11:29 PM - Apr 12, 2013 #8
I hit double digits today (10 Days). Drove 5 hours in a car by myself, hit two massive traffic jams, sat in traffic for hours and almost lost my mind. I used the hell outta that fake shit. It was hard but I got through it. Now Its 1:30 am and all the "chatters" have turned in for the night. So I decided to post this, so I could come back to it someday and remember. Remember the SUCK. Days 1-3 were fucking miserable. 4 wasnt that bad. 5 was the worst day I have had yet. 6,7,8,9 were bad but not unbearable. 10 was a fucking monster too. Many ups and many downs so far. Mostly downs, but a few spots where I found i wasnt craving or thinking about dip. I'm a repeat stopper. I stopped once for a year back in 1995, 30 days in 2012 and 53 days in 2012. I need this time to be different. It feels different. I feel better knowing I got some people i can talk to. I dont feel like i am going at this alone. I think if i would have had this site on my 53 day excurstion i would still be quit, but fuck it, cant dwell on that shit. Gotta move on. I am quit today. 10 Days. Thats the 4th longest amount of time I have been without a dip in over 25 years. Nothing to write home about just yet, but I feel it growing, my quit. I feel it getting stronger.