Day 2

[Skolvikings]

Let's play:

I will not post anything on this site until I post roll first, per the board guidelines. I have consulted with an administrator, for me to fully "ghost" on this site I had to remove myself from my quit group. So that's what I did my quit is strong 82 days off the can. 55 days per KTC standards. Due to a cig. I had on day 27 of my original quit. It is true, I want the benefit of the KTC community without the work. I may get booted off the site for sending PM's, I don't know how that works. If that happens its ok, as i can ghost as a guest. As far as I know when your not part of a quit group posting roll you can't post to the public forum. But you can still PM. I am sending this to you because you seem to be the Nazi of the group. Ultimately I lied to all of you so I get what I want. Because I am a fat, lazy, self centered, quitter. I am only worried about myself and my quit, that is what is important to me. I dont want to take time out of my busy day to deal with other people's bull shit, and other people's timeline as to what is "late" I make my promise to myself, my wife and my kids. That's what keeps me going, and will continue to keep me going. Along with the fact that my dad got cancer from Nicotine. I was hoping I could deal with the drama in the group for another 45 days getting me to the HOF, and I could exit my quit group with respect. But I'm fed up, and out. 82 days! Do you realize how fucking awesome that is!



SO ARE YOU SPECIAL? DON'T SHARE PM'S IF YOU DON'T WANT YOURS SHARED...

[Rheleaf]

this is the last correspondence I received from you. Why won't you accept that my way of quitting works for me?

skolvikings · Mar 12 2018, 10:26 AM You got it.... I won't bother you again and I wish you the best of luck.

Stay quit

[Skolvikings]

So you are keeping track of the anniversary of your last roll post?

Is this going to be a celebration?

You are special.... you don't post roll and yet you roam these hallways.

You post in your introduction without posting roll.... trust me you are the only one that does that.

You go in your home group (my group) and lie about a CAVE because you are too much of a pussy to post roll everyday (roll is sacred by the way).

YOU ARE FUCKING SPECIAL

AND FUCKING LAZY

[Skolvikings]

So you are keeping track of the anniversary of your last roll post?

Is this going to be a celebration?

You are special.... you don't post roll and yet you roam these hallways.

You post in your introduction without posting roll.... trust me you are the only one that does that.

You go in your home group (my group) and lie about a CAVE because you are too much of a pussy to post roll everyday (roll is sacred by the way).

YOU ARE FUCKING SPECIAL

[Rheleaf]

I am not special, I'm just a guy that makes his mind up one day at a time not to put nic into his body. tomorrow will be my two month, away from posting roll, anniversary. Still quit, can't say I've done it alone, KTC is the reason I am still quit. I am very thankful for this place.

[Skolvikings]

Then post roll like everyone else... why are you special?

[Rheleaf]

canofbeans, I am a bit later in my quit. and I too, now Hate nic.

[eric71]

Day 3, post Paul mall cig. Again withdraw symptoms not nearly as bad as my 1st day 3. More like the symptoms I was feeling on day 26. Just my brain still rewiring itself. Looking forward to more clean days.

I look forward to the rest of the day, I don't worry about quitting tomorrow until then. There is no forever quit, just the quit for today. I'll still be an addict tomorrow.

People on here are funny. The claim they hate nic, they say I have bigger problems if I don't hate nic by now. But they don't hate nic, they are addicts. Addicts don't hate their preferred drug, addicts love what addicts are addicted too. I am an addict I am addicted to nicotine. And I love nicotine because I am an addict. That's how addiction works. Today I am a quit addict. I hope to be a quit addict everyday moving forward. Today I am only worried about today. Tomorrow I will worry about when it gets here. But I hope to be a quit addict then too. Once an addict always an addict. There is active addicts and quit addicts, but regardless of your addiction status, you are an addict. And there will always be a part of me that loves nicotine. The addict part of me.

I understand what you are saying about hatred for nicotine. When I first came here I hated my addiction and I hated the fact that I loved nicotine. I simply could not understand what people were talking about with the "required" hatred for nicotine.

Now, 476 days quit and a nicotine turned to life taking cancer family tragedy later, I have an extreme hatred for nicotine. It makes the quit so much easier, but I do not think people jump right into a quit with that level of hatred, it will come with time.

Your key to success will be keeping your word. It is not easy at all, but it is very simple.

I suggest you dig into some of the introductions of people who are much further in their quit than you in an attempt to give yourself some perspective. There is a reason that after 5,6,7,8,9 years that people still post up their promise. It is more about what they have come to be because of their quit. They celebrate the victories in the lives of fellow quitters. The days quit become secondary, albeit important still, to the freedoms they now enjoy.

[canofbeans]

Day 3, post Paul mall cig. Again withdraw symptoms not nearly as bad as my 1st day 3. More like the symptoms I was feeling on day 26. Just my brain still rewiring itself. Looking forward to more clean days.

I look forward to the rest of the day, I don't worry about quitting tomorrow until then. There is no forever quit, just the quit for today. I'll still be an addict tomorrow.

People on here are funny. The claim they hate nic, they say I have bigger problems if I don't hate nic by now. But they don't hate nic, they are addicts. Addicts don't hate their preferred drug, addicts love what addicts are addicted too. I am an addict I am addicted to nicotine. And I love nicotine because I am an addict. That's how addiction works. Today I am a quit addict. I hope to be a quit addict everyday moving forward. Today I am only worried about today. Tomorrow I will worry about when it gets here. But I hope to be a quit addict then too. Once an addict always an addict. There is active addicts and quit addicts, but regardless of your addiction status, you are an addict. And there will always be a part of me that loves nicotine. The addict part of me.

