Why is it that when you quit it feels like the world has turned upside down? It seems since my quit that every little thing has made my fuse alot shorter than what it was. I have tried not to let it happen at home,but damn I have exploded many times at work.
Any help or advice would greatly help.
Your body is throwing a damn tantrum because you are withholding what it wants. Your body WILL adjust. Day 15 will be better than 5, 35 better than 15, etc.
Anxiety tied me up in knots for a while. It physically screwed with my body. I finally figured out that anxiety (to me) was nothing much more than my mind trying frantically to think of a way to justify one more dip, to figure out how to pack a huge fatty and still not breach my 'contract' with you all. One day I sort of came to the conclusion that until the end of the day (and my current promise), there simply IS NO OPTION TO DIP. IT JUST WILL NOT HAPPEN. I am not gonna break my promise, so any cave just won't happen today. We'll discuss tomorrow, tomorrow. But, the simple fact is that NO MATTER WHAT HOOPS MY MIND IS JUMPING THROUGH, I'm "stuck" today with no way to dip. Basically, I mentally surrendered to the fact that there will be no nicotine today, so I might as well focus on what something else, anything else. Surrender to the facts: you made a promise. There is no way out of that promise today other than to render you word worthless.
Oh yea, I also logged on to KTC and nic-raged. A lot. That helped.
Hats off Zam. Way to bring the quit brother.
Good shit there. Baudy suck on teat of knowledge. Accept the path and fight. You are no longer a slave.
Thanks for the advice zam, just let me tell you about where I work and the people I work with...I have a government job with Dept. of Army,very hard to get fired,(sexual harassment,theft,drugs and fighting), thats about the only ways, now on to the people. The head boss,never worked any other job in his life, 37 years and hasn't a clue about the private sector, plus no military experience and has hired 2 family members and one of his buddies' son.
His #2 man same way, only he worked a little construction and is a big hypocrite about everything,(one of the bosses family members too).
There are a total of 19 people that work here and of those 19 only 7 of us have military exp. and know how it should work.
I just get so pissed about the lack of motivation to do good and when you try to go above and beyond you hear, "Good Job, but..insert random dumbass comment"
so there is just no motivation to do anything other than the basic to get by, and after being quit for 39 days, I have been nic craving big time today, but I have my Smokey Mountain to help and chewing gum.
And one more thing to pile onto the stress, my wife and I are in the process of building a new house!
Thanks for listening to my rant,all comments appreciated!
