I'm Quitting Tomorrow (6/1/13)

[Minny]

Question 3) What are you planning to do differently this time?

Let me help you out with this answer.  I am a strong believer in layers of accounability. I am accountable to my group which I post with every day. I am accountable to the other groups that I post in. I am accountable to the MODs and ADMINs that have offered me an additional layer of accountability "behind the curtain". I am accountable to every quitter whose number is in my phone, which I will use before doing something stupid.

Now, there is another layer of accountability that is more special, and quite possibly stonger. I am accountable to every quitter I have met in person. From kdip that is nearing 2000 days to Dave1903 that just hit the HOF. I have looked 19 quitters in the eye and said "never again for any reason", including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984). From California, to Texas, to Michigan, to Indiana. I have built accountability in several states.

I signed cbird's KTC running shirt. Can I cave now? No way; not with other quitters' signatures on it. "I've got his back", iterally, and he has mine. I made a pact with Ziesmer that I would not cave unless he cave me permission. BTW, that pact was made at Blackies on Polk St. in the south loop the day the Blackhawks won the cup in Boston. Where were you? You are way more local to me (35 minutes?) than any of the 19 quitters I have met, and yet we never met. Why? I tried, but you resisted.

So post roll every day in May 14 (you're posting percentage sucked in Sept 13'). Post in other groups every day - I suggest Jan 13. Don't come sulking back with after a five-minute tango with the Bitch asking if you will be accepted back. You will be, but a lot of trust is lost. Earn it back. Look me in the eye and tell me that you QUIT. We don't have to get a pool suite at the Cybaris, just a beer, in a dive bar, with a blackhawk game on the tele. Puck is in your court.

Evil gave you all the answers to stay quit,it's up to you. Be here more then just posting roll make friends. i also invited you to a meet up when i was in northern Indiana for a weekend i met Jason including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984) and few others that night.

You would do well to take Evil up on his offer, it will help you a ton.
Your 200 plus days before was not a success, it was a failure even if it was the longest you have ever made it. That is a stop, not a quit.
If you want to quit embrace accountability whereever you can. Put yourself so far out there that everyone on this site will know if you are quit or not. Bottom line, you simply were not all in last time. Are you going to be this time?

What is it with you guys blaming stress for using nicotine? Didn't you recognize the lack of anxiety in your daily existence once you were 40/50+ days in and your body had begun to forget that it was missing nicotine? You were quit 265 days and probably know more about nicotine addiction than 99% of the population.

In one sentence you provide the excuse "I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life." and in the very next sentence you say "That is no excuse." Then why did you provide the excuse?!? RECOGNIZE that you let yourself off the hook. It reminds me of the saying that in a sentence everything before the word "BUT" doesn't count. As in, "I don't mean to make excuses, BUT".

Stress? You think you're a special butterfly, do you? I lost three people to cancer and one to suicide during my quit. My wife had a miscarriage. My daughter was diagnosed with a condition and will need a serious and scary surgery. But you know what? I will never forget reading about quitters that came home to empty houses and Dear John letters; quitters that deal with kids that have severe disabilities; quitters that are going through divorce; quitters that lost their jobs. Yet they were here posting roll and keeping their quit. My problems and your problems are nothing compared to your fellow quitters at KTC. Besides, what the hell is caving going to do for your problems? At best it's going to make you feel like a powerless loser, which you are not.

Scowick's rule:

1 problem + Nicotine = 2 Problems

But you already know this.

[T-Cell]

Question 3) What are you planning to do differently this time?

Let me help you out with this answer.  I am a strong believer in layers of accounability. I am accountable to my group which I post with every day. I am accountable to the other groups that I post in. I am accountable to the MODs and ADMINs that have offered me an additional layer of accountability "behind the curtain". I am accountable to every quitter whose number is in my phone, which I will use before doing something stupid.

Now, there is another layer of accountability that is more special, and quite possibly stonger. I am accountable to every quitter I have met in person. From kdip that is nearing 2000 days to Dave1903 that just hit the HOF. I have looked 19 quitters in the eye and said "never again for any reason", including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984). From California, to Texas, to Michigan, to Indiana. I have built accountability in several states.

