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Offline Jungleland

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #32 on: August 16, 2013, 12:24:00 PM »
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Congratulations bro. I saw you posted up for 200, I agree one of your best decisions in life. QLF with you all day ODAAT.
Thanks Guys. Had to sign up for 200, going back to doing this alone just isn't going to work - 100 days just isn't enough time to put the final nail into this addiction.

I want to wake up some day and think to myself, Wow - I haven't thought about having a chew in a long time., and until I can get there - I'll be here.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #31 on: August 14, 2013, 07:30:00 PM »
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Congratulations bro. I saw you posted up for 200, I agree one of your best decisions in life. QLF with you all day ODAAT.
What E said. Great job

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #30 on: August 14, 2013, 04:46:00 PM »
Congratulations bro. I saw you posted up for 200, I agree one of your best decisions in life. QLF with you all day ODAAT.
I would rather lose to a cheater than win as a cheater.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #29 on: August 13, 2013, 04:44:00 PM »
Tomorrow is your big day Bro. Got you a spot on the train ready just for you. Well done. But don't forget it's still just ODAAT man and sign your ass up for the 200! Quit with you man! Erussell day 106
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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #28 on: July 31, 2013, 03:04:00 PM »
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Was driving in today, and Springsteen's Darkness on the Edge of Town was on Pandora. Reminded me about being a Ninja Chewer for close to 30 years.

Everybody's got a secret Sonny
Something that they just can't face
Some folks spend their whole lives trying to keep it
They carry it with them every step that they take
Till some day they just cut it loose
Cut it loose or let it drag 'em down

It feels great to not have to hide this addiction and no longer be a slave to the pouch or can. Have carried this shit every day for far too long - I've cut it loose.

Quit with you all today.
Nice job, my friend! Cut it loose indeed!

Keep pushing forward. There's a lot of freedom to explore.

Thanks for posting in Feb 11 with the old guys.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #27 on: July 31, 2013, 02:41:00 PM »
Was driving in today, and Springsteen's Darkness on the Edge of Town was on Pandora. Reminded me about being a Ninja Chewer for close to 30 years.

Everybody's got a secret Sonny
Something that they just can't face
Some folks spend their whole lives trying to keep it
They carry it with them every step that they take
Till some day they just cut it loose
Cut it loose or let it drag 'em down

It feels great to not have to hide this addiction and no longer be a slave to the pouch or can. Have carried this shit every day for far too long - I've cut it loose.

Quit with you all today.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #26 on: July 08, 2013, 06:07:00 PM »
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Still going strong at 60+ days. Like a runner, I've really hit my stride recently, it's a good thing too as I consider this a marathon, of which I'm living a tiny piece each day. It's been - Post roll - keep word - repeat. It's funny (in a good way) that Erussell is counting days like a hawk - I just can't remember which one it is without counting since every day is day 1 to me. To each his own though - you are a quit monster Erussell that's for sure.

It is amazing how much calmer I feel these days. The anxiety of the initial quit is all but gone, I'm sure my blood pressure and pulse rate have greatly improved. I am keenly aware though I could be hit by an intense crave at any point - I've read as much here from those you've quit before me.

Also have been reflecting on my wife's uncle who was a long time dipper. He was a good man, he left a wife and three kids - he died over 9 years ago from pancreatic cancer at 51! Who dies of pancreatic cancer at 51?? This really is life or death folks - I've said it before but I'll say it again, to anyone who is thinking about quitting: Quit now on your own terms, or you'll quit on someone else's (the doctor's, or worse). What I've been thinking about most is how incredibly sad it was that I never thought twice about this as I was stuffing my cake-hole with nic every damn day.

I'm quit with you all today.
Not out of the woods and a few funks lie ahead. What is great is that you already faced them so you know what to expect and what is required. Only focus on today because tomorrow is too far away.

Nice work and its exciting to read a post where I get a quit boner. Way to punch nicotine in the mouth today!
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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #25 on: July 08, 2013, 05:29:00 PM »
Still going strong at 60+ days. Like a runner, I've really hit my stride recently, it's a good thing too as I consider this a marathon, of which I'm living a tiny piece each day. It's been - Post roll - keep word - repeat. It's funny (in a good way) that Erussell is counting days like a hawk - I just can't remember which one it is without counting since every day is day 1 to me. To each his own though - you are a quit monster Erussell that's for sure.