I understand what you are saying about hatred for nicotine. When I first came here I hated my addiction and I hated the fact that I loved nicotine. I simply could not understand what people were talking about with the "required" hatred for nicotine.

Now, 476 days quit and a nicotine turned to life taking cancer family tragedy later, I have an extreme hatred for nicotine. It makes the quit so much easier, but I do not think people jump right into a quit with that level of hatred, it will come with time.

Your key to success will be keeping your word. It is not easy at all, but it is very simple.

[Rheleaf]

Day 3, post Paul mall cig. Again withdraw symptoms not nearly as bad as my 1st day 3. More like the symptoms I was feeling on day 26. Just my brain still rewiring itself. Looking forward to more clean days.

I look forward to the rest of the day, I don't worry about quitting tomorrow until then. There is no forever quit, just the quit for today. I'll still be an addict tomorrow.

People on here are funny. The claim they hate nic, they say I have bigger problems if I don't hate nic by now. But they don't hate nic, they are addicts. Addicts don't hate their preferred drug, addicts love what addicts are addicted too. I am an addict I am addicted to nicotine. And I love nicotine because I am an addict. That's how addiction works. Today I am a quit addict. I hope to be a quit addict everyday moving forward. Today I am only worried about today. Tomorrow I will worry about when it gets here. But I hope to be a quit addict then too. Once an addict always an addict. There are active addicts and quit addicts, but regardless of your addiction status, you are an addict. And there will always be a part of me that loves nicotine. The addict part of me.

[Thumblewort]

Day 3, post Paul mall cig. Again withdraw symptoms not nearly as bad as my 1st day 3. More like the symptoms I was feeling on day 26. Just my brain still rewiring itself. Looking forward to more clean days.

I look forward to the rest of the day, I don't worry about quitting tomorrow until then. There is no forever quit, just the quit for today. I'll still be an addict tomorrow.

[Rheleaf]

Day 3, post Paul mall cig. Again withdraw symptoms not nearly as bad as my 1st day 3. More like the symptoms I was feeling on day 26. Just my brain still rewiring itself. Looking forward to more clean days.

[Samrs]

Post #24 in my introduction. Day 2 again, not nearly as bad as day 2 almost a month ago. Not something I'd recommend doing on a monthly basis but it's not the end of the world either. My word is still mud on KTC but that comes with the territory. There are a bunch of people that like to call you a liar and try to get under your skin, but such is life when you are a liar. If you can't handle it then get thicker skin. And don't lie anymore. We'll see if any one on here takes my word on anything in a month or so. If not, I will leave the site and make the promise to myself and my wife and kids. I don't really want to follow the exact path as pureblood a fellow march 18 railroader that is no longer on this site. Time will tell. I am sorry to my fellow March 18 Railroaders for caving on you. I hope you can forgive me for lieing. Good luck. As for my new group, April 2018, I will do better. I will not lie any more.

Proof is in your quit and activity on the site. You've heard the old adage, "Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me". Us vets are a pain in the ass of the nic bitch and newbies who lack the resolve to stay on task. Prove us wrong, for your sake and life.

Rheleaf - I like what I see in this post. Now let's see some actions, man. Show us. Don't set a deadline for yourself, either... that's your brain, trying to give you an out. Dig in, grab hold of your quit and make it rock-solid, so that nothing will shake your determination to be clean. Not circumstances, not a bunch of random yahoos on the internet, nothing.

[eric71]

Post #24 in my introduction. Day 2 again, not nearly as bad as day 2 almost a month ago. Not something I'd recommend doing on a monthly basis but it's not the end of the world either. My word is still mud on KTC but that comes with the territory. There are a bunch of people that like to call you a liar and try to get under your skin, but such is life when you are a liar. If you can't handle it then get thicker skin. And don't lie anymore. We'll see if any one on here takes my word on anything in a month or so. If not, I will leave the site and make the promise to myself and my wife and kids. I don't really want to follow the exact path as pureblood a fellow march 18 railroader that is no longer on this site. Time will tell. I am sorry to my fellow March 18 Railroaders for caving on you. I hope you can forgive me for lieing. Good luck. As for my new group, April 2018, I will do better. I will not lie any more.

Proof is in your quit and activity on the site. You've heard the old adage, "Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me". Us vets are a pain in the ass of the nic bitch and newbies who lack the resolve to stay on task. Prove us wrong, for your sake and life.

[Rheleaf]

Post #24 in my introduction. Day 2 again, not nearly as bad as day 2 almost a month ago. Not something I'd recommend doing on a monthly basis but it's not the end of the world either. My word is still mud on KTC but that comes with the territory. There are a bunch of people that like to call you a liar and try to get under your skin, but such is life when you are a liar. If you can't handle it then get thicker skin. And don't lie anymore. We'll see if any one on here takes my word on anything in a month or so. If not, I will leave the site and make the promise to myself and my wife and kids. I don't really want to follow the exact path as pureblood a fellow march 18 railroader that is no longer on this site. Time will tell. I am sorry to my fellow March 18 Railroaders for caving on you. I hope you can forgive me for lieing. Good luck. As for my new group, April 2018, I will do better. I will not lie any more.