I signed cbird's KTC running shirt. Can I cave now? No way; not with other quitters' signatures on it. "I've got his back", iterally, and he has mine. I made a pact with Ziesmer that I would not cave unless he cave me permission. BTW, that pact was made at Blackies on Polk St. in the south loop the day the Blackhawks won the cup in Boston. Where were you? You are way more local to me (35 minutes?) than any of the 19 quitters I have met, and yet we never met. Why? I tried, but you resisted.

So post roll every day in May 14 (you're posting percentage sucked in Sept 13'). Post in other groups every day - I suggest Jan 13. Don't come sulking back with after a five-minute tango with the Bitch asking if you will be accepted back. You will be, but a lot of trust is lost. Earn it back. Look me in the eye and tell me that you QUIT. We don't have to get a pool suite at the Cybaris, just a beer, in a dive bar, with a blackhawk game on the tele. Puck is in your court.

Evil gave you all the answers to stay quit,it's up to you. Be here more then just posting roll make friends. i also invited you to a meet up when i was in northern Indiana for a weekend i met Jason including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984) and few others that night.

You would do well to take Evil up on his offer, it will help you a ton.
Your 200 plus days before was not a success, it was a failure even if it was the longest you have ever made it. That is a stop, not a quit.
If you want to quit embrace accountability whereever you can. Put yourself so far out there that everyone on this site will know if you are quit or not. Bottom line, you simply were not all in last time. Are you going to be this time?

[Sportsfan231]

Question 3) What are you planning to do differently this time?

Let me help you out with this answer. I am a strong believer in layers of accounability. I am accountable to my group which I post with every day. I am accountable to the other groups that I post in. I am accountable to the MODs and ADMINs that have offered me an additional layer of accountability "behind the curtain". I am accountable to every quitter whose number is in my phone, which I will use before doing something stupid.

Now, there is another layer of accountability that is more special, and quite possibly stonger. I am accountable to every quitter I have met in person. From kdip that is nearing 2000 days to Dave1903 that just hit the HOF. I have looked 19 quitters in the eye and said "never again for any reason", including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984). From California, to Texas, to Michigan, to Indiana. I have built accountability in several states.

I signed cbird's KTC running shirt. Can I cave now? No way; not with other quitters' signatures on it. "I've got his back", iterally, and he has mine. I made a pact with Ziesmer that I would not cave unless he cave me permission. BTW, that pact was made at Blackies on Polk St. in the south loop the day the Blackhawks won the cup in Boston. Where were you? You are way more local to me (35 minutes?) than any of the 19 quitters I have met, and yet we never met. Why? I tried, but you resisted.

So post roll every day in May 14 (you're posting percentage sucked in Sept 13'). Post in other groups every day - I suggest Jan 13. Don't come sulking back with after a five-minute tango with the Bitch asking if you will be accepted back. You will be, but a lot of trust is lost. Earn it back. Look me in the eye and tell me that you QUIT. We don't have to get a pool suite at the Cybaris, just a beer, in a dive bar, with a blackhawk game on the tele. Puck is in your court.

Evil gave you all the answers to stay quit,it's up to you. Be here more then just posting roll make friends. i also invited you to a meet up when i was in northern Indiana for a weekend i met Jason including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984) and few others that night.

[jake frawley]

Question 3) What are you planning to do differently this time?

Let me help you out with this answer. I am a strong believer in layers of accounability. I am accountable to my group which I post with every day. I am accountable to the other groups that I post in. I am accountable to the MODs and ADMINs that have offered me an additional layer of accountability "behind the curtain". I am accountable to every quitter whose number is in my phone, which I will use before doing something stupid.

Now, there is another layer of accountability that is more special, and quite possibly stonger. I am accountable to every quitter I have met in person. From kdip that is nearing 2000 days to Dave1903 that just hit the HOF. I have looked 19 quitters in the eye and said "never again for any reason", including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984). From California, to Texas, to Michigan, to Indiana. I have built accountability in several states.

I signed cbird's KTC running shirt. Can I cave now? No way; not with other quitters' signatures on it. "I've got his back", iterally, and he has mine. I made a pact with Ziesmer that I would not cave unless he cave me permission. BTW, that pact was made at Blackies on Polk St. in the south loop the day the Blackhawks won the cup in Boston. Where were you? You are way more local to me (35 minutes?) than any of the 19 quitters I have met, and yet we never met. Why? I tried, but you resisted.

