Day 3 - Round 2

[loot]

This time I hope to do things differently

'Popcorn'

Hope will have your ass back to the category of ACTIVE addict in no time.

Lose the chickenshit words from your vocabulary.

WILL...there is a good word. Try it out sunshine.

[Thumblewort]

Conbud, I could not be quit for 42 days w/o the KTC. Drink the Kool-Aid and post roll every day, keep the shit out of your mouth and I will quit with you.

[Diesel2112]

Why was that? A search for "normalcy" again? Did you find it? Did going back to the can after 90 days make everything "ok" again? I'm serious in asking this question, as I often wonder. I guess it couldn't have been too great if your back to quitting again.

Yeah, you could call it normalcy... Bad day, no one to talk to or reach out to about this. At that moment of time caving was the easier option. I put that first chew in and it was a bit disgusting but then the all too familiar feelings of ease and calm set in. The old lost friend being back and everything in the world was right again. And, no absolutely not great at all, it quit being great about an hour after I put it in... But the addictive mind is powerful, cunning, baffling. Life finally became more of a struggle and unpleasant with chew than it was without... So here I am again.

I got the double whammy and also go to AA, been a year and half sober now. I tried to apply AA techniques to chewing, but as I recently found each addiction has it's own uniqueness to it. And, its best to not mix the recovery of the two between each other. It's amazingly wonderful this site is here for the insane amount of info, support, and accountability.

Could you explain the roll call quit group? I read up on it but I'm still a little confused on how that works. Would I post to the "Pre HOF May 2014 Roll Call" quit group? I'm one of those people that really need accountability or I allow the excuses and lies to deviate me.

Great honest answer. Sounds like being married and then cheating on your wife.
Might feel good to bang an old whore for a bit. But the minute you bust a nut, you realize you're a doosh and shame, regret and the reality of you're fuck up sets in.

Don't be a Fucking doosh. Stay married to your quit.

[Winter Green]

You will be in the August 2014 quit group, along with the other quitters who hit 100 days in August. That's how we assign groups, based on when you will hit the Hall of Fame.

No nicotine of any form (patches, cigars, cigarettes, e-cig, etc.). Post roll EVERY day, reach out to start building relationships and accountability, and get involved on the forums. Do that, and you will stay quit.

Welcome to KTC.

Sounds good. Thanks for the info! I'm doing this, so I posted my first roll.

Knockout - nice avatar haha

Your intro says "Round 2". Do you think this is a game? Do you think it is ok to cave? The answers are NO. Man up bro, quit and stay quit. Go big or go home. No more hoping and rainbows. Just pure Quit.

[conbud]

You will be in the August 2014 quit group, along with the other quitters who hit 100 days in August. That's how we assign groups, based on when you will hit the Hall of Fame.

No nicotine of any form (patches, cigars, cigarettes, e-cig, etc.). Post roll EVERY day, reach out to start building relationships and accountability, and get involved on the forums. Do that, and you will stay quit.

Welcome to KTC.

Sounds good. Thanks for the info! I'm doing this, so I posted my first roll.

Knockout - nice avatar haha

[Knockout]

You will be in the August 2014 quit group, along with the other quitters who hit 100 days in August. That's how we assign groups, based on when you will hit the Hall of Fame.

No nicotine of any form (patches, cigars, cigarettes, e-cig, etc.). Post roll EVERY day, reach out to start building relationships and accountability, and get involved on the forums. Do that, and you will stay quit.

Welcome to KTC.

[thewolfe]

Why was that? A search for "normalcy" again? Did you find it? Did going back to the can after 90 days make everything "ok" again? I'm serious in asking this question, as I often wonder. I guess it couldn't have been too great if your back to quitting again.

Yeah, you could call it normalcy... Bad day, no one to talk to or reach out to about this. At that moment of time caving was the easier option. I put that first chew in and it was a bit disgusting but then the all too familiar feelings of ease and calm set in. The old lost friend being back and everything in the world was right again. And, no absolutely not great at all, it quit being great about an hour after I put it in... But the addictive mind is powerful, cunning, baffling. Life finally became more of a struggle and unpleasant with chew than it was without... So here I am again.

