Hoping this time will stick

[Bean]

I had an experience last Friday. I have had time to reflect and thought would write it down. I am pretty sure this has to do with the fact that I have QUIT nicotine.

2 out of every 3 days I have a second job as an auto mechanic. We generally work 08:30 to 18:00. Of course the shop has a/c....... Only if you think that Texas summers are cool. The name of my Boss's shop is "Ass Holes's Garage". So you can imagine... a typical Type A personality.

I was told to take a power steering pump off a truck. So I started doing it my way. Under the hood the truck was hot as hell. I managed to get almost finished and "Asshole" shows up. Now he wants me to do it his way. So I switch gears and start doing it his way. But his way was aggravating the fuck outta me. So i said fuck it, and went back to doing it my way. He shows up again. This time yelling at me. "Don't you listen to anything I say.... like I have never done this..... etc." I fucking snapped. There were many images racing through my mind. The one I remember the most was me picking up the crescent wrench from the cart and smashing this old fuckers head in. I felt my heart start to race. My chest was started getting tight making it tough to breath. Fight or Flight response? or was it a panic attack? I don't know which it was. But I didn't like this feeling. I could have handled this situation 2 different ways, so I took the high road..... I through my wench in the cart and walked outside. I walked around the building for 15 min. For the first 5 min all I wanted was a back-hoe size pinch of cope. But, I remembered my daily promise to my Big Bro CBird65, the October 12 Madmen of Quit, and The April 12 HOF.

After that I was good for the rest of the day. I am really glad I didn't do something stupid. Even though my boss is an asshole, He is a true friend. He understands what I am going through. He was a 30 year dinker and quit cold turkey 10 years ago and has not touched a drop since. He has been on me for the last 2 years to quit dipping snuff.

When I quit, I didn't say anything to "Asshole" about quitting. About 3 days into my quit he said "I see what your doing. I know you have the will power to do it." I would have never thought he was paying attention to what I was doing. He is another one who is holding me accountable.

I am glad I had a good response to this situation. But, what if I had a bad response towards my family or firefighter co-workers? This would not have been good. So for me, I realize that I need to leave a situation before it gets escalated, or I escalate it. I got a long temper, but very short fuse. As of late my temper is getting shorter.....

Moral of the story is no matter what happens in your day, you have to stay true to your daily promise.

Jason

Sounds like that Asshole is a pretty good guy. Congrats on your quit. Stay strong, brother.

[lhelms12]

I had an experience last Friday. I have had time to reflect and thought would write it down. I am pretty sure this has to do with the fact that I have QUIT nicotine.

2 out of every 3 days I have a second job as an auto mechanic. We generally work 08:30 to 18:00. Of course the shop has a/c....... Only if you think that Texas summers are cool. The name of my Boss's shop is "Ass Holes's Garage". So you can imagine... a typical Type A personality.

I was told to take a power steering pump off a truck. So I started doing it my way. Under the hood the truck was hot as hell. I managed to get almost finished and "Asshole" shows up. Now he wants me to do it his way. So I switch gears and start doing it his way. But his way was aggravating the fuck outta me. So i said fuck it, and went back to doing it my way. He shows up again. This time yelling at me. "Don't you listen to anything I say.... like I have never done this..... etc." I fucking snapped. There were many images racing through my mind. The one I remember the most was me picking up the crescent wrench from the cart and smashing this old fuckers head in. I felt my heart start to race. My chest was started getting tight making it tough to breath. Fight or Flight response? or was it a panic attack? I don't know which it was. But I didn't like this feeling. I could have handled this situation 2 different ways, so I took the high road..... I through my wench in the cart and walked outside. I walked around the building for 15 min. For the first 5 min all I wanted was a back-hoe size pinch of cope. But, I remembered my daily promise to my Big Bro CBird65, the October 12 Madmen of Quit, and The April 12 HOF.

After that I was good for the rest of the day. I am really glad I didn't do something stupid. Even though my boss is an asshole, He is a true friend. He understands what I am going through. He was a 30 year dinker and quit cold turkey 10 years ago and has not touched a drop since. He has been on me for the last 2 years to quit dipping snuff.

When I quit, I didn't say anything to "Asshole" about quitting. About 3 days into my quit he said "I see what your doing. I know you have the will power to do it." I would have never thought he was paying attention to what I was doing. He is another one who is holding me accountable.

I am glad I had a good response to this situation. But, what if I had a bad response towards my family or firefighter co-workers? This would not have been good. So for me, I realize that I need to leave a situation before it gets escalated, or I escalate it. I got a long temper, but very short fuse. As of late my temper is getting shorter.....

Moral of the story is no matter what happens in your day, you have to stay true to your daily promise.

Jason

Captain... this rage too shall pass. I know what you mean, and I felt that same way. Then I got to a stage where I just enjoyed life even more that when I use to use nicotine. Things that should frustrate me now I feel like I just remember to relax and I begin to look at the big picture.... It seems to help me. I feel like I am grinning at the nic bitch and laughing b/c one little stressor can't break my quit.

