Ive lurked at killthecan on and off for 8 months, particularly when I needed to quit in order to have a major back surgery in March. Ive been dipping for roughly 6 years, after starting in high school and picking up the habit full time in college. I leaned on dip in times of stress, in times of studying, in times of celebration, when sober and drunk and at times for no reason. I was at roughly 1-2 tins a week for almost a year after graduating, using it as a crutch for constant back pain as a way to relax and deal with pain. Once I knew I needed a fusion surgery, the doctor told me that I could not have nicotine, as it affects the healing process of spinal bones. I made it over 3 months, and caved in when with a friend watching hockey, and slowly increased from there. Even though the doctor said I was healing properly, I knew it wasnt smart to continue, but I couldnt hold off. The last 4 months I have been back at full force, roughly a dip a day, despite telling my self "tomorrow Im going to quit". Something clicked today, and I came back to this site and decided to register in order to seek help and support from the community. Ive made a plan, as I have several times over the years trying to quit, with phone reminders, a countdown calendar and email support in order to hold off the urge and buy a tin. The biggest struggle will be on the way home from work, finding a route without gas stations or 7-11 and fighting the urge to buy one. I fear most for when Im out drinking with my friends, as I find myself venturing off in search for a tin. So today is day 1... andzzly I truly hope I have the will power, strength or intelligence to fight off and make it day by day. I plan to post as often as I can, and I appreciate what this community does to support those fighting these cravings.
Griz