I am a member of several forums and I hate walls of text, so I apologize in advance....
I've been wanting to quit for so long. Cope long cut, started when I was in college and now I'm 33. Wish I would have never tried it in the first place. It is now 2:38pm for me. My last dip was in the car on the way back to the office about an hour and a half ago. I would have had another one or two by now but I ran out. My wife came up to me (she works with me, family business) and told me that I had spent $98 in tobacco in the last two to three weeks. We recently moved to Florida from Georgia. Cope was $3.60 a can back there. Here it's over $5.50.
It was at that moment, about 2pm, that I decided I was going to do something about quitting. I googled on how to quit dip, found this site. I read and wondered if I could do it. I've tried multiple times in the past to no avail. Smokey Mountain worked for a couple of days, but in the end, I gave up. So I ordered some Hooch, after reading the reviews on here. Figured I'd read more when I got home, after I stopped and bought another couple of cans. And I'd buy another couple of cans after that to until the Hooch came in.
But then I came across a couple of intro threads where some people had said they were "going" to quit instead of "quitting". And I read some of the older members posts about giving in instead of starting NOW. Just reading that, I started to nic. My head started to spin. But I've made my decision. I'm done. If I don't do it now, I never will. Another excuse will come up. Even while I'm typing this, I'm reaching for a can, one that isn't even there. Done it 4 or 5 times now. Typing and working in front of the PC, one of my triggers. Driving, another trigger. Video games, both Xbox and PC, another trigger. After eating, another trigger. I go through, excuse me, used to go through 2 cans a day. I think there was about 2 hours out of 18 or so that I was awake where I would have a clean mouth.
Wow, it's only been 2 hours, and i'm already showing craving signs. This is going to be the hardest thing I think I have done in my life. I'm ready to tackle it though. I have always had an addictive personality, no will power. I need to do this not only for my health and my checkbook, but to show myself that I can actually do something that requires some nuts and intestinal fortitude.
I always wondered what support groups do for alcoholics at AA. I've seen TV ads for support groups for smokers. But after reading a few threads, I finally see what the value. Thank you in advance to all who are gonna help me through this.