I'm 19 and I have been dipping since I was 16 years old. My parents have no idea that I dipped or I think they would have fucking tossed me out of the house faster than nascar drivers drive. I'm almost 20 and I'm sick of fucking staying up later just to get that dip in before bed. Sick of dipping in between class. Sick of sneaking around. I told my roommates (I'm at college) that I'm quitting and I'm going to be a real pain in the ass for awhile. They get it. I'm sick of seeing 7 dollars a day come out of my pocket only to hurt myself. It's been almost 24 hours since my last dip. I was at 7/11 before getting sunflower seeds/hard candy and all that good stuff and this guy walked in. He was dressed nice and looked like he had some high paying career so I figured when he walked in he would buy ciggs. Nope. It was like looking in a fucking mirror. Skoal mint he said. And when the cashier said they were out he went nuts. He bought a water bottle to. Obviously to empty it out and spit into it. It was like looking into a mirror. I saw myself in that guy and that old wanting the dip that bad but is it worth it I thought? All the lies I've told. All the bad things I've done....it stops. I've made it 3 weeks before until my friend said "come on man we're still in college." I'm done with it now. I don't like the way my mouth feels anymore. I don't like the way people look at me when I have the shit in my mouth. Time to go to seeds. I don't want to be the douchebag man who's in their frustrated at 40 because he can't get his skoal. I'm moving on to healthier things. A lot more fruit and vegetables in my diet. Tonight was an apple and some steamed broccoli. I plan to start exercising (in highschool I was an all state runner). I plan to spend more time with friends and playing more video games (this REALLY helped me with my 3 week quit). Overall I just need to face life without the nic. I don't want a chemical to control my life anymore. It was fun while it lasted. But 'Finger' you skoal and the tobacco companies. I'm done with it.
Good attitude man.
take it day by day.
a friend of mine had a college friend that quit years ago.
he went for a run everytime he had a crave.
i think it was 6 or 8 months later he was running his first marathon.
its called adiction replacement therapy.
trade the nic for the runners high.
i'm day 104.
stay strong
