Fell off the horse, time to saddle back up

[UH60Chief107]

Thanks for the words of advice and support from everyone.

I am almost finished with Day 1 over here in Germany. I had quite a few cravings but nothing that wasn't manageable. I definitely felt myself beginning to enter the fog around 18:00(CEST). I was in a german bakery ordering some food and it was as if the filter between my thoughts and brain had been removed. After about 30 seconds of scanning the food behind the glass and glancing at the other customers, I realized that everything I had been thinking was actually being said out loud. At first I started to get embarrassed, then mad, but all I could do was step back and just laugh uncontrollably at how crazy nicotine was making my brain. I am trying to keep myself in a positive mood so I can blast through this first week.

[Raider]

First off, thanks for serving. Secondly, welcome. You are among a select group of people that realize how bad nicotine is for you and quitting is the only option.

You are gonna get a shitload of advice. All I can say is read it all.

The rules are simple:
Post Roll Daily
Honor your word
Be active on here

You will only get out of this what you put in.

[MonsterMedic]

Welcome. Reach out to people here and build your accountability network. Send me a PM if you need another number. It really does help to have someone you can text who knows what you're going through. As far as your time difference, I work EMS so I'm up at odd hours if it'll help.

This forum and the people on it are only as helpful as you allow them to be. Get involved. Post roll every damn day and stick to your word. Focus on today. Don't focus on being quit for her rest of your life. That can seem insurmountable. One day? Anyone can quit something for one day. So do it. And then tomorrow you can do it again.

Glad to have you with us.

[Sh4string]

Sound advice already given. Keep reading KTC and get yourself a plan for when you are craving, and a plan for when you cannot post roll. PM me if you need anything.

Chief, Congrats on your quit. Be honest to your new found brothers here. We quit one day at a time, Every day!! and we quit for life. Tell your wife what you are doing, we have an area for spouses. Spousal support is very helpful and it helps if she understands what you are going through... My spouse knows almost as much about KTC as I do. Post roll and be accountable every day. PM for # . Lean on the vets and others to get you through the rough spots. Never let your guard down The Nic. Bitch is a nasty whore that will have you suckling her teat before you know it. I know this sounds strange but, Mentally make your quit the most important thing in your life... Be offended at UST because if you have not figured this out yet... You are addicted for life my friend , just like the rest of us. It will get better for sure but you are an addict and will remain an addict until you die...................................... Emulator

Thanks for your service. You have come to the right place. Read all over this site, lots of wisdom scattered about. Get some phone #s. Get heavily involved in your September group. Stop by Chat and say hello. We're here for you, Quit Like Fuck!

Welcome aboard!!! Thank you for your service! Good advice given. Posting roll is a sacred duty here...every damn day.... If for work reasons, you need to let folks in your group know ASAP...via text, post, pm.... You can do this.... Read my intro if you wanna know my story. PM me anytime and try out the chatroom!

[slug.go]

Sound advice already given. Keep reading KTC and get yourself a plan for when you are craving, and a plan for when you cannot post roll. PM me if you need anything.

Chief, Congrats on your quit. Be honest to your new found brothers here. We quit one day at a time, Every day!! and we quit for life. Tell your wife what you are doing, we have an area for spouses. Spousal support is very helpful and it helps if she understands what you are going through... My spouse knows almost as much about KTC as I do. Post roll and be accountable every day. PM for # . Lean on the vets and others to get you through the rough spots. Never let your guard down The Nic. Bitch is a nasty whore that will have you suckling her teat before you know it. I know this sounds strange but, Mentally make your quit the most important thing in your life... Be offended at UST because if you have not figured this out yet... You are addicted for life my friend , just like the rest of us. It will get better for sure but you are an addict and will remain an addict until you die...................................... Emulator

Thanks for your service. You have come to the right place. Read all over this site, lots of wisdom scattered about. Get some phone #s. Get heavily involved in your September group. Stop by Chat and say hello. We're here for you, Quit Like Fuck!

[Emulator]

Sound advice already given. Keep reading KTC and get yourself a plan for when you are craving, and a plan for when you cannot post roll. PM me if you need anything.

