DD3,
Your story sounds just like mine: started dipping in junior high, and now I'm in my 30s. There are a TON of guys just like us here...two decades of addiction. But now, we're all quit, to one extent or another. I am at day 24. I'm going to make it to day 25 because I don't want to leave my family without me - and I don't want to leave my family. I'm not going to let nicotine and tobacco kill me. Period.
I try to keep these thoughts in mind while the going is tough. You try, too. Try to remember that if you dip again, you're going to die. You are going to leave your daughter without a dad.