IÂ’m back, head between my legs

[Athan]

From my post history you'll see that I went through KTC back in 2012 with great results. I quit for over 3 years.

When people say "1 dip is all it takes" -- they aren't joking. Lesson learned. In early 2015 I was out having a drink with a friend and he pulled out a can. I figured why the hell not, and had one. Next day felt fine, a couple of weeks go by and it's another weekend night after a few beers and I say to myself, "I didn't get addicted from that 1 dip, I'll get a can, just for rare occasions"

A month later I was back up to a can a day.

How F-ing stupid could I be. How many times have I read "1 dip is all it takes."??

So I've been a miserable slave to this stupid filth again for the past 3 years.

I got my Dr. to prescribe Chantix, and I'm 36 hours clean. I'm just really mad at myself right now. My last quit was a terrible experience, and I'm going to have to go through it again. I know I'll succeed -- when I decide to do something -- I do it. But I'm not looking forward to the next few months.

Just wanted to come on here and rant a little. Thanks for listening.

Hi Clay. Well, to be real honest with you... looking at your “posting history” it is not surprising to me that you caved. And, I see that you haven’t posted roll in your old group and new group.

Here we quit one day at a time. EVERY DAY. I commend your lengthy stoppage, but bro you didnÂ’t ever QUIT here. You stopped. You never bought into the BROTHERHOOD + ACCOUNTABILITY = SUCCESS. Here we quit together, as a team. Our first thought when our eyes open is... holy shot I have got to post roll right now! You can do this, bro, but you better change your ways quick or you are on your way to another epic cave, I suspect.

By the way, in addition to posting roll EVERY DAY in your new and old group, younowe both of them and this intro very very very thoughtful answers to these 3 questions:

1. What happened?
2. Why did it happen?
3. What are you going to do differently this time?

IÂ’m close to hitting 2,000 days. You should be ahead of me. ThatÂ’s gotta sting. DonÂ’t fuck around with this. Chewing tobacco will kill you if you donÂ’t wake up.

Had a bad experience with the Chantix so we parted ways but that was quit #2,354 in 2007. Glad you're back and shared your cave in the intro. That's exactly what's waiting for me. I can feel it. Already having those thoughts.
I've got 5 close brothers of quit here that I plan on using till we all stop breathing because I'll be right where you are if I don't.
digits in your inbox!
IQWYT

[worktowin]

From my post history you'll see that I went through KTC back in 2012 with great results. I quit for over 3 years.

When people say "1 dip is all it takes" -- they aren't joking. Lesson learned. In early 2015 I was out having a drink with a friend and he pulled out a can. I figured why the hell not, and had one. Next day felt fine, a couple of weeks go by and it's another weekend night after a few beers and I say to myself, "I didn't get addicted from that 1 dip, I'll get a can, just for rare occasions"

A month later I was back up to a can a day.

How F-ing stupid could I be. How many times have I read "1 dip is all it takes."??

So I've been a miserable slave to this stupid filth again for the past 3 years.

I got my Dr. to prescribe Chantix, and I'm 36 hours clean. I'm just really mad at myself right now. My last quit was a terrible experience, and I'm going to have to go through it again. I know I'll succeed -- when I decide to do something -- I do it. But I'm not looking forward to the next few months.

Just wanted to come on here and rant a little. Thanks for listening.

Hi Clay. Well, to be real honest with you... looking at your “posting history” it is not surprising to me that you caved. And, I see that you haven’t posted roll in your old group and new group.

Here we quit one day at a time. EVERY DAY. I commend your lengthy stoppage, but bro you didnÂ’t ever QUIT here. You stopped. You never bought into the BROTHERHOOD + ACCOUNTABILITY = SUCCESS. Here we quit together, as a team. Our first thought when our eyes open is... holy shit I have got to post roll right now! You can do this, bro, but you better change your ways quick or you are on your way to another epic cave, I suspect.

By the way, in addition to posting roll EVERY DAY in your new and old group, you owe both of them and this intro very very very thoughtful answers to these 3 questions:

1. What happened?
2. Why did it happen?
3. What are you going to do differently this time?

IÂ’m close to hitting 2,000 days. You should be ahead of me. ThatÂ’s gotta sting. DonÂ’t fuck around with this. Chewing tobacco will kill you if you donÂ’t wake up.

[Clay]

From my post history you'll see that I went through KTC back in 2012 with great results. I quit for over 3 years.

When people say "1 dip is all it takes" -- they aren't joking. Lesson learned. In early 2015 I was out having a drink with a friend and he pulled out a can. I figured why the hell not, and had one. Next day felt fine, a couple of weeks go by and it's another weekend night after a few beers and I say to myself, "I didn't get addicted from that 1 dip, I'll get a can, just for rare occasions"

A month later I was back up to a can a day.

How F-ing stupid could I be. How many times have I read "1 dip is all it takes."??

So I've been a miserable slave to this stupid filth again for the past 3 years.

I got my Dr. to prescribe Chantix, and I'm 36 hours clean. I'm just really mad at myself right now. My last quit was a terrible experience, and I'm going to have to go through it again. I know I'll succeed -- when I decide to do something -- I do it. But I'm not looking forward to the next few months.

Just wanted to come on here and rant a little. Thanks for listening.

