Day 1 for peters6278

[ZillahCowboy]

Jeff,
Nice job posting roll this morning. PM or text me if you need anything. Embrace the suck...because it's gonna suck....for awhile. Your body is purging the poison. You got QUIT man.
ZC.

[jzzyzag01]

Jeff my story is also very similar with a couple more times of getting caught by my wife and a few more years of embracing the can. Glad to have you join the mix and fight the daily battle. One big thing is you have to recognize your not dealing with a habit we are hard core addicts, every bit as much so as if our drug were heroin, cocaine or any other drug. It's also not something we get over, we are for life addicts. We learn to live our lives one day at a time ODAAT without our poison.

Sometimes this can be a hard pill to swallow. Take it ODAAT and you will be amazed what you are able to do in a short amount of time. Your mindset will completely change if you don't feed the NB any more.

You can do this brother and we're all here to help. Post roll, keep your promise. Nice and simple. Now get ready to do some battle.

[StevieG]

Welcome. Now post your rolls you made a commitment to all of us here. We hold you to that commitment.

[Wt57]

Jeff my story is also very similar with a couple more times of getting caught by my wife and a few more years of embracing the can. Glad to have you join the mix and fight the daily battle. One big thing is you have to recognize your not dealing with a habit we are hard core addicts, every bit as much so as if our drug were heroin, cocaine or any other drug. It's also not something we get over, we are for life addicts. We learn to live our lives one day at a time ODAAT without our poison.

[apogeeammo]

Welcome friend! From one jeff to another, you have found the right place to kick the bitch! I quit with you today!

Another Jeff

[Steakbomb18]

Jeff, thank you for sharing that great intro. You'll find it refreshing to know that many of us have walked in the same shoes as you. Mid-late 30's, young children, married, etc. We're also a bunch of ashamed and embarrassed master ninja dipping failures,...that last one "failures" referring to the numerous failed quits we've tried. Well, I'm THAT guy too... so thanks for making me look back at my former self. Yup, that's former self. I'm only 30 days into my quit and every day I promise myself, my family, and KTC that I will not be THAT guy again. Like my fellow quitters have already noted, you need to make that promise to yourself too. One thing I think may help in making that promise is to know that you're not quitting just some habit or some oral fixation,... you're proclaiming full on divorce with no prenup to your ADDICTION to nicotine. The way I see it, you've already accomplished 2 huge victories 1) you've quit for 24 hours, 2) welcome to KTC and 20,000 brothers and sisters who will promise to quit with you when you post roll and quit with us. Glad to have you on board.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Hello all. 

Allow me to introduce myself to the community, and the April 2014 Pre HOF quit group.  I'm a 35 year old engineer in Phoenix, AZ and have had enough of this stuff.  Hence, here I am

I battled addiction to Kodiak off and on for the last 15 years or so.  What started as very infrequent use in high school 15 years ago became (after 3 years off never touching the stuff) a more serious habitual use in my last year of college.  Over the next few years, my on and off habit morphed from a can every week to a can every few days (to today's 2 cans a day).  I successfully (albeit temporarily) quit again shortly before meeting my wife 7 years ago.  I was clean for almost two years and then made the fateful mistake of going back to the bear after my daughter was born almost 4 years ago.  No excusses, but I apparently felt that the can was the only solution to the stress associated with having a newborn (today my kids are 2 and 3 years old).

The last 3 years have seen my habit grow to a serious problem where I would now regularly double or even tripple dip (3 pinches at a time) as many as 5-6 times a day.  As had always been the case, this was a habit that I performed in total secrecy with no knowledge by my family, as I had been too ashamed  to admit my dependency on such a disguting thing.  Ashamed was really the name of the game and although chewing did serve to satisfy my nicotine cravings, every time I did it, I felt guilty about doing so.  "How can a smart guy like yourself justify killing yourself with this s**t every day when you have a familty and two small kids to take care of.  Who going to take care of them when this s**t kills you because you were stupid.

