A moment in my head

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I saw your support today for us March Quitters. Congrats on 4 years! That is crazy awesome! That's what I love about KTC. 4 years and you post roll everyday and are looking out for us newbies. Thank you!

[Dr. Bruce Banner]

Okay, just developed a new symptom/annoyance.  My mouth feels like it would feel a few hours after a visit to the dentist to have some work done on my molars.  You know the feeling...the one where the novacane is starting to wear-off.  I have this overwhelming urge to chew my cheeks.  Wierd shit.

So I finally figured out this cohort thing.  We move forward a s a group we are less likely to falter.  Like the penguins taking turns protecting each other from the cold.  Only works though if folks reach out to one-another.

Okay my son won't stop asking stupid fucking questions and I am about to snap at him.  That's whay I am writing my rage. Not his fault. Not his fault.  Not his fault.

Tomorrow back to work for day five.  Get to listen to my office neighbor snap his tin extra loudly.  Hear him say, come see me if you need a dip.  What the fuck?  It's like he thinks my success or failure has some reflection upon his worth. I suppose it does.  If I fail, he can feel as though it is too difficult so why should he bother.  If I succede.....well then....he is a dumb ass who is still chewing even though it is clearly a boneheaded activity which can be overcome.

Alright, enough rambling.  Thanks again everyone.  See ya at roll call.  Peace.

If I fail, he can feel as though it is too difficult so why should he bother. If I succede.....well then....he is a dumb ass who is still chewing even though it is clearly a boneheaded activity which can be overcome.

Bingo

if he offers you a dip, take his tin ,pack it, look him in the eye, smile ,and dump it on the ground. He won't do it twice.

and if he has his spit cup handy knock it over on the spilled chew..... tell him to fuckin talk to me if he has a problem with it!

As far as your son..... get him a mp3 player.... just for a while they will leave you alone... don't know if this helps, or come to FEbuary group and you can kick JStreets Dog......

[Skoal Monster]

Okay, just developed a new symptom/annoyance. My mouth feels like it would feel a few hours after a visit to the dentist to have some work done on my molars. You know the feeling...the one where the novacane is starting to wear-off. I have this overwhelming urge to chew my cheeks. Wierd shit.

So I finally figured out this cohort thing. We move forward a s a group we are less likely to falter. Like the penguins taking turns protecting each other from the cold. Only works though if folks reach out to one-another.

Okay my son won't stop asking stupid fucking questions and I am about to snap at him. That's whay I am writing my rage. Not his fault. Not his fault. Not his fault.

Tomorrow back to work for day five. Get to listen to my office neighbor snap his tin extra loudly. Hear him say, come see me if you need a dip. What the fuck? It's like he thinks my success or failure has some reflection upon his worth. I suppose it does. If I fail, he can feel as though it is too difficult so why should he bother. If I succede.....well then....he is a dumb ass who is still chewing even though it is clearly a boneheaded activity which can be overcome.

Alright, enough rambling. Thanks again everyone. See ya at roll call. Peace.

If I fail, he can feel as though it is too difficult so why should he bother. If I succede.....well then....he is a dumb ass who is still chewing even though it is clearly a boneheaded activity which can be overcome.

Bingo

if he offers you a dip, take his tin ,pack it, look him in the eye, smile ,and dump it on the ground. He won't do it twice.

[Show]

Okay, just developed a new symptom/annoyance. My mouth feels like it would feel a few hours after a visit to the dentist to have some work done on my molars. You know the feeling...the one where the novacane is starting to wear-off. I have this overwhelming urge to chew my cheeks. Wierd shit.

So I finally figured out this cohort thing. We move forward a s a group we are less likely to falter. Like the penguins taking turns protecting each other from the cold. Only works though if folks reach out to one-another.

Okay my son won't stop asking stupid fucking questions and I am about to snap at him. That's whay I am writing my rage. Not his fault. Not his fault. Not his fault.

Tomorrow back to work for day five. Get to listen to my office neighbor snap his tin extra loudly. Hear him say, come see me if you need a dip. What the fuck? It's like he thinks my success or failure has some reflection upon his worth. I suppose it does. If I fail, he can feel as though it is too difficult so why should he bother. If I succede.....well then....he is a dumb ass who is still chewing even though it is clearly a boneheaded activity which can be overcome.

