Strangest feeling of my life. I've "quit" before, but never felt this way. I've been wondering around my house and the net for the last 4 days just wondering what the hell is going on. I stumbled onto this site yesterday and been reading and de-scrambling my brain ever since.
I've been into my Copie for the past 12 years. I've wanted to hang it up for who knows how long and for some reason - Tuesday became my day. Like I said - I've quit before, but every time I did, I think I ended up chewing even worse. It got to the point where if I was awake - I had it in. I'd wake up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason and then stay up for a half hour so I could take another dip. It got to the point where I felt like I was watching someone else. No way could I be that disgusting..........hahaha anyway - wrong or right I binged through my last can Monday night until it was gone and I haven't been back to the store since. The first couple of days I was fine as long as I kept my mind busy, but ever since then - I'm living in what I now know is called the Fog. I'm forgetting, I have no concentration, and I'm dizzy. Kind of like being on cold medicine with the added thrill of a nice dull headache constantly pounding and the inability to sleep.
Anyway - short and sweet - this is where I'm at. I've already chatted with a couple of you and I'm looking forward to future conversations. In a matter of hours - this thing became bigger than just me - I feel like I could be part of something here. I'm glad I found you guys.