Absolute Torture

[SirDerek]

Early on several of you told me to dump my stash...which I did.  But right now I'd like to kill each and every one of you, but instead I will just thank you because there is no doubt that I'd have quit quitting by now if it was that handy to access.  For me it isn't ODAAT, instead it is OMAAT!

if that's what you need then I quit with you for this minute.

Yep...you're doing it right. Climbing the walls, no sleep, white knuckles, constipation, anxiety, consufusion...all symptoms of FREEDOM. And you are earing it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Congrats, brother. That is cause for celebration. Give yourself a big double overhead hand clap high five...then sit back down real quick before your co-workers have you arrested.

there was a guy who told us early in his quit he would measure the blocks he drove home from work to get through it.

You got this big, and can do it. Its a whatever it takes, so keep putting your name on roll, and call us names if you need, But that bond of your word is strong.

am right beside you....

[Bean]

Early on several of you told me to dump my stash...which I did.  But right now I'd like to kill each and every one of you, but instead I will just thank you because there is no doubt that I'd have quit quitting by now if it was that handy to access.  For me it isn't ODAAT, instead it is OMAAT!

if that's what you need then I quit with you for this minute.

Yep...you're doing it right. Climbing the walls, no sleep, white knuckles, constipation, anxiety, consufusion...all symptoms of FREEDOM. And you are earing it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Congrats, brother. That is cause for celebration. Give yourself a big double overhead hand clap high five...then sit back down real quick before your co-workers have you arrested.

[mattyf118]

Early on several of you told me to dump my stash...which I did. But right now I'd like to kill each and every one of you, but instead I will just thank you because there is no doubt that I'd have quit quitting by now if it was that handy to access. For me it isn't ODAAT, instead it is OMAAT!

if that's what you need then I quit with you for this minute.

[bigskyken]

Early on several of you told me to dump my stash...which I did. But right now I'd like to kill each and every one of you, but instead I will just thank you because there is no doubt that I'd have quit quitting by now if it was that handy to access. For me it isn't ODAAT, instead it is OMAAT!

[bigskyken]

I needed that Grizz...Here I am one hour away from a full week of no chew, and nic's nagging me ruthlessly. She's making a hard sell, but its just upsetting me more. I'm quit, and am sticking to it.

[Mogul]

Grizz,  that was freaking funny... ON the floor LMAO funny.

[Grizzfall]

Going into Day 6, and my perspective is changing.  For too damn many years I must have thought I was the only person to come up with exceptional performances and excuses to allow my ninja dipping to continue.  My vision was so focused on hiding my habit (to those I love) and the extent of my habit (to everyone else), that I didn't realize Nic had made me a such an asshole.  The torture of doing without ain't nothing compared to the torture of being in her grip all these years - or the torture that still may arrive as a consequence of so damn many years of chewing that shit.

Reading the accounts of other addicts, posts and PMs of encouragement and brotherhood, and focusing on the moment are all working to strengthen my quit.  I'm not going to let myself or you down.

Great job. Laser, laser focus on today.

Right there with you. Spent so much time sneaking dips, hiding and lying about it. The dip was killing me and the hiding and lying was killing relationships. The quit has made me feel much more respect for myself and I won't let my guard down. Keep up the day by day fight and we'll see each other to the hot.

Sometimes its quite therepeutic to realize you were an asshole while you dipped. I was. I would skip out of every productive social situation to have a dip by myself. How many different girls went unpleasured by my flacid lonely cock remains a mystery. Im married now, but regret the lost opportunity given away to a stinky tin of impotency.
Do better by me.
Grizzfall.

[georgehayduke]

Going into Day 6, and my perspective is changing.  For too damn many years I must have thought I was the only person to come up with exceptional performances and excuses to allow my ninja dipping to continue.  My vision was so focused on hiding my habit (to those I love) and the extent of my habit (to everyone else), that I didn't realize Nic had made me a such an asshole.  The torture of doing without ain't nothing compared to the torture of being in her grip all these years - or the torture that still may arrive as a consequence of so damn many years of chewing that shit.

Reading the accounts of other addicts, posts and PMs of encouragement and brotherhood, and focusing on the moment are all working to strengthen my quit.  I'm not going to let myself or you down.

Great job. Laser, laser focus on today.