Alright, enough rambling. Thanks again everyone. See ya at roll call. Peace.

[Skoal Monster]

Show, at least you'd go downstairs, I used to roll over and get the tin off the bedside table. Actually looked forward to waking up , just so I could chew!!. Your post made me realize how long it's been since my very first thought in the am was dip. Thanks for that, I'd forgotten how much I hated that the first thought upon waking was ALWAYS that. Pinch is dead on, you gotta re-learn alot of shit, be patient. Nicotine is out of your system but there are about 20 other chemicals still floating around in there. All you need to do today is stay quit, everything else is bullshit.

sM

[Show]

Okay, Day 4. Won't say I am feeling good but I didn't come downstairs, fill my cup of coffee and immediately look for my tin so I can put a chew in. Yeah, I was a first thing in the morning kind of dipper.

In order to make this work, you must learn how to function without nicotine.

How true. I was talking to my brother about this - it's all the things you do with chew. They are all activities that would make for great shows on the Bravo network. "Cooking with chew." "Driving with chew." "Poopin with chew." Speaking of which will I ever shit again?

Conversely I think there are some situations one might be wise to avoid. DMuller was posting on roll call about going to his first tailgate without chew. I wouldn't say that tailgating is something one should never do again but they should definitely evaluate the risk associated with the activity and really think about whether or not they should be doing said activity.

At any rate. Thanks again folks. Not out of the woods but I am getting more optimistic everyday.

[ProfessorPinch]

Take the kids and go away.  Let me sit in the basement alone.  Just a few more days.

With enough will-power, water, and advil, almost anyone can make it through the physical withdrawals. Perhaps being alone will help you focus on healing your body, but beware the effects of isolation on the mind. Quitting is a mental mine-field and the mind-games you will play with yourself can be downright cruel. The worst thing you can do is leave yourself to the mercy of your own devices and hide what you're going through from other people. In order to make this work, you must learn how to function without nicotine. This means finding other ways to cope with life and to live with your addiction. Sitting alone in the basement won't help you do that. As with most things, you will only get better with practice.

[Skoal Monster]

Nearing the end of day 3 and I gotta tell you, this site and you folks have helped a great deal. Still feel like shit. Still snap at everyone. Still reach for my chew every idle moment. Still can't focus on anything for more than a minute or two but......but I am optimistic. I see the success on this site and I think "I gots to get me some of that."

Thanks PbKid, and everyone else who reached out to me directly or indirectly just by being a part of this community.

show, all I can tell you is that it gets soooooo much easier. something to think about.

If you were fighting cancer right now, what would you do to save your life?

Would you suffer thru painful surgery and recovery?
Chemotherapy and days and weeks of feeling sick?
Radiation?
Anything?

I bet you would, I bet you'd fight like hell . Can I tell you a secret? The fight already started, and up until three days ago you were losing. By making the decision to quit you landed an uppercut to the nic bitches fat head. YOur almost past the worst, keep punching, embrace the suck, you can do this. Besides , you have gotta be tougher than PB right? I mean little brothers usually are.

sM

[Show]

Nearing the end of day 3 and I gotta tell you, this site and you folks have helped a great deal. Still feel like shit. Still snap at everyone. Still reach for my chew every idle moment. Still can't focus on anything for more than a minute or two but......but I am optimistic. I see the success on this site and I think "I gots to get me some of that."

Thanks PbKid, and everyone else who reached out to me directly or indirectly just by being a part of this community.

[Skoal Monster]

Please just leave me alone for awhile.  I understand it was my decision to put in that first dip of Silver Creek in 1984.  I also understand it was my decision to put in another one after I got so dizzy I damn near threw up.  But really, NO!!! There is nothing you can do for me right now except maybe leave me alone.  I know you want to help, you want to be supportive but unless you have someway to make this nagging desire to curl up in the fetal position go away, there really just isn't too much you can do for me.  Really honey, I don't mean to be an ass it just sort of happens.  Like a reflex.