It is amazing how much calmer I feel these days. The anxiety of the initial quit is all but gone, I'm sure my blood pressure and pulse rate have greatly improved. I am keenly aware though I could be hit by an intense crave at any point - I've read as much here from those you've quit before me.

Also have been reflecting on my wife's uncle who was a long time dipper. He was a good man, he left a wife and three kids - he died over 9 years ago from pancreatic cancer at 51! Who dies of pancreatic cancer at 51?? This really is life or death folks - I've said it before but I'll say it again, to anyone who is thinking about quitting: Quit now on your own terms, or you'll quit on someone else's (the doctor's, or worse). What I've been thinking about most is how incredibly sad it was that I never thought twice about this as I was stuffing my cake-hole with nic every damn day.

I'm quit with you all today.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #24 on: June 03, 2013, 03:49:00 PM »
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28 days in and I'd like to add a couple random thoughts -

Evil Won just posted something in an intro thread that hits home for me -
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I'm only 237 days quit and I still think about dip at least a dozen times a day. Yes, the urges to actually go out and buy a can has lessened, but the thought of dipping is just as strong as ever. I don't think the thought of dip will ever disappear and I don't really want it to either. I bet that sounds fucked up, but every time I think about dip I get pissed and realize that I'm an addict. I get pissed that 237 days later this shit still has a slight grab of me. That anger fuels my desire to quit today.
All I have to say is Amen Brother, I know I am very early in my quit - and I think about having a chew multiple times per day too. It is fucked up and it just shows how bad this shit really is... I'm really pissed I let nic have so much control of my day to day life. It's stupid.

It also pisses me off that I like so many started doing this shit before we had a lot of practice making good choices. It's bad enough when someone starts later in life, but it's just plain sad when your 14 or 15 and you are introduced to this by someone who should know better. I'm not absolving myself, it's a choice I made, and I should have known better. I do know better now and have made my choice for today and plan on making the same choice tomorrow.

- It's a good thing this shit has gotten so expensive (and yes I complained about it costing so much).
- I've had a couple dip dreams and yes I was pissed that I had a chew and woke up relieved.
- I'm not going to let this shit define me - I define me.
- The moment I knew I was committed to be quit was when I threw away every spittoon laying around. I had been nic free for several days and I noticed I still had all these potential spittoons saved. There were always soda or water bottles laying around, but now I just pitch em in the recycle bin. No need to have these lying around when you're quit.

I'm just a little pissed today for no real reason.
every day is something new in your quit right now. More than likely this is the longest you've been quit. Keep posting every damn day regardless. You are breaking the routine you (we) let control our lives.

Re-train the body and the brain -

How you react to any given situation is now under your control.

Accept the fact you don't have all the answers (remind myself daily at 521)

Go find a newer noob to help or exchange numbers and promise to be their accountability bud - ( if you don't post they light you up and vice versa)

Take what you need and the leave the rest

Keep you word

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #23 on: June 03, 2013, 01:34:00 PM »
28 days in and I'd like to add a couple random thoughts -

Evil Won just posted something in an intro thread that hits home for me -
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I'm only 237 days quit and I still think about dip at least a dozen times a day. Yes, the urges to actually go out and buy a can has lessened, but the thought of dipping is just as strong as ever. I don't think the thought of dip will ever disappear and I don't really want it to either. I bet that sounds fucked up, but every time I think about dip I get pissed and realize that I'm an addict. I get pissed that 237 days later this shit still has a slight grab of me. That anger fuels my desire to quit today.
All I have to say is Amen Brother, I know I am very early in my quit - and I think about having a chew multiple times per day too. It is fucked up and it just shows how bad this shit really is... I'm really pissed I let nic have so much control of my day to day life. It's stupid.

