Figured I'd post and introduce myself to everyone. I'm Danny, I'm 25 years old, and I'm an addict.
I'm currently on Day 5 of my quit. I hid my habit from my gorgeous girlfriend who I met last April. We went on a week long trip to Florida a few weeks ago, and apparently it was way too hard to hide it from her since it was my first time spending a whole week with her by my side. She was extremely disappointed when she found out about my habit (she seen the can through my pocket). She even cried and I could tell it hurt her pretty bad that I hid it from her.
That's when I realized how rediculous it is that I would hurt someone I care about so much over a can of poopy.
Anyway, Thursday night I left to go camping with my girl and decided no more hiding it from her and tossed all my cans and left without taking any with me. I figured she was driving so the only way I could cave is if I asked her to stop at a convenience store so I could buy my can of cow turd, which I know I wouldn't do.
And wow did these withdrawals hit me hard this whole time camping, I was irritable, foggy headed, and even my girlfriend kept asking me "what's wrong?" she said I seemed "Spacey" which I was. But I didnt want to tell her why because I'd rather just keep it to myself and not have her think about it with me.
It even got to the point where I became fixated on having a chew today when I returned home from camping. I got back at about 9PM tonight and was about to go to the convenience store to go buy some and then my girl called to talk for a bit.
And when we were on the phone I decided to tell her why I was so "spacey" during the camping trip. And she was actually so happy when I told her, the only complaint she had was why I didn't tell her sooner. She is such a great support and I think that's what I needed. She even told me not to quit for her but to quit for myself. I told her I am, but she is my biggest motivation.
And I'm very happy to be on Day 5 and can't wait to go anymore, it's funny how one phone call changed my whole outlook for the day. Thanks for reading and hello to everyone!