Take the kids and go away.  Let me sit in the basement alone.  Just a few more days.  That's what those who have gone through this tell me.  I promise this is worth it.  Thi time is different.  I can't explain why anymore than I can explain what I am going through.  Suffice it too say, I know that there is a convenience store with a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now.  There has been one since my quit began on our daughter's birthday on the tenth.   But you'll notice I haven't gone there.  Not this time.

Thats the way to fight it. Like you said just a couple more days and that part is over. Come on in to live chat and express any type of feeling you have there. WE understand. Congrats on the best damned decision you have made.

You may not realize it yet, but you have helped your quit months from now. There will be a point where your addiction taps you on the shoulder and whispers "just one won't hurt". At that point, come back here and read this very first post of yours. I, like you, spent a goo part of the early days of my quit curled up in the fetal position, sucking my thumb, and calling for my mommy. I will NEVER go through that again.

I'm not sure what day you're on, but if it's day 1 you are 1 day closer to never having to feel the way you feel right now. Come post roll call and make your promise to keep that shit outta your piehole for the rest of the day. In you post you say "a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now." That's is what your addiction will have you believe. In fact, it won't cure anything, it will CONTINUE what's ailing you. Each day things will get a little bit better, as long as you make the constant choice to not dip.

It's been too long since this promise has been made so I will pass along this promise that was once made to me. I promise that you will NEVER wake up and wish you had caved yesterday.

Embrace the suck!!!!

You keep fighting. You will be sooooo proud when it is over (and your family will too). Just another day or two and it will start getting better. And if you need to be an ass you just let me know. I can take it.

what helped for me PBKLB was anger. let your self realize that you feel shitty because of a chemical made by UST. They tricked you into believing it was safe. How old were you when you started. I was pissed at UST for making something so dangerous and addictive. I was pissed that a highschool football coach gave me my first dips. I was angry that I was so hooked on something it had altered my entire life . I got mad. I don't mean just plain mad, I mean going to murder the board of UST with a spork after eating nails. How the fuck can something so horrid that is projected to kill a BILLION people in this century even legal.

Think about it , think what they did to you. Think what its cost you both in money and in life and health. Now, let that anger turn into hate, and let it fuel your desire to be quit. If I walked into your house and tried to steal your money and take away your family I bet you'd fight back. So fight back ... tobacco is doing the same thing to you.

Oh , and PLEAAASE get a cooler avatar than your brothers lil piggy. Maybe something with teeth.

Hang tough, you got this

[RAZD611]

Please just leave me alone for awhile.  I understand it was my decision to put in that first dip of Silver Creek in 1984.  I also understand it was my decision to put in another one after I got so dizzy I damn near threw up.  But really, NO!!! There is nothing you can do for me right now except maybe leave me alone.  I know you want to help, you want to be supportive but unless you have someway to make this nagging desire to curl up in the fetal position go away, there really just isn't too much you can do for me.  Really honey, I don't mean to be an ass it just sort of happens.  Like a reflex.

Take the kids and go away.  Let me sit in the basement alone.  Just a few more days.  That's what those who have gone through this tell me.  I promise this is worth it.  Thi time is different.  I can't explain why anymore than I can explain what I am going through.  Suffice it too say, I know that there is a convenience store with a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now.  There has been one since my quit began on our daughter's birthday on the tenth.   But you'll notice I haven't gone there.  Not this time.

Thats the way to fight it. Like you said just a couple more days and that part is over. Come on in to live chat and express any type of feeling you have there. WE understand. Congrats on the best damned decision you have made.

You may not realize it yet, but you have helped your quit months from now. There will be a point where your addiction taps you on the shoulder and whispers "just one won't hurt". At that point, come back here and read this very first post of yours. I, like you, spent a goo part of the early days of my quit curled up in the fetal position, sucking my thumb, and calling for my mommy. I will NEVER go through that again.

I'm not sure what day you're on, but if it's day 1 you are 1 day closer to never having to feel the way you feel right now. Come post roll call and make your promise to keep that shit outta your piehole for the rest of the day. In you post you say "a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now." That's is what your addiction will have you believe. In fact, it won't cure anything, it will CONTINUE what's ailing you. Each day things will get a little bit better, as long as you make the constant choice to not dip.