It also pisses me off that I like so many started doing this shit before we had a lot of practice making good choices. It's bad enough when someone starts later in life, but it's just plain sad when your 14 or 15 and you are introduced to this by someone who should know better. I'm not absolving myself, it's a choice I made, and I should have known better. I do know better now and have made my choice for today and plan on making the same choice tomorrow.

- It's a good thing this shit has gotten so expensive (and yes I complained about it costing so much).
- I've had a couple dip dreams and yes I was pissed that I had a chew and woke up relieved.
- I'm not going to let this shit define me - I define me.
- The moment I knew I was committed to be quit was when I threw away every spittoon laying around. I had been nic free for several days and I noticed I still had all these potential spittoons saved. There were always soda or water bottles laying around, but now I just pitch em in the recycle bin. No need to have these lying around when you're quit.

I'm just a little pissed today for no real reason.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #22 on: May 25, 2013, 10:06:00 AM »
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......

Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....

While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
Fair enough. I live in MD, and work in IT and am in my mid/late 40's. I'm originally from western PA, as in coal, steel, chewing and alcohol. My father retired from the mines and my father in law did 12 years in the mines until his closed.

Don't think because I waited until after the first week to write an intro that the first several days didn't suck! I spent a lot of time reading a lot of other peoples rants and intro's on this site and in many cases knew exactly what they were saying.

I've chewed a little less than a pack of Red Man a day for years - and I've tried quiting on my own before. Why'd I quit and what will be different this time? First why'd I quit, a couple reasons, one it was affecting my health and blood pressure more than in the past, and it costs more every day it seems and I've been asking myself why am I spending all this money on this, and as odd as it sounds, I've starting getting the sense that it made me a little mean - to myself, the kids and the wife.

What will be different this time is that I will post roll and be a man of my word. I've gotten a few PM's (thanks guys) and will reach out and make a few connections so that I have some support (and can offer some) and be accountable. I do reserve the right to post a crazy rant at some point, because I know I'm feeling pretty good right now - give me some unforeseen stress and things could change.
Jungle, welcome to KTC. You're in MD, I got a few quit brothers in June from MD. YogiBear and EFNKODIAK, look them up.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #21 on: May 25, 2013, 09:37:00 AM »
Mid to late 40's, haha. I'm early to mid 50's (I'll be 56 in a few weeks). The time comes that we just wake up (figuratively) and realize that we are fricking idiots for allowing a poison to control our lives. I'll quit with you pm me if you need anything.
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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #20 on: May 25, 2013, 08:52:00 AM »
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......

Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....

While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
Fair enough. I live in MD, and work in IT and am in my mid/late 40's. I'm originally from western PA, as in coal, steel, chewing and alcohol. My father retired from the mines and my father in law did 12 years in the mines until his closed.

Don't think because I waited until after the first week to write an intro that the first several days didn't suck! I spent a lot of time reading a lot of other peoples rants and intro's on this site and in many cases knew exactly what they were saying.

I've chewed a little less than a pack of Red Man a day for years - and I've tried quiting on my own before. Why'd I quit and what will be different this time? First why'd I quit, a couple reasons, one it was affecting my health and blood pressure more than in the past, and it costs more every day it seems and I've been asking myself why am I spending all this money on this, and as odd as it sounds, I've starting getting the sense that it made me a little mean - to myself, the kids and the wife.

What will be different this time is that I will post roll and be a man of my word. I've gotten a few PM's (thanks guys) and will reach out and make a few connections so that I have some support (and can offer some) and be accountable. I do reserve the right to post a crazy rant at some point, because I know I'm feeling pretty good right now - give me some unforeseen stress and things could change.

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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #19 on: May 24, 2013, 11:18:00 PM »
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......

Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....

While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
I take no credit for brushing his hair. I only helped pick out the tie and remind him to tuck in his shirt. The bitch in me PM'd him. He's got my number and knows at least one set of eyes are on him.
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Re: I'm done lurking
« Reply #18 on: May 24, 2013, 10:24:00 PM »
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......

Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....

While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
I take no credit for brushing his hair. I only helped pick out the tie and remind him to tuck in his shirt. The bitch in me PM'd him. He's got my number and knows at least one set of eyes are on him.