Chief, Congrats on your quit. Be honest to your new found brothers here. We quit one day at a time, Every day!! and we quit for life. Tell your wife what you are doing, we have an area for spouses. Spousal support is very helpful and it helps if she understands what you are going through... My spouse knows almost as much about KTC as I do. Post roll and be accountable every day. PM for # . Lean on the vets and others to get you through the rough spots. Never let your guard down The Nic. Bitch is a nasty whore that will have you suckling her teat before you know it. I know this sounds strange but, Mentally make your quit the most important thing in your life... Be offended at UST because if you have not figured this out yet... You are addicted for life my friend , just like the rest of us. It will get better for sure but you are an addict and will remain an addict until you die...................................... Emulator

[B-loMatt]

Sound advice already given. Keep reading KTC and get yourself a plan for when you are craving, and a plan for when you cannot post roll. PM me if you need anything.

[Dagranger]

Hello everyone.
First and foremost, thank you for this awesome site. I have a feeling it is going to provide a huge help to me as it has already done to others. I will tell my story and try to make it as brief as possible.

I am 26 years old and have been dipping since I was 15. I grew up in the sticks of Tennessee so dipping was pretty much a cultural "norm". I dipped a can a day up until the day I left for basic training at the age of 21. I didn't have time to think about nicotine during basic so it was really quite easy to stop. But, after 8 weeks I got out of basic training and went right back to dipping a can a day.

Fast forward to 6 months ago, January 1st, 2014. Typical addict story, my new year's resolution was to quit dipping. I did all the normal stuff that addicts do, even though I told myself and others around me "I can quit any time I want, I just enjoy it!", wow what a joke. I had never tried to quit before and thought it wouldn't be too bad. I think it was day 3 that I finally hit that mode where, no shit, I was going to punch the next person that looked at me funny. Eventually the rage passed and I was fine. My wife was proud of me when I hit day 30 because she thought I had kicked the habit for good, heck I thought so too.

I made it to 120 days, then that little devil crept up on my shoulder and said "see, you CAN quit any time you want, so why not treat yourself to just one dip?". It started with bumming a dip off of a friend, then next thing you know, I am full blown doing a can a day. The worst part is, I didn't have the intestinal fortitude to tell my wife. She was so proud of me because she knew how hard it was to quit. Then I started sneaking around to get my fix. Staying up late after my wife goes to bed to "watch tv" just to sneak a dip in. Suddenly realizing there was something in the basement that I needed to do, just to go sit in a lawn chair in the dark for 30 minutes to get some nicotine. Having a sudden emergency that required items from the gas station, just so I could have enough dip to supply me through the evening. This routine has been going on for a couple months now. I am ashamed for giving up and going back to it. That brings me to the present day.

I went off to work like any other day this morning(I am stationed in Germany, so my morning is your night for all the US folks). I got a text from my wife that sent anger, frustration, disappointment, and every other emotion in between flooding through my mind. It read "So, still dipping?". Did she know I started again? I have hidden my tracks so well, how could she? Did one of my friends tell her???? At this point, I called her and said, why would you ask that? She said, "You can be honest with me. I found an empty can in the basement that was obviously fresh. I am disappointed you started again, but for god's sake, dont hide it from me." I felt so ashamed, disppointed, and weak. This wasn't just a bad habit, it was a full blown addiction. I thought I had quit, but I didn't know the meaning of QUIT until today. Sure, I stopped for a while, but after reading a lot of stories on this site, I want to QUIT FOREVER.

I couldn't do it on my own, and I think that is mainly because I had no support from people that knew what I was going through. None of my friends want to quit dipping and my wife doesn't use nicotine so she cannot understand the pain and frustration of quitting. That is what brought me to this site. I hope I can learn from you all and have a good group of support to help me on this journey. I also hope that one day I can provide the same inspiration to another person that takes on the same fight to kick this addiction's ass.

-UH60Chief

Welcome aboard Chief I guess you learned what every one of us has learned. You may be an ex dipper but you can not be an ex addict. Regardless of how many days you stay quit you will have zero days unaddicted. (Not reaslly sure if that is a word but you get what I mean) Having been on a quit recently you know what you will be going through mentally over the next ferw months, but here at KTC you have to quit differently. You make a promise to quit today...not for a week a month or for life one day. That promise is made by posting roll, if you feel the need to crack you have to convince 3 other KTC guys that it is ok to go back. Sounds simple but following those two steps,...no one has ever caved. Good luck to you, this is all a mental game. for whatever reason your brain is convinced that the best thing for you is to put a weed in your mouth, you need to rewire your brain to understand how fucking stupid that is. Good luck.

[Thumblewort]

UH60, in cases like that you need to get a few phone digits and text some folks to help you post roll. I'll send you mine so you have some, but get more from your quit group.