It's been too long since this promise has been made so I will pass along this promise that was once made to me. I promise that you will NEVER wake up and wish you had caved yesterday.

Embrace the suck!!!!

You keep fighting. You will be sooooo proud when it is over (and your family will too). Just another day or two and it will start getting better. And if you need to be an ass you just let me know. I can take it.

[11X4]

Please just leave me alone for awhile.  I understand it was my decision to put in that first dip of Silver Creek in 1984.  I also understand it was my decision to put in another one after I got so dizzy I damn near threw up.  But really, NO!!! There is nothing you can do for me right now except maybe leave me alone.  I know you want to help, you want to be supportive but unless you have someway to make this nagging desire to curl up in the fetal position go away, there really just isn't too much you can do for me.  Really honey, I don't mean to be an ass it just sort of happens.  Like a reflex.

Take the kids and go away.  Let me sit in the basement alone.  Just a few more days.  That's what those who have gone through this tell me.  I promise this is worth it.  Thi time is different.  I can't explain why anymore than I can explain what I am going through.  Suffice it too say, I know that there is a convenience store with a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now.  There has been one since my quit began on our daughter's birthday on the tenth.  But you'll notice I haven't gone there.  Not this time.

Thats the way to fight it. Like you said just a couple more days and that part is over. Come on in to live chat and express any type of feeling you have there. WE understand. Congrats on the best damned decision you have made.

You may not realize it yet, but you have helped your quit months from now. There will be a point where your addiction taps you on the shoulder and whispers "just one won't hurt". At that point, come back here and read this very first post of yours. I, like you, spent a goo part of the early days of my quit curled up in the fetal position, sucking my thumb, and calling for my mommy. I will NEVER go through that again.

I'm not sure what day you're on, but if it's day 1 you are 1 day closer to never having to feel the way you feel right now. Come post roll call and make your promise to keep that shit outta your piehole for the rest of the day. In you post you say "a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now." That's is what your addiction will have you believe. In fact, it won't cure anything, it will CONTINUE what's ailing you. Each day things will get a little bit better, as long as you make the constant choice to not dip.

It's been too long since this promise has been made so I will pass along this promise that was once made to me. I promise that you will NEVER wake up and wish you had caved yesterday.

Embrace the suck!!!!

[bubblehed668]

Please just leave me alone for awhile. I understand it was my decision to put in that first dip of Silver Creek in 1984. I also understand it was my decision to put in another one after I got so dizzy I damn near threw up. But really, NO!!! There is nothing you can do for me right now except maybe leave me alone. I know you want to help, you want to be supportive but unless you have someway to make this nagging desire to curl up in the fetal position go away, there really just isn't too much you can do for me. Really honey, I don't mean to be an ass it just sort of happens. Like a reflex.

Take the kids and go away. Let me sit in the basement alone. Just a few more days. That's what those who have gone through this tell me. I promise this is worth it. Thi time is different. I can't explain why anymore than I can explain what I am going through. Suffice it too say, I know that there is a convenience store with a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now. There has been one since my quit began on our daughter's birthday on the tenth. But you'll notice I haven't gone there. Not this time.

Thats the way to fight it. Like you said just a couple more days and that part is over. Come on in to live chat and express any type of feeling you have there. WE understand. Congrats on the best damned decision you have made.

[Show]

Please just leave me alone for awhile. I understand it was my decision to put in that first dip of Silver Creek in 1984. I also understand it was my decision to put in another one after I got so dizzy I damn near threw up. But really, NO!!! There is nothing you can do for me right now except maybe leave me alone. I know you want to help, you want to be supportive but unless you have someway to make this nagging desire to curl up in the fetal position go away, there really just isn't too much you can do for me. Really honey, I don't mean to be an ass it just sort of happens. Like a reflex.

Take the kids and go away. Let me sit in the basement alone. Just a few more days. That's what those who have gone through this tell me. I promise this is worth it. Thi time is different. I can't explain why anymore than I can explain what I am going through. Suffice it too say, I know that there is a convenience store with a wall of cancer that will cure what ails me right now. There has been one since my quit began on our daughter's birthday on the tenth. But you'll notice I haven't gone there. Not this time.