Helms

[zam]

I had an experience last Friday.  I have had time to reflect and thought would write it down.  I am pretty sure this has to do with the fact that I have QUIT nicotine.

2 out of every 3 days I have a second job as an auto mechanic.  We generally work 08:30 to 18:00.  Of course the shop has a/c.......  Only if you think that Texas summers are cool.  The name of my Boss's shop is "Ass Holes's Garage".  So you can imagine... a typical Type A personality.

I was told to take a power steering pump off a truck.  So I started doing it my way.  Under the hood the truck was hot as hell.  I managed to get almost finished and "Asshole" shows up.  Now he wants me to do it his way.  So I switch gears and start doing it his way.  But his way was aggravating the fuck outta me.  So i said fuck it, and went back to doing it my way.  He shows up again.  This time yelling at me.  "Don't you listen to anything I say....  like I have never done this.....  etc."  I fucking snapped.  There were many images racing through my mind.  The one I remember the most was me picking up the crescent wrench from the cart and smashing this old fuckers head in.  I felt my heart start to race.  My chest was started getting tight making it tough to breath.  Fight or Flight response?  or was it a panic attack?  I don't know which it was.  But I didn't like this feeling.  I could have handled this situation 2 different ways, so I took the high road..... I through my wench in the cart and walked outside.  I walked around the building for 15 min.  For the first 5 min all I wanted was a back-hoe size pinch of cope.  But, I remembered my daily promise to my Big Bro CBird65, the October 12 Madmen of Quit, and The April 12 HOF. 

After that I was good for the rest of the day.  I am really glad I didn't do something stupid.  Even though my boss is an asshole, He is a true friend.  He understands what I am going through.  He was a 30 year dinker and quit cold turkey 10 years ago and has not touched a drop since.  He has been on me for the last 2 years to quit dipping snuff. 

When I quit, I didn't say anything to "Asshole" about quitting.  About 3 days into my quit he said "I see what your doing.  I know you have the will power to do it."  I would have never thought he was paying attention to what I was doing.  He is another one who is holding me accountable. 

I am glad I had a good response to this situation.  But, what if I had a bad response towards my family or firefighter co-workers?  This would not have been good.  So for me, I realize that I need to leave a situation before it gets escalated, or I escalate it.  I got a long temper, but very short fuse.  As of late my temper is getting shorter.....   

Moral of the story is no matter what happens in your day, you have to stay true to your daily promise.

Jason

Im gonna keep this short, because "breaking Bad" is qued up on the computer.

This is great stuff Captain. you are winning. Bravo.

PS- great example of why it's important to have given your promise EARLY, before the nic-bitch hits you.

[Captainfire81]

I had an experience last Friday. I have had time to reflect and thought would write it down. I am pretty sure this has to do with the fact that I have QUIT nicotine.

2 out of every 3 days I have a second job as an auto mechanic. We generally work 08:30 to 18:00. Of course the shop has a/c....... Only if you think that Texas summers are cool. The name of my Boss's shop is "Ass Holes's Garage". So you can imagine... a typical Type A personality.

I was told to take a power steering pump off a truck. So I started doing it my way. Under the hood the truck was hot as hell. I managed to get almost finished and "Asshole" shows up. Now he wants me to do it his way. So I switch gears and start doing it his way. But his way was aggravating the fuck outta me. So i said fuck it, and went back to doing it my way. He shows up again. This time yelling at me. "Don't you listen to anything I say.... like I have never done this..... etc." I fucking snapped. There were many images racing through my mind. The one I remember the most was me picking up the crescent wrench from the cart and smashing this old fuckers head in. I felt my heart start to race. My chest was started getting tight making it tough to breath. Fight or Flight response? or was it a panic attack? I don't know which it was. But I didn't like this feeling. I could have handled this situation 2 different ways, so I took the high road..... I through my wench in the cart and walked outside. I walked around the building for 15 min. For the first 5 min all I wanted was a back-hoe size pinch of cope. But, I remembered my daily promise to my Big Bro CBird65, the October 12 Madmen of Quit, and The April 12 HOF.

After that I was good for the rest of the day. I am really glad I didn't do something stupid. Even though my boss is an asshole, He is a true friend. He understands what I am going through. He was a 30 year dinker and quit cold turkey 10 years ago and has not touched a drop since. He has been on me for the last 2 years to quit dipping snuff.

When I quit, I didn't say anything to "Asshole" about quitting. About 3 days into my quit he said "I see what your doing. I know you have the will power to do it." I would have never thought he was paying attention to what I was doing. He is another one who is holding me accountable.

I am glad I had a good response to this situation. But, what if I had a bad response towards my family or firefighter co-workers? This would not have been good. So for me, I realize that I need to leave a situation before it gets escalated, or I escalate it. I got a long temper, but very short fuse. As of late my temper is getting shorter.....

Moral of the story is no matter what happens in your day, you have to stay true to your daily promise.

Jason

[Buddy Mac]

I started dipping snuff at age 12. A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit. I quit 3 days ago cold turkey. 74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'

Welcome Cap

You can do this, reach out to people in your quit group , post roll first thing and keep your word every day.