Long story short (albeit not that short), I got caught by my wife (thank goodness) about 6 months ago.  Admitted my problem in full to her and vowed to quit.  6 weeks later, my quit failed when I reunited with a buddy for a fishing trip in WY that I hadn't seen in years.....and who also happends to be addicted to the can.  Couldn't bring myself (again due to being ashamed) to admit to my wife that I failed, so went back to my secret habit which (surpise surprise) only has gotten work over the last 6 months.  6 month ago when I "quit" I had visited this site, but negelectd to sign up...wish I had now.  Truth be told, in normal day to day life I haven't had much trouble kicking the habit for a few weeks.  I usually have at least one family trip a year in which I leave the can behind for about two weeks...and it really isn't that bad.  Even when I've "quit" in the past once I get past the "fog" of the first few days, it's not something that nags me as much as I would have expected.  However, after a few weeks I always seem to convince myself that "see quitting isn't so hard....I'll just go back for a little bit and then quit for good later.

But as those of you reading this know, this is just a dellusion and in my experience, my addition only get's worse each time a "quit" fails.  6 months ago, my dentist observed (for the first time) obvious oral damage in the form of receeding gums and tooth enamel errosion just above the gumline.  Additionally, I noticed (For the first time) a very small painless white spot on my gums.  In my mind, if it's not too late already, this is my last chance to quit if I wish to avoid some very serious (potentially deadly) side effects.

I owe it to my wife and kids (and above all, myself) to ditch this habit once and for all.

I'm ready, and I'm currently at Day 1 (24 hours).  Foggy as hell, but drinking my cranberry juice and looking foward to a future with this crap.

Haven't quite figured out yet how to post roll call (or tell whom in my quit group hasn't posted) but I'm sure you folks will help me out.

-Jeff

Welcome Jeff. There is enough in your post to keep my fingers busy for a couple hours but I'll try to keep it short and sweet.

First, click on the pink "Welcome Center" tab in the top left. That explains how to post roll, why we post roll and a ton of other information. Posting roll is the only requirement for this site. Each day, every damn day, you will post your name in April 2014 and let them know (and yourself) that you are promising not to be enslaved by the nic bitch that day. No nic in any form. Keep the promise for the day. Go to bed. Wake up next day, post another promise. All you have to do is keep your promise one day at a time (ODAAT).

We all have our failed quit stories. The truth is, those weren't quits. Even your two year stint wasn't a quit. Quits are permanent. Quit is saying "never again for any reason." ANY reason. Everybody on this site has stress of some sort or another. I have a 2.5 year old and a newborn. I'm stressed and tired. A lot. Here's one very very important lesson I've learned: 1 problem + nic = 2 problems. It's NEVER EVER EVER a solution. It's just another problem. The only thing it fixes is your craving for a dip. This my friend is nic slavery. We will help you break those chains today by quitting right along with you.

My motivation the first two weeks was I promised myself that if I was about to cave, I had to walk over to my two year old and tell him that a can of poison was more important to me than him. Thank God I wasn't that big of a shithead and I never had to pull that trigger. However, that's exactly what each one of us does to our family members when we use. Don't be a shithead, Jeff. Quit for yourself and let the good trickle down to your family. They'll appreciate it. Even though you're a "ninja-dipper" as we like to call em here, you still found ways to be apart from your family so you could dip.

As you go to battle, you will find you have so much more "free" time to spend with your wife and kids. They deserve it and so do you.

All right, enough is enough. Check your inbox in the top right corner of the screen. You have a message from me with my number. You're allowed to use it as long as you start posting your promise to stop letting nic whip you. I'm making that promise to myself, to you, and the other 20,000+ people on KTC. I'm quit, and I'm REALLY quit, today.

Jeremy

Welcome to freedom brother. You can keep your freedom if you follow the KTC path. The groundwork is laid. If you need some digits hit me up.

Mike

[zam]

Honestly, I only had time to scan the previous two posts...but I respect what your saying and agree with the response!
In summary...quit for YOU...This shit is hard...Read everything...Understand that you are giving you're F$@ING word to not dip TODAY...you are no more or less stupid/addicted/in denial/in control/stressed out/macho/etc than anyone else here.
Congrats on seeing the light. You will never regret quitting.....never. Contact me if you have questions.

