Hey guys,
Been dipping now for 19 years, half my Life!
I am on about 46 hours quit. I haven't tried to quit in about 5 years the last time I tried to quit I think I made it all the way to supper time on day 1. Pathetic!
I found his place by a horrible family tragedy. I already love it. Reading on here made me realize that i love nic more than i love my kids, my wife, everything. Nic takes priority #1 in my life. And that pisses me off, makes me sick to my stomach, and mostly makes me sad. How could I let this happen? I am here to change me and I need it in a bad way.
I've managed to mess up my roll call both days I've done it, hope I get better at that.
Day 1 2 suck. I feel strange. I'm hot one min. Cold the next. All i can think about is nic. Taking saunas nightly Thinking it will help me shed of the sodium from all the seeds I've been mowing down. Drinking water like a crazy man because I can't get this bad taste out of my mouth like cotton mouth all the time. One good thing about quitting near Christmas is the fact that there are candy canes everywhere. I dont feel any better, i feel.worse. But I know this is worth it. I still love nic, but by the time I'm done with this first week I'm sure i will hate it.
It seems the worst time for me is 3pm-6pm I don't know why but that's the worst time ever. I'm still quit,