My Grandpa's passing has not made me falter. It has made me even stronger and cemented my future in stone. Honestly, I have experienced much worse feelings then I am right now from nicotine withdrawal. I think the common cold is worse then this. Maybe it will get worse but right now (46 hours free) I feel great. I don't even crave or think about dipping already. On a scale from 1-10 my quit so far has been a 3 or 4 tops.
I am going to attempt to post roll so all you quitters that need my name on there can have it. Whether its on there or not though I won't be dipping. I will post roll for all of YOU and I will continue to quit dipping for ME! I already promised myself I am done before roll so it doesn't mean much to me, my promise to myself means much more. Hopefully my roll helps others =)
I used to promise myself I would quit all the time. But then I wouldn't and it wasn't a big deal because what was the real consequence? There was none. It's easy to let yourself down because in your mind, especially an addict mind, you can easily justify not only why you didn't follow through on the promise you made to yourself but how you will do it right "next time".
You're new and it doesn't sound like your embracing the concept of brotherhood and accountability... probably because you don't know any of us, so you don't feel like you "owe" us anything. We're all just a bunch of weirdos on a quit forum...almost like a cult.
I used to feel the exact same way. I didn't get it. Who the fuck are these people and why should I promise them shit? I used to think that all the time.
However, when I started putting my promise down next to a bunch of other people who were fighting the same battle I was, I started to feel like there was something bigger going on and I needed to hold up my end of the bargain. Then...as time went on and I got to know some of these weirdos more, I didn't want to let them down and I also didn't want to see them fail. We had eachothers backs and picked eachother up when we were struggling. So while I was ultimately quitting for ME , that extra layer of accountability I got from posting roll was something that really strengthened my quit...it reall surprised me.
You're two days have been a breeze and that's great but you're only a few steps into a pretty rough journey. If I had a dime for every person who came through here claiming quitting was easy, posting roll wasn't necessary, it's only about ME, and then suddenly disappeared like a fart in the wind...I'd have a couple thousand dollars.
Don't post roll just to get us of your back. Post it because you're serious about quitting and build some accountability into your quit.
I'm 854 days quit and I can honestly tell you there's no way I could have made it this far without posting roll and building accountability.
You're "lone wolf" attitude is b.s. If quitting for yourself was so easy and you could do it on your own, why did you end up here? This place ain't so bad. Don't believe me? Post roll and find out for yourself.