Day 105. Memo to self. Just because I hit the HOF and I feel great. Doesn't mean the nic bitch isn't still lurking. Yesterday I am watching some football and thinking about what I want to write in my HOF speech. Out of no where the nic bitch starts whispering to me. It was the strongest crave/urge I have had in almost a month. I killed it like a bug. But it's a reminder that I am not "cured". This is a lifelong battle. Stay aware my brothers and sisters. Head on a swivel. I quit with you all today.
Today is 420 for me and I've had some major craves this weekend. I'm quit but I'm an addict and an addict I will forever be. Never let your guard down.
Unfortunately, the time right after the Hall of Fame is filled with craves.
You've squashed that craving with a goal (to make the hall of fame)...and now it views this as its first opportunity to attack again. Remember when the 20s rolled through and your quit adrenaline kind of ran low? It's the same principle now. Lean on your tools. Get through the moment. You have some good times coming up.
You did not win this war. Your enemy is hiding in the trees, and will send out a scout team on occasion.
Totally agree with wp kc. I had a few bad days after the 100 mark, but when I got going again things started feeling great in the 100's. Now that I've just hit 200 i'm feeling better than ever. The real good news,,, the 2nd 100 were so much easier than the first.
Besides all that you've already been tested and tried. You've already been through a lot more than me. I don't think I've even stubbed my toe yet. I think a couple little craves for you are kind of humorous.
Thanks for your words in my thread from time to time kc. They have always helped me. I'm darn glad to be quit with you brother.
