Thanks guys for the support. I know this sounds easy but as you all know quitting is not simple. I'm in day 6, and I will say it's probably been the toughest mentally. I totally hear wastepanel time seems to stand still sometimes. Wish it could do that during sex, but no it has to be when you can't sleep, or are waiting to go to bed, etc. Today has been tough but I can push through this rough patch. Need to try and not be such a dick to those in the house, but it's almost impossible. I am a dick.
Dude, I was the worst dick in the world during my quit. I made 100% certain during my sane times to tell my wife it wasn't me when I would get that way and I was so proud that she was standing beside me. I would do my best not to show it at home but my temper was way out of control. Below is a timeline that shows my temper days and when they ended.
Keep pushing on, you can do this.
I am on day 171 and feeling great!!!!!!
Day 15-21 Starting to get my energy level back up. Craves about 2-4 per day and short. The first thing every morning, I started to get an empty and sick feeling in my stomach when I thought about not being able to dip. Started losing my temper easily.
Day 22-25 No real changes, cruising along but feeling a little depressed. I started learning how to hate my addiction and was really mad about it.
Day 26- 30: Wow, I was starting to gain a lot of weight. Weird how I replaced Cope with Ice Cream and cake. I don't even eat sweets but here I am 10 lbs heavier. I don't care, I'm not dipping and the craves are mild.
Day 31-38: Freaking fog was back, some nasty craves and my temper way out of control. WTF!
Day 39-60: The roller coaster days. Mod craves followed by no craves, bad temper and mild depression. A difficult time but I was not giving up at this point.
Day 61-73: The best days by far. Seldom think about dip, temper is way better, sleeping like a normal person and just feeling pretty darn good. I am stacking up these good days to recharge my batteries and prepare for the next round of fights".
Day 74- 85: Really good days. Strong cravings when I have too many drinks so I have been careful with drinking. Normal days are now 0-1 crave. My temper has been completely under control for 2 weeks now.