So post roll every day in May 14 (you're posting percentage sucked in Sept 13'). Post in other groups every day - I suggest Jan 13. Don't come sulking back with after a five-minute tango with the Bitch asking if you will be accepted back. You will be, but a lot of trust is lost. Earn it back. Look me in the eye and tell me that you QUIT. We don't have to get a pool suite at the Cybaris, just a beer, in a dive bar, with a blackhawk game on the tele. Puck is in your court.

Meet him for that beer! I'm telling you, meeting a fellow quitter changes everything. Makes your promise to be quit more personal. 35 mins away? We'll worth the drive !

[Evil_Won]

Question 3) What are you planning to do differently this time?

Let me help you out with this answer. I am a strong believer in layers of accounability. I am accountable to my group which I post with every day. I am accountable to the other groups that I post in. I am accountable to the MODs and ADMINs that have offered me an additional layer of accountability "behind the curtain". I am accountable to every quitter whose number is in my phone, which I will use before doing something stupid.

Now, there is another layer of accountability that is more special, and quite possibly stonger. I am accountable to every quitter I have met in person. From kdip that is nearing 2000 days to Dave1903 that just hit the HOF. I have looked 19 quitters in the eye and said "never again for any reason", including your former quit-bro Clinton (CBB1984). From California, to Texas, to Michigan, to Indiana. I have built accountability in several states.

I signed cbird's KTC running shirt. Can I cave now? No way; not with other quitters' signatures on it. "I've got his back", iterally, and he has mine. I made a pact with Ziesmer that I would not cave unless he cave me permission. BTW, that pact was made at Blackies on Polk St. in the south loop the day the Blackhawks won the cup in Boston. Where were you? You are way more local to me (35 minutes?) than any of the 19 quitters I have met, and yet we never met. Why? I tried, but you resisted.

So post roll every day in May 14 (you're posting percentage sucked in Sept 13'). Post in other groups every day - I suggest Jan 13. Don't come sulking back with after a five-minute tango with the Bitch asking if you will be accepted back. You will be, but a lot of trust is lost. Earn it back. Look me in the eye and tell me that you QUIT. We don't have to get a pool suite at the Cybaris, just a beer, in a dive bar, with a blackhawk game on the tele. Puck is in your court.

[jake frawley]

265 days for 5 minutes?  Jeesh!

Well shit. I always have mixed emotions on these caves. I try to be understanding and read all the details but honestly, I just lose interest. I start getting angry. How could you give in. What part of you didn't fully commit to being quit. What part of you still allowed it to even be an option? When did you not switch on the light for the understanding that this is who you are now. All that external force and pressure does not get to bring you to her! She only lives if you allow her to. Take it off the table. Any other option but that. Nicotine can't hold weight of any kind.

Then I feel bad again for you. What is so bad that you couldn't find other help. That's when I gotta check myself. I am stronger than this right? Then I get pissed again cuz you made you think about it all over again. Just not fair.

I AM that strong. I've already taken it OFF the table. It would be like my husband coming home to tell me he slept with "that chic". Well shit. I am just not that forgiving.

Nothing gets in the way of my quit. Every single person is going to have shit to deal with. Not every single person is going to allow nicotine back in. I am one of those people. Not today. NAFAR. (being a female may add to these emotional ups and downs in these circumstances but hey....deal with it)

Damn.... I'm gonna say it one more time today. Being quit is a two step process. Post roll and change who we are and how we think. If we don t change how we think then we are doomed to fail our quit. You can only cave if you leave part of your old self alive. Change yourself. Take nic off the table because your old self is dead. Then you cannot go back. You are a new man committed to your quit! After 265 days you failed because you never changed. Do it now or continue to fail

[Ginet]

265 days for 5 minutes? Jeesh!

Well shit. I always have mixed emotions on these caves. I try to be understanding and read all the details but honestly, I just lose interest. I start getting angry. How could you give in. What part of you didn't fully commit to being quit. What part of you still allowed it to even be an option? When did you not switch on the light for the understanding that this is who you are now. All that external force and pressure does not get to bring you to her! She only lives if you allow her to. Take it off the table. Any other option but that. Nicotine can't hold weight of any kind.

Then I feel bad again for you. What is so bad that you couldn't find other help. That's when I gotta check myself. I am stronger than this right? Then I get pissed again cuz you made you think about it all over again. Just not fair.