[Clay]

Today is my 101st day quit. I stopped coming to this website a couple weeks after I quit (1/1/2012) for a few reasons, but I have come back to say two things:

1) *smile* at the few of you who said I wouldn't make it without staying on this forum

2) *sincere thanks* to all of you who equipped me with the knowledge that I needed to succeed. I spent a lot of time reading through the documentation and success stories on this site before I quit, and I learned enough to keep me quit. KTC, while culturally wasn't a fit for me, probably saved my life.

THANK YOU!

[jjprice]

Hope you're still going strong :huh:

[davenc]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

I still use gum from time to time after 165 days and sometimes sunflower seeds. It is good to know I have it there if I come face to face with a crave. I pop in a stick of gum whenever I am doing activities that used to "require" a dip, usually chores of some kind around the house, boring stuff. It has become less and less though.

It will get easier, that is for sure. As you come across more and more triggers/craves and then overcome them, they will be easier to deal with the next time they happen. Keep it up man and post roll everyday.

As long as you aren't on sucking cancer candy you are on a better path.

This is good to read. http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp

Thanks for that!

I'm right there with you Clay - keep it up, April Bumping Bastard! I am 27 days in today. I think about dip every day. Because of the support of this community I also have many other ways to think - about my quit, about my brothers here, about my health, about my promise to myself. about my realization and acceptance of the fact that 25 years ago i became addicted to something that wants to kill me. my quit helps me face that, too, and accept it, and keep going.
it has gotten easier. but it is still a day at a time or even sooner than that. but i have chosen this and i am quit.
here's to us. to all of us.

bluebonnetman

I'm about to hit day 550 and I still chew Wrigley's Spearmint everyday. Mainly cause I enjoy the taste and people enjoy the fresh breath. I just don't think about dip as often. Maybe once every couple of months.

[bluebonnetman]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

I still use gum from time to time after 165 days and sometimes sunflower seeds. It is good to know I have it there if I come face to face with a crave. I pop in a stick of gum whenever I am doing activities that used to "require" a dip, usually chores of some kind around the house, boring stuff. It has become less and less though.

It will get easier, that is for sure. As you come across more and more triggers/craves and then overcome them, they will be easier to deal with the next time they happen. Keep it up man and post roll everyday.

As long as you aren't on sucking cancer candy you are on a better path.

This is good to read. http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp

Thanks for that!

I'm right there with you Clay - keep it up, April Bumping Bastard! I am 27 days in today. I think about dip every day. Because of the support of this community I also have many other ways to think - about my quit, about my brothers here, about my health, about my promise to myself. about my realization and acceptance of the fact that 25 years ago i became addicted to something that wants to kill me. my quit helps me face that, too, and accept it, and keep going.
it has gotten easier. but it is still a day at a time or even sooner than that. but i have chosen this and i am quit.
here's to us. to all of us.

bluebonnetman

[Clay]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

I still use gum from time to time after 165 days and sometimes sunflower seeds. It is good to know I have it there if I come face to face with a crave. I pop in a stick of gum whenever I am doing activities that used to "require" a dip, usually chores of some kind around the house, boring stuff. It has become less and less though.

It will get easier, that is for sure. As you come across more and more triggers/craves and then overcome them, they will be easier to deal with the next time they happen. Keep it up man and post roll everyday.

As long as you aren't on sucking cancer candy you are on a better path.

This is good to read. http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp

Thanks for that!

[Scowick65]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

I still use gum from time to time after 165 days and sometimes sunflower seeds. It is good to know I have it there if I come face to face with a crave. I pop in a stick of gum whenever I am doing activities that used to "require" a dip, usually chores of some kind around the house, boring stuff. It has become less and less though.

It will get easier, that is for sure. As you come across more and more triggers/craves and then overcome them, they will be easier to deal with the next time they happen. Keep it up man and post roll everyday.

As long as you aren't on sucking cancer candy you are on a better path.

This is good to read. http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp

[Souliman]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

I still use gum from time to time after 165 days and sometimes sunflower seeds. It is good to know I have it there if I come face to face with a crave. I pop in a stick of gum whenever I am doing activities that used to "require" a dip, usually chores of some kind around the house, boring stuff. It has become less and less though.

It will get easier, that is for sure. As you come across more and more triggers/craves and then overcome them, they will be easier to deal with the next time they happen. Keep it up man and post roll everyday.

As long as you aren't on sucking cancer candy you are on a better path.

[Tsmith17]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

I still use gum from time to time after 165 days and sometimes sunflower seeds. It is good to know I have it there if I come face to face with a crave. I pop in a stick of gum whenever I am doing activities that used to "require" a dip, usually chores of some kind around the house, boring stuff. It has become less and less though.

It will get easier, that is for sure. As you come across more and more triggers/craves and then overcome them, they will be easier to deal with the next time they happen. Keep it up man and post roll everyday.

[RAZD611]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 2 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!

It will get better. Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day.

Though sometimes it looks like the clock is not moving, time is your greatest ally.

Time will help heal what ails you.

Hang in there. Slowly but surely it will get better.

[Clay]

I quit cold turkey on Jan-1, and I figured after 3 weeks it would have gotten a lot easier -- but I still think about Dip almost all day. When does it start to get easier? I am going through 1-2 rolls of lifesavers  a pack of gum a day!