So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