I AM that strong. I've already taken it OFF the table. It would be like my husband coming home to tell me he slept with "that chic". Well shit. I am just not that forgiving.

Nothing gets in the way of my quit. Every single person is going to have shit to deal with. Not every single person is going to allow nicotine back in. I am one of those people. Not today. NAFAR. (being a female may add to these emotional ups and downs in these circumstances but hey....deal with it)

[srans]

265 days for 5 minutes? Jeesh!

[slug.go]

Blackhawks - Feb 20, 2014, 4:21 pm 

Today, I broke down and had a chew. I had the chew in my mouth for about 5 minutes, started to get really angry with myself and threw it out with the rest of the tin. I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life. That is no excuse. Everyone has tough times but we should not relapse. I was a weak little pussy for caving like that. I am disgusted with myself and extremely sorry to let everyone in the KTC community down. I overcame many stressful and challenging times during my 265 day quit but ultimately I caved. I am extremely motivated to begin a new quit. Tomorrow will be my Day 1. KTC helped me make it 265 days which was by far the longest and most successful run for me. I would love to be able to begin again on KTC, if you guys will have me back. I understand completely, however, if I am no longer welcome. What can I do to be accepted back?
- Blackhawks

Damn man, I hate to see a good quitter go down like this.  My suggestion for starters is the reflect on the three questions and answer with your heart and your fellow quitters will go from there...

1 - What Happened? (explained in above excerpt from your Group Post)
2 - Why did it happen?  (insufficient answer)
3 - what are you going to do differently?

Damn - I feel sad.

Well like we have seen in times past and times yet to come, some addicts retrun to their vice like a dog to its own vomit.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in my absolute anger, frustration and resentment to the can of lies.

I just don't understand if you came her humble and determined to quit, make it as far as the HOF, why you think humping a can of nicotine is a more valuable trade in for the work you put into divorce her?

She is evil. Her evil is subtle. Slow, patient and steady. Just as addictive as heroine but not respected to be as dangerous as heroine. Ahhhh CANCER? But she is sly, she is legal, she is no big deal. She is tolerated.....You miss her. You glamorize that the slavery was secure. Just smell it, just a little taste. OH FUCK ME. What did I do? I hate this. I was weak.

No you weren't. I am the weak pussy that is intelligent enought to respect the cunning craftiness of the enemy. I am not quit forever and can not think past today. I quit today and that all I worry about.

You are not weak, you were careless and dumb. Like a dog that laps up its vomit.

Quit but do it right and take this shit serious.

At least your name is not Red Wings. Seriously, change the attitude. We are not here to see how many days we can be quit. Its got to be a lifestyle change and attitude change. Do whatever it takes to shut the door behind you and lock it up. Think long and hard about question #3

NAFAR
NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY (FUCKING ) REASON.

DO THESE WORDS SOUND FAMILIAR? I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU YET I AM PISSED FOR THE SITE, THE PEOPLE HERE, THE EFFORTS. WILL YOU CAUSE SOMEONE TO CAVE BY YOUR ACTIONS?

Emulator... no one has permission to cave because of Blackhawks actions. Caving is a personal choice and you... and only you... make the decision to quit and stay quit every day.

Ownership of ones actions is how we roll.

So, as a reminder to all.... man, or women up. Just because one of us jumps off the cliff, don't mean the rest of us need to follow. Hold your quit!

Blackhawks,
You need to post roll today. With May. You know how, do it.

[Derk40]

Blackhawks - Feb 20, 2014, 4:21 pm 

Today, I broke down and had a chew. I had the chew in my mouth for about 5 minutes, started to get really angry with myself and threw it out with the rest of the tin. I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life. That is no excuse. Everyone has tough times but we should not relapse. I was a weak little pussy for caving like that. I am disgusted with myself and extremely sorry to let everyone in the KTC community down. I overcame many stressful and challenging times during my 265 day quit but ultimately I caved. I am extremely motivated to begin a new quit. Tomorrow will be my Day 1. KTC helped me make it 265 days which was by far the longest and most successful run for me. I would love to be able to begin again on KTC, if you guys will have me back. I understand completely, however, if I am no longer welcome. What can I do to be accepted back?
- Blackhawks

Damn man, I hate to see a good quitter go down like this.  My suggestion for starters is the reflect on the three questions and answer with your heart and your fellow quitters will go from there...