Right there with you. Spent so much time sneaking dips, hiding and lying about it. The dip was killing me and the hiding and lying was killing relationships. The quit has made me feel much more respect for myself and I won't let my guard down. Keep up the day by day fight and we'll see each other to the hot.

[Ace121x]

Going into Day 6, and my perspective is changing. For too damn many years I must have thought I was the only person to come up with exceptional performances and excuses to allow my ninja dipping to continue. My vision was so focused on hiding my habit (to those I love) and the extent of my habit (to everyone else), that I didn't realize Nic had made me a such an asshole. The torture of doing without ain't nothing compared to the torture of being in her grip all these years - or the torture that still may arrive as a consequence of so damn many years of chewing that shit.

Reading the accounts of other addicts, posts and PMs of encouragement and brotherhood, and focusing on the moment are all working to strengthen my quit. I'm not going to let myself or you down.

Thats awesome brother, couldn't be happier to be rid of this nasty addiction today

[Sh4string]

It gets better!!! As a fellow ninja(former) I can tell you posting roll makes a huge difference...accountability and support helps. Day 25 clean!! I quit with you today! Listen to the veterans....they know how to win!!

[Bean]

6 Days is HUGE!!! Congrats. But remember, that's just the beginning. The nicotine may be out of your system, but the Nic Bitch is still in your psyche. Triggers are everywhere. You'll notice them months from now...that feeling of "hey, this is the first time I've done this without a lip turd since _____ ." Again, the key to dealing with triggers is your ATTITUDE.

See triggers as reminders of your new FREEDOM...not your past. Take it One Day At A Time. And embrace it...all of it, the good, the bad, the no sleep night sweats, the white-knuckled face splash in the bathroom sink, the constipation...all of it. See it this way...you GET to feel this crappy because you CHOSE to quit. That is heroic as fuck. You are not only saving your own life, but leading all quitters (including me) by your example. If that isn't cause to celebrate, I don't know what is.

YOU GOT THIS, BROTHER!!!

[Scowick65]

Going into Day 6, and my perspective is changing. For too damn many years I must have thought I was the only person to come up with exceptional performances and excuses to allow my ninja dipping to continue. My vision was so focused on hiding my habit (to those I love) and the extent of my habit (to everyone else), that I didn't realize Nic had made me a such an asshole. The torture of doing without ain't nothing compared to the torture of being in her grip all these years - or the torture that still may arrive as a consequence of so damn many years of chewing that shit.

Reading the accounts of other addicts, posts and PMs of encouragement and brotherhood, and focusing on the moment are all working to strengthen my quit. I'm not going to let myself or you down.

Great job. Laser, laser focus on today.

[bigskyken]

Going into Day 6, and my perspective is changing. For too damn many years I must have thought I was the only person to come up with exceptional performances and excuses to allow my ninja dipping to continue. My vision was so focused on hiding my habit (to those I love) and the extent of my habit (to everyone else), that I didn't realize Nic had made me a such an asshole. The torture of doing without ain't nothing compared to the torture of being in her grip all these years - or the torture that still may arrive as a consequence of so damn many years of chewing that shit.

Reading the accounts of other addicts, posts and PMs of encouragement and brotherhood, and focusing on the moment are all working to strengthen my quit. I'm not going to let myself or you down.

[Ace121x]

Welcome bigskyken. Look forward to the Quit with you. Your experience sounds very familiar to mine. Morning to night with a dip in my lip for 30 years.

Finding every excuse and lie to get another can. What a waste. My first couple of days, I still had a brand new can in my car. Didn't touch it, thought maybe a quit could be stronger if you could do it with access. After all, we will always be exposed to tobacco and can just go around the corner to get a can. Let me tell you, I felt much better throwing that brand new can in the dumpster and giving it the finger!

Keep up the quit and feel free to reach out for any help.

I agree with this, I kept a can in my room the first day thinking I would have to be around it sooner or later anyway. However, I also felt much better after throwing it away.

[georgehayduke]

Welcome bigskyken. Look forward to the Quit with you. Your experience sounds very familiar to mine. Morning to night with a dip in my lip for 30 years.

Finding every excuse and lie to get another can. What a waste. My first couple of days, I still had a brand new can in my car. Didn't touch it, thought maybe a quit could be stronger if you could do it with access. After all, we will always be exposed to tobacco and can just go around the corner to get a can. Let me tell you, I felt much better throwing that brand new can in the dumpster and giving it the finger!

Keep up the quit and feel free to reach out for any help.