I have been reading this site and forum for a couple of days. I finally decided to start an account and post. I'm sitting at my desk at work and reading and thinking about how awesome it would be to finally quit. I want to give it up for good. Then I think to myself "but I just bought a fresh tin this morning and I haven't even opened it up yet." So what? I was just going to put that in my mouth and shorten my life anyway. I just want to throw the bullshit in the garbage and start NOW. Should I try to start on a new day? Since it takes 3 days for the nicotine to leave my body, should I maybe start on a Friday so I'm not an ogre at work?
I started dipping back in high school about 22 years ago. I also smoked then and dipping was great for doing in class because you could get away with it without the teacher noticing. For a lot of years after school I just smoked cigarettes exclusively. In 2008 I gave up cigarettes and started dipping again. Eventually, I went back to cigarettes but I kept dipping too! Talk about suicide overdrive! On new year's day this year I gave up cigarettes for good. I was so proud of myself -- but I didn't give up dipping and the nic bitch. Now I'm afraid if I quit dip then I'll just go back to cigarettes. It's my biggest fear because even though I dip I still crave cigarettes as well, and my wife smokes. She sits right next to me on the couch and puffs away. Sometimes I can't take the craving and I have to pop in a dip to shut the nic bitch up. I'm so tired of being a slave.
My wife has no problem with her smoking. She smokes around the kids and wherever she pleases and doesn't care. I love her dearly, but she's extremely selfish about it. I know she's not going to curtail her habits for my benefit. So I really have no "local" support on the quitting except for my kids, who I know would love to see me quit. They always make faces and tell me how gross it is. Even my 2 year old daughter says "ucky" when I put the spitter to my lips. I want to set a good example for my kids, but mainly I need to quit for myself. I need to give up nicotine for good and move on. No patches, no panacea. Just quit. Bear down and take it. It's going to be very hard -- my wife won't change her habits. She'll still smoke right next to me. Triggers are everywhere -- work is a BIG trigger. Driving. Watching baseball (my absolute favorite thing to watch.) Video games. Everything in my life seems to involve having a lip turd in. I can't use my wife's selfishness as an excuse any longer. I'm 37 years old. Tony Gwynn is one of my all-time favorite ball players. I have a very large history of cancer in my family on both sides. I can't wait any longer.
So I'm coming to you guys for help and advice. I'll throw these bastard cans right into the wastebasket right now, grit my teeth, and be an ogre for three days.
I just told my boss that I was going to quit and that I'll be an ogre for the next three days. He was awesome about it. I'm lucky to have an awesome boss. He told me to feel free to take a break at any point, go for a jog, whatever in order to get through it. My wife will roll her eyes at me. I don't care -- this is for me.
I have just quit chewing tobacco. For now, I will take it 1 minute at a time. I will not use any other nicotine product to supplement my cravings. My word is all I have in this world, and it is my bond.
Since I"m quitting mid day, should I roll call today or wait until the morning? I'm not even 100% sure what to do on this site. I do know that you guys have helped a lot of people quit and I want to be one of them! My will to quit is strong right now, but the nic bitch is very strong too. I need support - so I'm going to lean on you folks for as long as it takes. Okay?