1 - What Happened? (explained in above excerpt from your Group Post)
2 - Why did it happen?  (insufficient answer)
3 - what are you going to do differently?

Damn - I feel sad.

Well like we have seen in times past and times yet to come, some addicts retrun to their vice like a dog to its own vomit.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in my absolute anger, frustration and resentment to the can of lies.

I just don't understand if you came her humble and determined to quit, make it as far as the HOF, why you think humping a can of nicotine is a more valuable trade in for the work you put into divorce her?

She is evil. Her evil is subtle. Slow, patient and steady. Just as addictive as heroine but not respected to be as dangerous as heroine. Ahhhh CANCER? But she is sly, she is legal, she is no big deal. She is tolerated.....You miss her. You glamorize that the slavery was secure. Just smell it, just a little taste. OH FUCK ME. What did I do? I hate this. I was weak.

No you weren't. I am the weak pussy that is intelligent enought to respect the cunning craftiness of the enemy. I am not quit forever and can not think past today. I quit today and that all I worry about.

You are not weak, you were careless and dumb. Like a dog that laps up its vomit.

Quit but do it right and take this shit serious.

At least your name is not Red Wings. Seriously, change the attitude. We are not here to see how many days we can be quit. Its got to be a lifestyle change and attitude change. Do whatever it takes to shut the door behind you and lock it up. Think long and hard about question #3

NAFAR
NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY (FUCKING ) REASON.

DO THESE WORDS SOUND FAMILIAR? I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU YET I AM PISSED FOR THE SITE, THE PEOPLE HERE, THE EFFORTS. WILL YOU CAUSE SOMEONE TO CAVE BY YOUR ACTIONS?

WTF Blackhawks?!? At least you had the decency to feel like an asshole, but why did it take you five minutes? 265 days of freedom down the shitter. Get yourself un-fucked and answer the questions here!

Emulator... no one has permission to cave because of Blackhawks actions. Caving is a personal choice and you... and only you... make the decision to quit and stay quit every day.

Ownership of ones actions is how we roll.

So, as a reminder to all.... man, or women up. Just because one of us jumps off the cliff, don't mean the rest of us need to follow. Hold your quit!

[B-loMatt]

Blackhawks - Feb 20, 2014, 4:21 pm 

Today, I broke down and had a chew. I had the chew in my mouth for about 5 minutes, started to get really angry with myself and threw it out with the rest of the tin. I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life. That is no excuse. Everyone has tough times but we should not relapse. I was a weak little pussy for caving like that. I am disgusted with myself and extremely sorry to let everyone in the KTC community down. I overcame many stressful and challenging times during my 265 day quit but ultimately I caved. I am extremely motivated to begin a new quit. Tomorrow will be my Day 1. KTC helped me make it 265 days which was by far the longest and most successful run for me. I would love to be able to begin again on KTC, if you guys will have me back. I understand completely, however, if I am no longer welcome. What can I do to be accepted back?
- Blackhawks

Damn man, I hate to see a good quitter go down like this.  My suggestion for starters is the reflect on the three questions and answer with your heart and your fellow quitters will go from there...

1 - What Happened? (explained in above excerpt from your Group Post)
2 - Why did it happen?  (insufficient answer)
3 - what are you going to do differently?

Damn - I feel sad.

Well like we have seen in times past and times yet to come, some addicts retrun to their vice like a dog to its own vomit.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in my absolute anger, frustration and resentment to the can of lies.

I just don't understand if you came her humble and determined to quit, make it as far as the HOF, why you think humping a can of nicotine is a more valuable trade in for the work you put into divorce her?

She is evil. Her evil is subtle. Slow, patient and steady. Just as addictive as heroine but not respected to be as dangerous as heroine. Ahhhh CANCER? But she is sly, she is legal, she is no big deal. She is tolerated.....You miss her. You glamorize that the slavery was secure. Just smell it, just a little taste. OH FUCK ME. What did I do? I hate this. I was weak.

No you weren't. I am the weak pussy that is intelligent enought to respect the cunning craftiness of the enemy. I am not quit forever and can not think past today. I quit today and that all I worry about.

You are not weak, you were careless and dumb. Like a dog that laps up its vomit.

Quit but do it right and take this shit serious.

