Well, I'm on Day 18. I always knew I would need to quit one day, but it was always "tomorrow" or "next week". I swapped dentists a couple weeks ago, and for the first time ever, they could tell I dipped without me telling them. That was it, the last straw. Not to mention I have a young son and I knew it would only be a matter of time before he started spitting because he thought it was cool. My wife never pushed me, but she is super happy that I quit... obviously. It can't be flattering having your friends over with your husband walking around with his damn red solo cup everywhere slobbering.
I think I started when I was around 13, so that would make it about 20 years now. I grew up in cow-town Texas and everyone dipped. It was the tough, cowboy thing to do. Until you get hooked. I swapped it out for smoking for a while, but it was always some sort of nicotine delivery system that I needed. I can't believe it has been 20 years since I have had this chemical out of my blood.... unless it came out at boot-camp, but that was forced anyway. I am super proud of myself. It sucks gaining weight and being bloated. I have dropped a bunch of weight over the past 14 months, so seeing the scale going the other way pisses me off... but it's a hell of a lot better than getting my jaw cut off... or my family having to watch me go through chemo because of my selfishness.
I will NEVER put nicotine into my body again. EVER. It should be outlawed. It has made a lot of people rich and killed multitudes more. It's the hardest thing I have ever quit. But I'm doing it. One day at a time. I am telling everyone I know that dips about this site, even if they're not ready to quit. My dad has been dipping for, has to be, 40+ years. I told him to check it out, just look around and do some reading. I'm so thankful I found this site... and the f'd up roll system used! It's great squinting through the fog to figure out what the hell happened to your name on roll. "Who the hell bumped me???".
I quit with all you a holes... every day.
