in this together, brother.
When I say I'm giving my word, I mean that I can guarantee to you that no matter what the fuck happens today I will not put any goddam nicotine in my fucking body today!!! And I will do whatever I have to do to keep my word. Think about that..."whatever I have to do to keep my word." And I trust that you are doing all you can to keep your word.
I don't judge or criticize. If you say you can handle bowling, I'll take your word on it. But be careful. Why make this harder than it has to be? If you're serious about quitting, start making good choices. Stay away from triggers. IT IS LIFE AND DEATH we're talking about here.
Yes, it is that serious. It is deadly serious. Nobody can do this for you. Quitting is not a gradual process. Quitting is done by going cold turkey, one one one day at a time. Read the Kern family story. Read HOF speeches. Read all you can on this site. You and your buddies can bowl for many years to come if you commit yourself to this now.