At least your name is not Red Wings. Seriously, change the attitude. We are not here to see how many days we can be quit. Its got to be a lifestyle change and attitude change. Do whatever it takes to shut the door behind you and lock it up. Think long and hard about question #3

NAFAR
NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY (FUCKING ) REASON.

DO THESE WORDS SOUND FAMILIAR? I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU YET I AM PISSED FOR THE SITE, THE PEOPLE HERE, THE EFFORTS. WILL YOU CAUSE SOMEONE TO CAVE BY YOUR ACTIONS?

WTF Blackhawks?!? At least you had the decency to feel like an asshole, but why did it take you five minutes? 265 days of freedom down the shitter. Get yourself un-fucked and answer the questions here!

[Derk40]

Blackhawks - Feb 20, 2014, 4:21 pm 

Today, I broke down and had a chew. I had the chew in my mouth for about 5 minutes, started to get really angry with myself and threw it out with the rest of the tin. I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life. That is no excuse. Everyone has tough times but we should not relapse. I was a weak little pussy for caving like that. I am disgusted with myself and extremely sorry to let everyone in the KTC community down. I overcame many stressful and challenging times during my 265 day quit but ultimately I caved. I am extremely motivated to begin a new quit. Tomorrow will be my Day 1. KTC helped me make it 265 days which was by far the longest and most successful run for me. I would love to be able to begin again on KTC, if you guys will have me back. I understand completely, however, if I am no longer welcome. What can I do to be accepted back?
- Blackhawks

Damn man, I hate to see a good quitter go down like this.  My suggestion for starters is the reflect on the three questions and answer with your heart and your fellow quitters will go from there...

1 - What Happened? (explained in above excerpt from your Group Post)
2 - Why did it happen?  (insufficient answer)
3 - what are you going to do differently?

Damn - I feel sad.

Well like we have seen in times past and times yet to come, some addicts retrun to their vice like a dog to its own vomit.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in my absolute anger, frustration and resentment to the can of lies.

I just don't understand if you came her humble and determined to quit, make it as far as the HOF, why you think humping a can of nicotine is a more valuable trade in for the work you put into divorce her?

She is evil. Her evil is subtle. Slow, patient and steady. Just as addictive as heroine but not respected to be as dangerous as heroine. Ahhhh CANCER? But she is sly, she is legal, she is no big deal. She is tolerated.....You miss her. You glamorize that the slavery was secure. Just smell it, just a little taste. OH FUCK ME. What did I do? I hate this. I was weak.

No you weren't. I am the weak pussy that is intelligent enought to respect the cunning craftiness of the enemy. I am not quit forever and can not think past today. I quit today and that all I worry about.

You are not weak, you were careless and dumb. Like a dog that laps up its vomit.

Quit but do it right and take this shit serious.

At least your name is not Red Wings. Seriously, change the attitude. We are not here to see how many days we can be quit. Its got to be a lifestyle change and attitude change. Do whatever it takes to shut the door behind you and lock it up. Think long and hard about question #3

NAFAR
NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY (FUCKING ) REASON.

DO THESE WORDS SOUND FAMILIAR? I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU YET I AM PISSED FOR THE SITE, THE PEOPLE HERE, THE EFFORTS. WILL YOU CAUSE SOMEONE TO CAVE BY YOUR ACTIONS?

Emulator... no one has permission to cave because of Blackhawks actions. Caving is a personal choice and you... and only you... make the decision to quit and stay quit every day.

Ownership of ones actions is how we roll.

So, as a reminder to all.... man, or women up. Just because one of us jumps off the cliff, don't mean the rest of us need to follow. Hold your quit!

[Emulator]

Blackhawks - Feb 20, 2014, 4:21 pm 

Today, I broke down and had a chew. I had the chew in my mouth for about 5 minutes, started to get really angry with myself and threw it out with the rest of the tin. I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life. That is no excuse. Everyone has tough times but we should not relapse. I was a weak little pussy for caving like that. I am disgusted with myself and extremely sorry to let everyone in the KTC community down. I overcame many stressful and challenging times during my 265 day quit but ultimately I caved. I am extremely motivated to begin a new quit. Tomorrow will be my Day 1. KTC helped me make it 265 days which was by far the longest and most successful run for me. I would love to be able to begin again on KTC, if you guys will have me back. I understand completely, however, if I am no longer welcome. What can I do to be accepted back?
- Blackhawks

Damn man, I hate to see a good quitter go down like this.  My suggestion for starters is the reflect on the three questions and answer with your heart and your fellow quitters will go from there...