Stopping chew for a few days, restarting, and hiding it from your wife.........I only did that 8 or 9 times, so much so that every time that I announced that "I quit" to her she just rolled her eyes. I am 63 days quit and do not have her trust, and rightfully so. We are addicts, and without support and quitting every day we will be doomed to repeat our addiction.

Hang tough for the next few days, and stay close to this site.

[UH60Chief107]

Thank you for the kind words WorkTowin.


I am reading all about how to post roll call at the moment. The only concern I have is that due to my job I have to leave on short notice to remote locations. For operational security reasons, the length of time of these missions are not allowed to be "leaked". I am not sure if there is maybe an admin over the quit groups that I could shoot a message to if I am going to be out for a while so nobody worries that I am falling off again.

[worktowin]

Well, now you know... There is no just one. I bet you are pissed that you threw that many days away. But here is the thing... You weren't ready then. You weren't quit then.

You are quit now.

This process is really simple to understand. Wake up and immediately post roll in your group. That is your promise to yourself and everyone on this site that for today you will not use nicotine. Just for today, you give your word. Now, if your word isn't worth a shit or you are a sociopath, this plan will not work. But if you are a man of your word, and from reading your intro I believe that you are, then you can do anything for a day. Then repeat tomorrow.

First thing in the morning is key. Get your name on the roll before the bathroom break, the coffee, anything. Make this your ritual. And when you wanna punch someone get on the site and take it out on us. We will take your shit all day long. Your family doesn't understand or deserve the rage so direct it here. We get it.

This process is easy and non negotiable. You can do this. One day at a time.

If I can help let me know. Welcome aboard.

[UH60Chief107]

Hello everyone.
First and foremost, thank you for this awesome site. I have a feeling it is going to provide a huge help to me as it has already done to others. I will tell my story and try to make it as brief as possible.

I am 26 years old and have been dipping since I was 15. I grew up in the sticks of Tennessee so dipping was pretty much a cultural "norm". I dipped a can a day up until the day I left for basic training at the age of 21. I didn't have time to think about nicotine during basic so it was really quite easy to stop. But, after 8 weeks I got out of basic training and went right back to dipping a can a day.

Fast forward to 6 months ago, January 1st, 2014. Typical addict story, my new year's resolution was to quit dipping. I did all the normal stuff that addicts do, even though I told myself and others around me "I can quit any time I want, I just enjoy it!", wow what a joke. I had never tried to quit before and thought it wouldn't be too bad. I think it was day 3 that I finally hit that mode where, no shit, I was going to punch the next person that looked at me funny. Eventually the rage passed and I was fine. My wife was proud of me when I hit day 30 because she thought I had kicked the habit for good, heck I thought so too.

I made it to 120 days, then that little devil crept up on my shoulder and said "see, you CAN quit any time you want, so why not treat yourself to just one dip?". It started with bumming a dip off of a friend, then next thing you know, I am full blown doing a can a day. The worst part is, I didn't have the intestinal fortitude to tell my wife. She was so proud of me because she knew how hard it was to quit. Then I started sneaking around to get my fix. Staying up late after my wife goes to bed to "watch tv" just to sneak a dip in. Suddenly realizing there was something in the basement that I needed to do, just to go sit in a lawn chair in the dark for 30 minutes to get some nicotine. Having a sudden emergency that required items from the gas station, just so I could have enough dip to supply me through the evening. This routine has been going on for a couple months now. I am ashamed for giving up and going back to it. That brings me to the present day.

I went off to work like any other day this morning(I am stationed in Germany, so my morning is your night for all the US folks). I got a text from my wife that sent anger, frustration, disappointment, and every other emotion in between flooding through my mind. It read "So, still dipping?". Did she know I started again? I have hidden my tracks so well, how could she? Did one of my friends tell her???? At this point, I called her and said, why would you ask that? She said, "You can be honest with me. I found an empty can in the basement that was obviously fresh. I am disappointed you started again, but for god's sake, dont hide it from me." I felt so ashamed, disppointed, and weak. This wasn't just a bad habit, it was a full blown addiction. I thought I had quit, but I didn't know the meaning of QUIT until today. Sure, I stopped for a while, but after reading a lot of stories on this site, I want to QUIT FOREVER.

I couldn't do it on my own, and I think that is mainly because I had no support from people that knew what I was going through. None of my friends want to quit dipping and my wife doesn't use nicotine so she cannot understand the pain and frustration of quitting. That is what brought me to this site. I hope I can learn from you all and have a good group of support to help me on this journey. I also hope that one day I can provide the same inspiration to another person that takes on the same fight to kick this addiction's ass.

-UH60Chief