Introduction

[Dagranger]

Should be an interesting day today. I'm visiting my hometown and hanging out with two of my best friends who are both dippers. I'm actually responsible for introducing both of them to the shit, so obviously I feel great about that. (One of them introduced me to my fiancée and I introduced him to a highly addictive poison that slowly eats your face, shit exchange for him.) I don't think either uses as heavily as I did, but for the last decade, there has always been a can around whenever we've hung out. I told one of them about the quit and he was supportive but skeptical - not unfairly.

We're planning on shooting some clays this afternoon, which is obviously a trigger for me (pun absolutely intended 'Remshot' ). Isn't it fucked that this stuff kind of takes over things we really should be able to enjoy on our own? It's so insidious that we can't even enjoy our favorite things the same way without it.

I'm really not concerned about a cave, in fact I've posted roll, so caving isn't even an option for the next 24 hours. However, this will be the first time I'll be dealing with the peer pressure aspect of the quit. I don't really have any dip buddies where I live now, so being back home will be a good test.

Best of luck to anyone else dealing with a big weekend. Stay focused and stay quit.

You are a bad ass. You are honest, and direct. Keep posting. One day at a time greatness is ahead.

Keep up the logical thinking. There is absolutely NO reason to put a flavored plant in your lips. But your addicted self will come up with all kinds of reasons why that's not true. On a side note, it takes a while but if you do the things you love enough times without dip, you can reprogram your mind to not associate the activity with dip.

[worktowin]

Should be an interesting day today. I'm visiting my hometown and hanging out with two of my best friends who are both dippers. I'm actually responsible for introducing both of them to the shit, so obviously I feel great about that. (One of them introduced me to my fiancée and I introduced him to a highly addictive poison that slowly eats your face, shit exchange for him.) I don't think either uses as heavily as I did, but for the last decade, there has always been a can around whenever we've hung out. I told one of them about the quit and he was supportive but skeptical - not unfairly.

We're planning on shooting some clays this afternoon, which is obviously a trigger for me (pun absolutely intended 'Remshot' ). Isn't it fucked that this stuff kind of takes over things we really should be able to enjoy on our own? It's so insidious that we can't even enjoy our favorite things the same way without it.

I'm really not concerned about a cave, in fact I've posted roll, so caving isn't even an option for the next 24 hours. However, this will be the first time I'll be dealing with the peer pressure aspect of the quit. I don't really have any dip buddies where I live now, so being back home will be a good test.

Best of luck to anyone else dealing with a big weekend. Stay focused and stay quit.

You are a bad ass. You are honest, and direct. Keep posting. One day at a time greatness is ahead.

[pky1520]

Should be an interesting day today. I'm visiting my hometown and hanging out with two of my best friends who are both dippers. I'm actually responsible for introducing both of them to the shit, so obviously I feel great about that. (One of them introduced me to my fiancée and I introduced him to a highly addictive poison that slowly eats your face, shit exchange for him.) I don't think either uses as heavily as I did, but for the last decade, there has always been a can around whenever we've hung out. I told one of them about the quit and he was supportive but skeptical - not unfairly.

We're planning on shooting some clays this afternoon, which is obviously a trigger for me (pun absolutely intended 'Remshot' ). Isn't it fucked that this stuff kind of takes over things we really should be able to enjoy on our own? It's so insidious that we can't even enjoy our favorite things the same way without it.

I'm really not concerned about a cave, in fact I've posted roll, so caving isn't even an option for the next 24 hours. However, this will be the first time I'll be dealing with the peer pressure aspect of the quit. I don't really have any dip buddies where I live now, so being back home will be a good test.

Best of luck to anyone else dealing with a big weekend. Stay focused and stay quit.

[medquit]

Sounds about where I'm at. Driving is not fun, but if I keep myself busy on the phone or listening to news or something my mind doesn't have time to wander/start rationalizing buying a tin, etc. Man nic is insidious though, it seems like it's just hiding in the shadows waiting for me to forget about it for a little while, then it starts trying to steer me back towards it again (no pun intended).

[pky1520]

Good luck with the poker game - I think looking forward to it as a challenge and attacking it, rather than trying to avoid tough situations is absolutely the way to go about this thing. If you can handle your buddies trying to get under your skin in a competitive environment, you can manage the day to day.

I had a mild win today. Started out the morning with a fight with the lady - nothing serious, but enough to get me agitated. I had a few errands to run that allowed me about an hour of driving around. I also needed to stop for gas. Normally, an argument in the morning followed by an opportunity would have been a guaranteed XL lipper, regardless of whether or not I was "trying to quit" at the moment. But, I managed to run my errands, cool down and fill the tank w/out my usual "Cope"ing mechanism.

I do feel that coming to this site and making a statement (even if it was to strangers) contributed to me making the decision that I did.