[jzzyzag01]

Hello all.

Allow me to introduce myself to the community, and the April 2014 Pre HOF quit group. I'm a 35 year old engineer in Phoenix, AZ and have had enough of this stuff. Hence, here I am

I battled addiction to Kodiak off and on for the last 15 years or so. What started as very infrequent use in high school 15 years ago became (after 3 years off never touching the stuff) a more serious habitual use in my last year of college. Over the next few years, my on and off habit morphed from a can every week to a can every few days (to today's 2 cans a day). I successfully (albeit temporarily) quit again shortly before meeting my wife 7 years ago. I was clean for almost two years and then made the fateful mistake of going back to the bear after my daughter was born almost 4 years ago. No excusses, but I apparently felt that the can was the only solution to the stress associated with having a newborn (today my kids are 2 and 3 years old).

The last 3 years have seen my habit grow to a serious problem where I would now regularly double or even tripple dip (3 pinches at a time) as many as 5-6 times a day. As had always been the case, this was a habit that I performed in total secrecy with no knowledge by my family, as I had been too ashamed to admit my dependency on such a disguting thing. Ashamed was really the name of the game and although chewing did serve to satisfy my nicotine cravings, every time I did it, I felt guilty about doing so. "How can a smart guy like yourself justify killing yourself with this s**t every day when you have a familty and two small kids to take care of. Who going to take care of them when this s**t kills you because you were stupid.

Long story short (albeit not that short), I got caught by my wife (thank goodness) about 6 months ago. Admitted my problem in full to her and vowed to quit. 6 weeks later, my quit failed when I reunited with a buddy for a fishing trip in WY that I hadn't seen in years.....and who also happends to be addicted to the can. Couldn't bring myself (again due to being ashamed) to admit to my wife that I failed, so went back to my secret habit which (surpise surprise) only has gotten work over the last 6 months. 6 month ago when I "quit" I had visited this site, but negelectd to sign up...wish I had now. Truth be told, in normal day to day life I haven't had much trouble kicking the habit for a few weeks. I usually have at least one family trip a year in which I leave the can behind for about two weeks...and it really isn't that bad. Even when I've "quit" in the past once I get past the "fog" of the first few days, it's not something that nags me as much as I would have expected. However, after a few weeks I always seem to convince myself that "see quitting isn't so hard....I'll just go back for a little bit and then quit for good later.

But as those of you reading this know, this is just a dellusion and in my experience, my addition only get's worse each time a "quit" fails. 6 months ago, my dentist observed (for the first time) obvious oral damage in the form of receeding gums and tooth enamel errosion just above the gumline. Additionally, I noticed (For the first time) a very small painless white spot on my gums. In my mind, if it's not too late already, this is my last chance to quit if I wish to avoid some very serious (potentially deadly) side effects.

I owe it to my wife and kids (and above all, myself) to ditch this habit once and for all.

I'm ready, and I'm currently at Day 1 (24 hours). Foggy as hell, but drinking my cranberry juice and looking foward to a future with this crap.

Haven't quite figured out yet how to post roll call (or tell whom in my quit group hasn't posted) but I'm sure you folks will help me out.

-Jeff

Welcome Jeff. There is enough in your post to keep my fingers busy for a couple hours but I'll try to keep it short and sweet.

First, click on the pink "Welcome Center" tab in the top left. That explains how to post roll, why we post roll and a ton of other information. Posting roll is the only requirement for this site. Each day, every damn day, you will post your name in April 2014 and let them know (and yourself) that you are promising not to be enslaved by the nic bitch that day. No nic in any form. Keep the promise for the day. Go to bed. Wake up next day, post another promise. All you have to do is keep your promise one day at a time (ODAAT).

We all have our failed quit stories. The truth is, those weren't quits. Even your two year stint wasn't a quit. Quits are permanent. Quit is saying "never again for any reason." ANY reason. Everybody on this site has stress of some sort or another. I have a 2.5 year old and a newborn. I'm stressed and tired. A lot. Here's one very very important lesson I've learned: 1 problem + nic = 2 problems. It's NEVER EVER EVER a solution. It's just another problem. The only thing it fixes is your craving for a dip. This my friend is nic slavery. We will help you break those chains today by quitting right along with you.

