Day 1 of the rest of my life

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

I used to say that when I was at 637.

You are an addict just like me.

And somewhere along the way, you forgot it. Time to remember again. Or you'll get to do this again later.

Agreed.
That's the point I was making.

You know the deal. No sense drilling that home. Best thing you can do now besides staying quit is to show Sept how it's done.

Thanks Brother, that's the plan.

I cannot think of any suitable words for something like this. Simply terrible all around.

[brianl]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

I used to say that when I was at 637.

You are an addict just like me.

And somewhere along the way, you forgot it. Time to remember again. Or you'll get to do this again later.

Agreed.
That's the point I was making.

You know the deal. No sense drilling that home. Best thing you can do now besides staying quit is to show Sept how it's done.

Thanks Brother, that's the plan.

[I'm done with chew]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

I used to say that when I was at 637.

You are an addict just like me.

And somewhere along the way, you forgot it. Time to remember again. Or you'll get to do this again later.

Agreed.
That's the point I was making.

You know the deal. No sense drilling that home. Best thing you can do now besides staying quit is to show Sept how it's done.

[brianl]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

I used to say that when I was at 637.

You are an addict just like me.

And somewhere along the way, you forgot it. Time to remember again. Or you'll get to do this again later.

Agreed.
That's the point I was making.

[I'm done with chew]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

I used to say that when I was at 637.

You are an addict just like me.

And somewhere along the way, you forgot it. Time to remember again. Or you'll get to do this again later.

[brianl]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

I used to say that when I was at 637.

You are an addict just like me.

[EOD 1]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Brian,
I posted this a few days ago when someone else caved and said they had gotten complacent. I meant every word of it.


COMPLACENCY....What a word. SEEMS HARMLESS DOESN"T IT BUT ITS NOT. Everyday people are tricked and harmed by it. In the Military we used to call it a Death Sentence. BE VIGILANT AWAYS AND KNOW YOUR TRIGGERS.



EOD 1

[Doc2quit4good]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

Last post was June 8th. It is likely that is when the nic bitch first had his ear and not 'over the weekend" at the wedding... Nonetheless, this is probably about he weakest story I have ever heard if that is possible... I've got a long way to go before 1750 days. I quit tobacco only 637 days ago but I ain't going back because I can't live that life again! None of us here can!

[lighty7]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

Did you post roll on the day you caved and had the cigar?

[brianl]

Thanks Marine.
AJ- yes, my group is aware and I've been ripped. But also supported.
The process started early in the day. I was in the wedding party and we were getting ready a few hours before. We starting pounding beers and one of the guys busted out a box of cigars for later in the evening. It stuck in my head and the Nic Bitch began her work. I kept myself busy being caught up in the wedding activities and drinking. By the time the box of cigars came out I had made up my mind that I would have one and would hide it from my group, never to admit it. My wife tried to stop me but I was too stubborn.
I didn't have my plan in place.
I posted roll every day but became complaisant in my Quit, took it for granted that all was well. I let my defenses down and failed.

[Stillamarine]

That's hell dude. I'm a rookie but I quit with you. You got this. Semper Fi

[AppleJack]

My name is Brian. I was Quit for 1750 days. I smoked a cigar. I ruined a wonderful run of Quit. I let down myself. I let down my family. I let down my Quit group, DEC 2010 GUARD.
Almost 5 years. Now it's gone. I'm starting over, completely ashamed, completely humbled. Emotions are hard right now.
For new guys reading this it must seem out of the realm of possibility. To be Quit for so long and let it slip away.
WELL GUESS WHAT- YOU ARE NEVER SAFE.
YOU ARE NEVER CURED.
YOU MUST BE ON GUARD 24/7, 365.
THE NIC BITCH IS WAITING. SHE IS PATIENT.

I am an addict. Period. There is no escaping it. The second you think you've got it beat is when you are set up for failure.
That's all I got for now.

Holy hell dude.

I'm not even gonna bother jumping all over your ass. The minute some of your peeps read this you're in for it. You know the 3 questions... pony up bro. Dig deep and answer true... everybody needs to hear it. For me... what thought process blew right past your defenses and caused you to just give up? Step by step... answer for us AND yourself.

[brianl]

My name is Brian. I was Quit for 1750 days. I smoked a cigar. I ruined a wonderful run of Quit. I let down myself. I let down my family. I let down my Quit group, DEC 2010 GUARD.
Almost 5 years. Now it's gone. I'm starting over, completely ashamed, completely humbled. Emotions are hard right now.
For new guys reading this it must seem out of the realm of possibility. To be Quit for so long and let it slip away.
WELL GUESS WHAT- YOU ARE NEVER SAFE.
YOU ARE NEVER CURED.
YOU MUST BE ON GUARD 24/7, 365.
THE NIC BITCH IS WAITING. SHE IS PATIENT.

I am an addict. Period. There is no escaping it. The second you think you've got it beat is when you are set up for failure.
That's all I got for now.

[brianl]

Thanks for all the input.

Brian

[Smokeyg]

What's up my Quit Brothers and Sisters.

Quick question: I've got a good friend trying to Quit smoking and told her about this site and how much it helps me.
Does anyone know of a good support site for smokers?

Thanks,

brianl-74- Luvin the Quit

This site has helped a lot of smokers. And lady smokers at that. SamCat and TattedQuitter are two BadAss quitters that I know of that are still very active in the forums. I suggest you PM them for some council.

http://www.whyquit.com/

Hardcore relapse policy on that site:

"Freedom's relapse policy is simple. Once we understand the Law of Addiction it deprives us of any legitimate excuse for relapse. Any member who relapses shall permanently lose posting privileges.


NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF, DIP OR CHEW!

NO NICOTINE EVER!"

I imagine most of the people who cave here never truly understand and accept the Law of Addiction. Once I accepted that I was an addict for life, quitting one day at a time became a reality. I know my quit day every day. Even when I haven't posted roll for a month, I still keep track. I will not hide from my addiction. It doesn't work that way.