Last chew was Saturday 4/21. No Aid, No Cigars, No Bullshilt. I tried to quit in early January. Only lasted a few weeks. Tried again in February and March. Same thing. No support. Sick of this shit. Sick of thinking I am going to Die. Is anxiety and all out F'n Fear normal?
index.php?showtopic=50You want to quit. If you were all alone. No family, friends or influence. Would you still quit? All the influences to quit are great reasons. However to be successful, you and only you must want to quit. You can't say, "God wants me to quit", "I'm afraid of cancer", blah blah blah. This has to be selfish. YOU and only YOU must want to quit.
To Manually get to the link, click on, "Welcome Center" Just below the Kill the can logo.
Once that link opens. Menu # 3. "How to post roll" Click on that link.
Okay, a couple things to mention. You need to quit every 24 hours. As an addict, and until you get tons of quit days under your belt. Never, ever, ever think in the long term of being quit. Only for the day.
I tried to quit many times. KTC is for real. The program is simple. Are you a man of your word? Can you commit to quit and keep your promise for one day? If you can, the tools here seem so simple but effective. Posting roll is an action behavior that you need to do every morning when you wake up. Like brushing your teeth, you need to be that committed to posting roll. It mentally prepares you for the seduction and temptation the evil nic bitch with throw at you that day. Knowing that you made that promise to us and yourself, you will have super human strength to say, "No, not today. Tomorrow is another day and too far in the future but I am quit today and I am a man of my word"
You get through that day and simply repeat. I recommend you take some time and write an introduction. Tell us about yourself. We are all addicts here, we already know your story but something you say will bring about connections and you will start getting requests for numbers so that you can support and be supported in weak time.
I am not a vet. Always listen to the vets. If they tell you to do something, do it. Be humble and listen. They have never lead me astray. The first sign I see from a caver is when there are some things they like but they want to do it their way. (Most common is posting roll. People miss posting roll, they are planning a cave.)
I have been quit for 43 days. I am having fun. I am free. Oh Nic and alcohol. You shouldn't drink while your brain rewires. It is recommended that you don't drink for the first 50 days. (You sure don't want to amplify your drinking to replace nic.)
Finally, this is real. We don't expect you to have a relapse. The support here shoots straight with no bullshit. No one understands or accepts a cave. The days of glamorizing, entertaining or worshiping tobacco is over. You took control of your addiction 4 days ago. Know this, Tobacco is evil. It terrorizes and ultimately kills. I despise it. I never ever will support that industry again. (Tomorrow isn't here yet so "never" is only today and I repeat every day when I post - my disdain for that evil creature) In fact I am at war with them!!!! You want to get to where you want tobacco to die on the vine. No love lost. FUCK them and the 42,000.00 I spent to alienate myself for alone time with that harlot. For that I got an occasional buzz and thought of cancer. REALLY, that is my ROI? Only addicts would invest. Recovering addicts are Tobaccos worst fucking nightmare!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is the dumbest investment I made. I became an addict. Today, I control my addiction. There are no shackles on my wrists or ankles. You are going to be in hell for a time but it is FUCKING WORTH IT!!!!!! You will hear, "Embrace the Suck" That is yours to define and have an "a ha" moment. The other term, "We Quit Like Fuck!"
Post roll today, keep your word. If tomorrow comes for you. Repeat.
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