I got the double whammy and also go to AA, been a year and half sober now. I tried to apply AA techniques to chewing, but as I recently found each addiction has it's own uniqueness to it. And, its best to not mix the recovery of the two between each other. It's amazingly wonderful this site is here for the insane amount of info, support, and accountability.

Could you explain the roll call quit group? I read up on it but I'm still a little confused on how that works. Would I post to the "Pre HOF May 2014 Roll Call" quit group? I'm one of those people that really need accountability or I allow the excuses and lies to deviate me.

Ok, can you promise your quit group you will be quit for one minute?

Yes?, ok how about for one hour?

Think you can keep your word to us that you will remain quit for. An hour?

Well, if you can keep that shit out of your mouth for an hour, then certainly you can keep you word for one fucking lousy day....

That's it, just promise us, via roll call that you will remain quit FOR THAT DAY AND THAT DAY ONLY. I think that is similar to the AA stuff one day at a time. We will promise the same thing to you.

Keep your word today, when you wake up the next day, do it again. After a few days, if you do it 100% you will begin to understand why it is the KEY to your quit.

We don't worry about tomorrow, only today... A thing we can control.

So that is what roll is about, making a promise not to use nic in any form for one day. Can you keep your word for a day?

If so, I am quit with you...

[conbud]

Why was that? A search for "normalcy" again? Did you find it? Did going back to the can after 90 days make everything "ok" again? I'm serious in asking this question, as I often wonder. I guess it couldn't have been too great if your back to quitting again.

Yeah, you could call it normalcy... Bad day, no one to talk to or reach out to about this. At that moment of time caving was the easier option. I put that first chew in and it was a bit disgusting but then the all too familiar feelings of ease and calm set in. The old lost friend being back and everything in the world was right again. And, no absolutely not great at all, it quit being great about an hour after I put it in... But the addictive mind is powerful, cunning, baffling. Life finally became more of a struggle and unpleasant with chew than it was without... So here I am again.

I got the double whammy and also go to AA, been a year and half sober now. I tried to apply AA techniques to chewing, but as I recently found each addiction has it's own uniqueness to it. And, its best to not mix the recovery of the two between each other. It's amazingly wonderful this site is here for the insane amount of info, support, and accountability.

Could you explain the roll call quit group? I read up on it but I'm still a little confused on how that works. Would I post to the "Pre HOF May 2014 Roll Call" quit group? I'm one of those people that really need accountability or I allow the excuses and lies to deviate me.

[Diesel2112]

Your story is interesting. You caved after 90 days, but you say when you did you felt disgusted but "carried through".

Why was that? A search for "normalcy" again? Did you find it? Did going back to the can after 90 days make everything "ok" again? I'm serious in asking this question, as I often wonder. I guess it couldn't have been too great if your back to quitting again.

Some advice...don't worry too much about getting back to 90 days. Just worry about getting through TODAY. Then when you do get through TODAY, focus on getting through TODAY again. Then continue to repeat the process.

You got this.

Quit on...

[Grady]

This time I hope to do things differently

'Popcorn'

[conbud]

Hello... well, this is day 3. My 2nd attempt trying. On my first attempt I reached the 90 day mark and started feeling exactly what the site explains. The "blues and blahs" just like it was day 1 again. The fog and irritability came flooding back... Sadly, I was doing this on my own and didn't really have a support system setup, so I fell into the trap of that strange mental blind spot, telling myself lies and excuses, and the only course I knew to take that would make everything better was a can of Skoal.

The first chew was a bit odd, strange, almost disgusting... but I carried through with it despite the disgust and shame I felt for throwing away my 90 days that I worked SO hard to achieve. Physical withdraws the first time were terrible, ended in a hospital visit even.

This time, luckily, I only let myself slip for 3 weeks before quitting again. This time I hope to do things differently by getting connected here and having an outlet to voice what's going on inside me during this emotional rollercoaster. I'm ready to do this!

Oh... and I'm soooo freakin hungry ALL the time now! All I wanna do is eat eat eat. I remember that from the first time. Having an appetite again is good! :D