My motivation the first two weeks was I promised myself that if I was about to cave, I had to walk over to my two year old and tell him that a can of poison was more important to me than him. Thank God I wasn't that big of a shithead and I never had to pull that trigger. However, that's exactly what each one of us does to our family members when we use. Don't be a shithead, Jeff. Quit for yourself and let the good trickle down to your family. They'll appreciate it. Even though you're a "ninja-dipper" as we like to call em here, you still found ways to be apart from your family so you could dip.

As you go to battle, you will find you have so much more "free" time to spend with your wife and kids. They deserve it and so do you.

All right, enough is enough. Check your inbox in the top right corner of the screen. You have a message from me with my number. You're allowed to use it as long as you start posting your promise to stop letting nic whip you. I'm making that promise to myself, to you, and the other 20,000+ people on KTC. I'm quit, and I'm REALLY quit, today.

Jeremy

[peters6278]

Hello all.

Allow me to introduce myself to the community, and the April 2014 Pre HOF quit group. I'm a 35 year old engineer in Phoenix, AZ and have had enough of this stuff. Hence, here I am

I battled addiction to Kodiak off and on for the last 15 years or so. What started as very infrequent use in high school 15 years ago became (after 3 years off never touching the stuff) a more serious habitual use in my last year of college. Over the next few years, my on and off habit morphed from a can every week to a can every few days (to today's 2 cans a day). I successfully (albeit temporarily) quit again shortly before meeting my wife 7 years ago. I was clean for almost two years and then made the fateful mistake of going back to the bear after my daughter was born almost 4 years ago. No excusses, but I apparently felt that the can was the only solution to the stress associated with having a newborn (today my kids are 2 and 3 years old).

The last 3 years have seen my habit grow to a serious problem where I would now regularly double or even tripple dip (3 pinches at a time) as many as 5-6 times a day. As had always been the case, this was a habit that I performed in total secrecy with no knowledge by my family, as I had been too ashamed to admit my dependency on such a disguting thing. Ashamed was really the name of the game and although chewing did serve to satisfy my nicotine cravings, every time I did it, I felt guilty about doing so. "How can a smart guy like yourself justify killing yourself with this s**t every day when you have a familty and two small kids to take care of. Who going to take care of them when this s**t kills you because you were stupid.

Long story short (albeit not that short), I got caught by my wife (thank goodness) about 6 months ago. Admitted my problem in full to her and vowed to quit. 6 weeks later, my quit failed when I reunited with a buddy for a fishing trip in WY that I hadn't seen in years.....and who also happends to be addicted to the can. Couldn't bring myself (again due to being ashamed) to admit to my wife that I failed, so went back to my secret habit which (surpise surprise) only has gotten work over the last 6 months. 6 month ago when I "quit" I had visited this site, but negelectd to sign up...wish I had now. Truth be told, in normal day to day life I haven't had much trouble kicking the habit for a few weeks. I usually have at least one family trip a year in which I leave the can behind for about two weeks...and it really isn't that bad. Even when I've "quit" in the past once I get past the "fog" of the first few days, it's not something that nags me as much as I would have expected. However, after a few weeks I always seem to convince myself that "see quitting isn't so hard....I'll just go back for a little bit and then quit for good later.

But as those of you reading this know, this is just a dellusion and in my experience, my addition only get's worse each time a "quit" fails. 6 months ago, my dentist observed (for the first time) obvious oral damage in the form of receeding gums and tooth enamel errosion just above the gumline. Additionally, I noticed (For the first time) a very small painless white spot on my gums. In my mind, if it's not too late already, this is my last chance to quit if I wish to avoid some very serious (potentially deadly) side effects.

I owe it to my wife and kids (and above all, myself) to ditch this habit once and for all.

I'm ready, and I'm currently at Day 1 (24 hours). Foggy as hell, but drinking my cranberry juice and looking foward to a future with this crap.

Haven't quite figured out yet how to post roll call (or tell whom in my quit group hasn't posted) but I'm sure you folks will help me out.

-Jeff