1 - What Happened? (explained in above excerpt from your Group Post)
2 - Why did it happen?  (insufficient answer)
3 - what are you going to do differently?

Damn - I feel sad.

Well like we have seen in times past and times yet to come, some addicts retrun to their vice like a dog to its own vomit.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in my absolute anger, frustration and resentment to the can of lies.

I just don't understand if you came her humble and determined to quit, make it as far as the HOF, why you think humping a can of nicotine is a more valuable trade in for the work you put into divorce her?

She is evil. Her evil is subtle. Slow, patient and steady. Just as addictive as heroine but not respected to be as dangerous as heroine. Ahhhh CANCER? But she is sly, she is legal, she is no big deal. She is tolerated.....You miss her. You glamorize that the slavery was secure. Just smell it, just a little taste. OH FUCK ME. What did I do? I hate this. I was weak.

No you weren't. I am the weak pussy that is intelligent enought to respect the cunning craftiness of the enemy. I am not quit forever and can not think past today. I quit today and that all I worry about.

You are not weak, you were careless and dumb. Like a dog that laps up its vomit.

Quit but do it right and take this shit serious.

At least your name is not Red Wings. Seriously, change the attitude. We are not here to see how many days we can be quit. Its got to be a lifestyle change and attitude change. Do whatever it takes to shut the door behind you and lock it up. Think long and hard about question #3

NAFAR
NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY (FUCKING ) REASON.

DO THESE WORDS SOUND FAMILIAR? I DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU YET I AM PISSED FOR THE SITE, THE PEOPLE HERE, THE EFFORTS. WILL YOU CAUSE SOMEONE TO CAVE BY YOUR ACTIONS?

[Derk40]

Bro, very disappointing. 265 days down the crapper, for what???.

Looking forward to hearing your way forward.

[Spartanron]

Blackhawks - Feb 20, 2014, 4:21 pm 

Today, I broke down and had a chew. I had the chew in my mouth for about 5 minutes, started to get really angry with myself and threw it out with the rest of the tin. I have been going through some very difficult and stressful times in my personal life. That is no excuse. Everyone has tough times but we should not relapse. I was a weak little pussy for caving like that. I am disgusted with myself and extremely sorry to let everyone in the KTC community down. I overcame many stressful and challenging times during my 265 day quit but ultimately I caved. I am extremely motivated to begin a new quit. Tomorrow will be my Day 1. KTC helped me make it 265 days which was by far the longest and most successful run for me. I would love to be able to begin again on KTC, if you guys will have me back. I understand completely, however, if I am no longer welcome. What can I do to be accepted back?
- Blackhawks

Damn man, I hate to see a good quitter go down like this.  My suggestion for starters is the reflect on the three questions and answer with your heart and your fellow quitters will go from there...

1 - What Happened? (explained in above excerpt from your Group Post)
2 - Why did it happen?  (insufficient answer)
3 - what are you going to do differently?

Damn - I feel sad.

Well like we have seen in times past and times yet to come, some addicts retrun to their vice like a dog to its own vomit.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in my absolute anger, frustration and resentment to the can of lies.

I just don't understand if you came her humble and determined to quit, make it as far as the HOF, why you think humping a can of nicotine is a more valuable trade in for the work you put into divorce her?

She is evil. Her evil is subtle. Slow, patient and steady. Just as addictive as heroine but not respected to be as dangerous as heroine. Ahhhh CANCER? But she is sly, she is legal, she is no big deal. She is tolerated.....You miss her. You glamorize that the slavery was secure. Just smell it, just a little taste. OH FUCK ME. What did I do? I hate this. I was weak.

No you weren't. I am the weak pussy that is intelligent enought to respect the cunning craftiness of the enemy. I am not quit forever and can not think past today. I quit today and that all I worry about.

You are not weak, you were careless and dumb. Like a dog that laps up its vomit.

Quit but do it right and take this shit serious.

At least your name is not Red Wings. Seriously, change the attitude. We are not here to see how many days we can be quit. Its got to be a lifestyle change and attitude change. Do whatever it takes to shut the door behind you and lock it up. Think long and hard about question #3