[Radman]

I started dipping snuff at age 12.  A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit.  I quit 3 days ago cold turkey.  74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'

Welcome Captain, to the end of your slavery to the can. Listen to the advice given, and stay close to KTC for a while. READ everything.

One small clarification that deals with the title of your (this) intro thread. We do not Hope anything will stick. Hope insinuates luck, chance. There is no chance that dip will end up in your pie-hole unless you choose to put it there. Since no luck or chance is involved in your quit, you need not hope. Do you HOPE that you are strong enough to quit? You are, sir. Trust me, you are. Your quit will continue or end based on a choice that you make. Yes, it is that simple.

I'll quit with you today. I give you my word.

no such things as "hoping" to quit cap'n. today you quit with us. and we with you.

welcome to the suck.

Zam put it perfectly. There is no hope, try, attempt, etc. Quit or quit not.

Now, we firefighters are not accustomed to failure or settling for defeat in daily lives. Adapt  overcome, right? Quit is no different. Approach it with the same fury and passion. Mainly fury. That's what it took for me. Get mad at big tobacco for taking advantage of you for 25 years. Get mad at them for robbing you of your money, health, and pride. Get mad, stay mad, and stay quit.

Read my HOF speech (linked below in my signature) if you want. More in there about utilizing anger as a tool. You can do this bro. Hit me up via PM if you need something.

[per034]

I started dipping snuff at age 12.  A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit.  I quit 3 days ago cold turkey.  74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'

Welcome Captain, to the end of your slavery to the can. Listen to the advice given, and stay close to KTC for a while. READ everything.

One small clarification that deals with the title of your (this) intro thread. We do not Hope anything will stick. Hope insinuates luck, chance. There is no chance that dip will end up in your pie-hole unless you choose to put it there. Since no luck or chance is involved in your quit, you need not hope. Do you HOPE that you are strong enough to quit? You are, sir. Trust me, you are. Your quit will continue or end based on a choice that you make. Yes, it is that simple.

I'll quit with you today. I give you my word.

no such things as "hoping" to quit cap'n. today you quit with us. and we with you.

welcome to the suck.

[Wt57]

Captain I agree with everything you've been told! One thing you will find if you stick close and follow our lead is that you are among friends that understand what you are going through. The more you get acquainted the more like you will find we are. One day at a time is so totally possible and that is all we ask. Share both ways receive help and pay it forward. Check your inbox.

[zam]

I started dipping snuff at age 12.  A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit.  I quit 3 days ago cold turkey.  74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'

Welcome Captain, to the end of your slavery to the can. Listen to the advice given, and stay close to KTC for a while. READ everything.

One small clarification that deals with the title of your (this) intro thread. We do not Hope anything will stick. Hope insinuates luck, chance. There is no chance that dip will end up in your pie-hole unless you choose to put it there. Since no luck or chance is involved in your quit, you need not hope. Do you HOPE that you are strong enough to quit? You are, sir. Trust me, you are. Your quit will continue or end based on a choice that you make. Yes, it is that simple.

I'll quit with you today. I give you my word.

[lhelms12]

I started dipping snuff at age 12. A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit. I quit 3 days ago cold turkey. 74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'

Captain...

You may be irritable right now... but you are in good hands here. You know what, every single person on this website can relate to what you are going through. The best part about this is that you have already been quit on your own for 3 days. 3 Days! Dude that is huge and I am real proud of you. It doesn't sound like you are getting nicotine from any sources which is good. To be part of us you cannot use cigs, dip, patches, lozenges, gum, dildos, or anything else that has nicotine. We have a section that you can read about posting role. It is in the pink at the top that reads WELCOME CENTER. Your quit group will be Oct. ( the month in which your 100 days of quit falls into). Quitting is not easy, but our rules here are simple. Post role early in the morning, keep your promise, and repeat the next day. All that you should be concerned about is quitting for the day.... we are not concerned about tomorrow, next week, or next year. We only quit for a day, then repeat. Reach out and get some contact information. You will need some contact numbers to build extra support. Text or call your contact people when you feel like you are having a bad crave or are going to cave. Hang around this website as much as you can and read everything that you can, it will help your quit and get you through the fog of first quitting. Drink plenty of water and get plenty of exercise. You are doing awesome man and I will PM you my number. I hope I am not wasting my time on you. I expect respect from you and I need you to stay quit with me. Go post roll!

[30yraddict]

I started dipping snuff at age 12. A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit. I quit 3 days ago cold turkey. 74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'

Congrats on your quit. Know this: It gets MUCH better real soon. Exercise, use gum, seeds, whatever it takes to keep it out of your lip. Remember today because you never have to go through it again.

Click on the Wecome Center to learn about the site, what rollcall is and how to post roll. Your quit group is October 2012 found here

[Captainfire81]

I started dipping snuff at age 12. A can of Copenhagen a day for 25 years.
I have made up my mind to quit. I quit 3 days ago cold turkey. 74.5 hours without nicotine.... irritable as hell! 'bang head'