operator,
Firstly, welcome, please reach out to me if you ever need anything.
Secondly, I recommend you take some time and write down details about each one of these items here in your introduction:
"Ready to .......
Quit slowly killing myself
Quit hating myself
Quit lying to myself
Quit wasting my money and time on this dog shit"
Describe why you feel you are hating yourself, what types of lies are you facing on a daily basis, how much money are you spending, how has this addiction been ruining your life one day at time.
The reason I recommend this, is every morning you come back to this introduction before posting roll and read it again. Remind yourself of how fuckign miserable your addiction is. Because as time passes and things get good, you will begin to forget the little things that your addiction has done to ruin your life. Never forget!!!!
Do this, and then post roll every fucking day and really understand that roll is a promise, and believe me... before you know it you will be one month out and I cannot even describe how great life is without that shit. Get through this month to save your life.