Congrats on the win man, you should feel awesome for handling your trigger so well, and it will continue to benefit you as that is one experience you can refer to next time you get in a stressful situation and say to yourself "I didn't need it then, I don't need it now."

How have the last few days been for you?

Thanks Med - it's been good the last few days, fog has definitely tapered off. Still have pretty strong craves, but it hasn't led to any close calls yet.

How about you? How was the road trip?

[medquit]

Good luck with the poker game - I think looking forward to it as a challenge and attacking it, rather than trying to avoid tough situations is absolutely the way to go about this thing. If you can handle your buddies trying to get under your skin in a competitive environment, you can manage the day to day.

I had a mild win today. Started out the morning with a fight with the lady - nothing serious, but enough to get me agitated. I had a few errands to run that allowed me about an hour of driving around. I also needed to stop for gas. Normally, an argument in the morning followed by an opportunity would have been a guaranteed XL lipper, regardless of whether or not I was "trying to quit" at the moment. But, I managed to run my errands, cool down and fill the tank w/out my usual "Cope"ing mechanism.

I do feel that coming to this site and making a statement (even if it was to strangers) contributed to me making the decision that I did.

Congrats on the win man, you should feel awesome for handling your trigger so well, and it will continue to benefit you as that is one experience you can refer to next time you get in a stressful situation and say to yourself "I didn't need it then, I don't need it now."

How have the last few days been for you?

[pky1520]

Good luck with the poker game - I think looking forward to it as a challenge and attacking it, rather than trying to avoid tough situations is absolutely the way to go about this thing. If you can handle your buddies trying to get under your skin in a competitive environment, you can manage the day to day.

I had a mild win today. Started out the morning with a fight with the lady - nothing serious, but enough to get me agitated. I had a few errands to run that allowed me about an hour of driving around. I also needed to stop for gas. Normally, an argument in the morning followed by an opportunity would have been a guaranteed XL lipper, regardless of whether or not I was "trying to quit" at the moment. But, I managed to run my errands, cool down and fill the tank w/out my usual "Cope"ing mechanism.

I do feel that coming to this site and making a statement (even if it was to strangers) contributed to me making the decision that I did.

[HighTon]

I'm going to go fishing after work this evening. A week ago, I'd have rather left behind my rod than my cope, but I'm going at this thing head on. If I can avoid it in a situation where I'd absolutely have had it, I think it'll make regular cravings more manageable.

Do people find the fake stuff helpful? I haven't tried it before, but feel like it could be more aggravating than anything - like someone trying to hand you a veggie burger at a bbq.

I'll be playing in my regular poker game this weekend and I'm looking forward to facing it head on. There will be 8 guys there dipping, but I'm not too worried.

I use the fake. I feel it really helps me. At times when I would normally reach for the Cope, I am still reaching for something. I stopped dipping for 9 months a few years back and the fake got me through the first few months. After that I just quit buying it.

[baseballbrett]

Thanks for the replies, guys.

Today has been miserable. Really in a daze. It feels like I haven't slept in two days. I'm trying to do anything that I can to keep my mind off of dip, and my fucking brain keeps being like "great work, you should celebrate with a dip!"

Reading some of the stories on this site has been helpful. I'm telling myself that every craving that I don't cave into will help my body figure out how to manage without nicotine, so this period is actually a good thing. But still, my knuckles are white.

I'm going to go fishing after work this evening. A week ago, I'd have rather left behind my rod than my cope, but I'm going at this thing head on. If I can avoid it in a situation where I'd absolutely have had it, I think it'll make regular cravings more manageable.

Do people find the fake stuff helpful? I haven't tried it before, but feel like it could be more aggravating than anything - like someone trying to hand you a veggie burger at a bbq.

I've done coffee chew. Didn't really do it for me. I bought a huge bag of sunflower seeds. Those at least keep me occupied and take my mind off things. Drink a shitload of water too.

[pky1520]

Thanks for the replies, guys.

Today has been miserable. Really in a daze. It feels like I haven't slept in two days. I'm trying to do anything that I can to keep my mind off of dip, and my fucking brain keeps being like "great work, you should celebrate with a dip!"

Reading some of the stories on this site has been helpful. I'm telling myself that every craving that I don't cave into will help my body figure out how to manage without nicotine, so this period is actually a good thing. But still, my knuckles are white.

I'm going to go fishing after work this evening. A week ago, I'd have rather left behind my rod than my cope, but I'm going at this thing head on. If I can avoid it in a situation where I'd absolutely have had it, I think it'll make regular cravings more manageable.

Do people find the fake stuff helpful? I haven't tried it before, but feel like it could be more aggravating than anything - like someone trying to hand you a veggie burger at a bbq.

