Day 1

[teamgreen]

Cool. I will look forward to it.

Yeah, on the sleep thing, I'm notoriously a pretty deep sleeper. I've known a couple friends that have admitted to waking up to take a dip in the middle of the night. I really never had much problem with that until the last few months. My sleep habits have been all over the map and I'm sure some has to do with chew. Either I can't get to sleep at night, or I'll be exhausted really early and then wake up at 3am (at which point I take a big dip and just start my day a few hours early).

There is not way in hell that I can imagine NOT sleeping better once I get a ways into this. I'm sure I'll have some insomnia issues, but it can't be that bad, once the situation stabilizes a bit.

Also, any veterans here teeth grinders in their sleep? That ever go away?

[nkt]

If bumpin this thread to post to myself is forkin stupid and wrong let me know. I just noticed that a few people have been interested in their own intro thread later down the line, so I thought I'd journalize (whatever) mine for posterity.

Note to self, on 2nd nic free night, I apparently can't sleiep more than an hour at a time. I keep waking up expecting it to be morning and 30 minutes have passed. Then 15 minutes to ponder it, then another 43 minutes of fitful sleep. Man, I'm gonna be pissed off AND exhausted tomorrow. And I thought I was a giant raging richard today...bring the pain (and try to spare as much collateral damage as possible)

That part goes away quickly, and then it gets pretty cool:

When the weekend comes, you can actually SLEEP IN if you want to. For the entire time I was dipping, I couldn't sleep more than about six hours because the nic withdrawals would kick my ass out of bed bright and early to send me scrambling to find my can and stuff my lip. That was a shitty existence; after you get through the withdrawal/insomnia/craving stuff you're going through now, you'll find that the nic-free life is MUCH better than you're used to.

[MikeA]

I think it is a good idea teamgreen. This place is a place to do almost anything you need to do to make sure you don't put that shit back in your mouth.

[teamgreen]

If bumpin this thread to post to myself is forkin stupid and wrong let me know. I just noticed that a few people have been interested in their own intro thread later down the line, so I thought I'd journalize (whatever) mine for posterity.

Note to self, on 2nd nic free night, I apparently can't sleiep more than an hour at a time. I keep waking up expecting it to be morning and 30 minutes have passed. Then 15 minutes to ponder it, then another 43 minutes of fitful sleep. Man, I'm gonna be pissed off AND exhausted tomorrow. And I thought I was a giant raging richard today...bring the pain (and try to spare as much collateral damage as possible)

[MikeA]

P.S. I followed your advice and pm'd numbers to the couple guys within last couple days. A little wierd over the internet w/ people I don't know, but what the hell.

Great thing is, when you do call one of these guys you can talk forever because you have so much in common.

[loot]

welcome gangegreen.

nice to have you.

watch out for MikeA...he's "different"

just think...by Monday the physical withdrawals will be over. The the mindfuck starts (don't get no ideas MikeA).

You are in for a rollercoaster ride of heaven and hell. The suckyness of the jackassery recovery will keep you clean at some point. Remember how bad it sucks.

Don't feel weird getting to know these fuckheads. Most are harmless (FUMikeA)....and they will actually save your life if you let them.

Again....welcome.

[Tom378]

I know how you feel but just get by, take each day at a time

[teamgreen]

Well, thanks for the go ahead. I actually don't feel the need to rant just yet, but it's kind of tough dealing with clients and co-workers right now. I know it's withdrawals, not them. They're doing nothing out of the ordinary.

I may not have to be civil here, but I do have to be at work. I'll make it, but I feel like like it'll be (marginally) easier if I can just be fucking irritated and not have to pretend otherwise. That will be the case in about 4 hours.

P.S. I followed your advice and pm'd numbers to the couple guys within last couple days. A little wierd over the internet w/ people I don't know, but what the hell.

I get it (probably will even more later). I can't do this by myself, or I would have over the last twenty years of jackassery. The more accountable I make myself the better. I'm on it.

[MikeA]

20+ years later, 1 can/day+ for years, grizzly most recently and I'm about 15 hours in. Fogs definitely rolling in, but want/need to do this. Not cavin'.

Why are normally nice people at work such a-holes today? kiddin, I know why. Honestly, can't wait till I'm done with work so I can quit trying to be civil.

I just don't need to be around anyone right now, for their sake.

you don't have to be civil here, let us have it.

[teamgreen]

20+ years later, 1 can/day+ for years, grizzly most recently and I'm about 15 hours in. Fogs definitely rolling in, but want/need to do this. Not cavin'.

Why are normally nice people at work such a-holes today? kiddin, I know why. Honestly, can't wait till I'm done with work so I can quit trying to be civil.

I just don't need to be around anyone right now, for their sake.