[baseballbrett]

Welcolme pky, and congrats on your decision to quit the poison. I recently decided to quit too, and I am in the August group as well. I have found that posting roll every damn day helps me stay accountable. Just reading what the vets have written and posting roll will help keep you on track. If you need some digits, just PM me. Embrace the suck - we're in it together.

[Idaho Spuds]

Greetings,

This is my first time posting to this board, although I became aware of the site several years ago, during a failed quit attempt. I'm 29 and started dipping about 11 years ago. I've been at 1-1.5 cans/ day for probably 5 years. Copenhagen Long Cut. Seeing that in black  white honestly makes me sick.

I started during my freshman year in college. I was pledging a fraternity and pledges actually weren't allowed to dip/ smoke, although we had to carry it around at all times in case a brother wanted some. It started as a subtle way of rebelling against the rules. I continued because I liked it and because I thought it made me look cool/ tough/ whatever. It was an SEC school and half the guys I knew dipped. I'd quit when I graduated.

Well, I didn't quit when I graduated. I lived with a couple of friends from school and we all chewed. I liked to fish and hunt, and I certainly wasn't gonna quit during duck season. It was no big deal, we were 22, I'd quit when I hit 25.

Well, I didn't quit when I was 25. I had my own place and a good job, there was no harm in having a little relaxing vice after work (or hunting, or fishing, or driving, or mowing the lawn, or watching TV). I'd quit when I got engaged.

Well, I didn't quit when I got engaged. We moved in together and although she kinda knew that this was something I did when I was fishing/ hunting/ with my guy friends, she didn't really know how addicted I was (am).

I keep thinking that I'll quit when I get married, but looking at my track record, I know it's horseshit. I need to quit NOW, for me, for her and for the family I want to have. I've tried this half assed before, but I've never committed anything to paper and demanded accountability from myself.

My last dip was on Monday (May 2). I've felt nauseous, foggy, panicked, irritable and frankly weak. I got in my truck today and almost went to the shell station, but instead I got out and came to this site. I'm not quitting sometime in the future and I'm not doing it half assed this time. I quit on May 2 and that is it.

Thanks for the support - I know I'm going to need it.

PKy,
Congratulations on your decision and welcome.
Your quit group is August 2016
Post roll everyday, this is the backbone of the site.
Idaho Spuds

[pky1520]

Greetings,

This is my first time posting to this board, although I became aware of the site several years ago, during a failed quit attempt. I'm 29 and started dipping about 11 years ago. I've been at 1-1.5 cans/ day for probably 5 years. Copenhagen Long Cut. Seeing that in black  white honestly makes me sick.

I started during my freshman year in college. I was pledging a fraternity and pledges actually weren't allowed to dip/ smoke, although we had to carry it around at all times in case a brother wanted some. It started as a subtle way of rebelling against the rules. I continued because I liked it and because I thought it made me look cool/ tough/ whatever. It was an SEC school and half the guys I knew dipped. I'd quit when I graduated.

Well, I didn't quit when I graduated. I lived with a couple of friends from school and we all chewed. I liked to fish and hunt, and I certainly wasn't gonna quit during duck season. It was no big deal, we were 22, I'd quit when I hit 25.

Well, I didn't quit when I was 25. I had my own place and a good job, there was no harm in having a little relaxing vice after work (or hunting, or fishing, or driving, or mowing the lawn, or watching TV). I'd quit when I got engaged.

Well, I didn't quit when I got engaged. We moved in together and although she kinda knew that this was something I did when I was fishing/ hunting/ with my guy friends, she didn't really know how addicted I was (am).

I keep thinking that I'll quit when I get married, but looking at my track record, I know it's horseshit. I need to quit NOW, for me, for her and for the family I want to have. I've tried this half assed before, but I've never committed anything to paper and demanded accountability from myself.

My last dip was on Monday (May 2). I've felt nauseous, foggy, panicked, irritable and frankly weak. I got in my truck today and almost went to the shell station, but instead I got out and came to this site. I'm not quitting sometime in the future and I'm not doing it half assed this time. I quit on May 2 and that is it.

Thanks for the support - I know I'm going to need it.

[pky1520]

Congratulations, Pea!  It has been such a pleasure and privilege to have been able to get to know you here at KTC.  You definitely have been an inspiration to me in my journey.  Thank you for that.  The Dumpster Fire was so very lucky to have scored such a great duo in you and Fish as our conductors.   Hard to believe I can say this, but "good times." 

FLLIP

Thanks so much FLLIP!  It's been great getting to know you and watching you keep that group of animals in line!  You're right, in a very weird way, it has actually been fun.

[FLLipOut]

Congratulations, Pea!  It has been such a pleasure and privilege to have been able to get to know you here at KTC.  You definitely have been an inspiration to me in my journey.  Thank you for that.  The Dumpster Fire was so very lucky to have scored such a great duo in you and Fish as our conductors.   Hard to believe I can say this, but "good times." 

FLLIP