Here Again

[rdad]

Tomorrow is day 60 there has been some support and roll drama in my group the last couple days weak excuses were given for absence from roll and it has really made me think about what I am willing to endure for my quit?
To me this is serious this is an addiction its not something I can turn my back on because some one in the community rubbed the wrong nerve I wouldn't have made it through college hell high school even
I know that I cant want my quit brothers and sisters quit more than them but for fuck sakes how hard is it to respond to texts and emails. As I rant the alarm on my phone says its time to check the forums one final time for the night has rung so off till another day

WUPP EDD ~QUIT HARD AND QUIT PROUD

I feel you girl. I used to rack my brain on how anyone couldn't want their quit.
But you're right, you can't want it for them.
Don't let anything or anyone effect your quit.
I see you own yours, keep it that way.
I know you won't care any less for your brothers and sistersi would expect anything less, but guard your own quit at all times.

I agree wholeheartedly. Find those you can quit WITH. I was stressed out early in my quit with those in my month that failed to own their quits. You can't quit for anyone but you. Our month is down to just a hand full of guys that I know are quitting WITH me and that have my back. Don't let the weak ones drag you down. You are doing great!

[ChickDip]

Tomorrow is day 60 there has been some support and roll drama in my group the last couple days weak excuses were given for absence from roll and it has really made me think about what I am willing to endure for my quit?
To me this is serious this is an addiction its not something I can turn my back on because some one in the community rubbed the wrong nerve I wouldn't have made it through college hell high school even
I know that I cant want my quit brothers and sisters quit more than them but for fuck sakes how hard is it to respond to texts and emails. As I rant the alarm on my phone says its time to check the forums one final time for the night has rung so off till another day

WUPP EDD ~QUIT HARD AND QUIT PROUD

I feel you girl. I used to rack my brain on how anyone couldn't want their quit.
But you're right, you can't want it for them.
Don't let anything or anyone effect your quit.
I see you own yours, keep it that way.
I know you won't care any less for your brothers and sistersi would expect anything less, but guard your own quit at all times.

[Dieselchick87]

Tomorrow is day 60 there has been some support and roll drama in my group the last couple days weak excuses were given for absence from roll and it has really made me think about what I am willing to endure for my quit?
To me this is serious this is an addiction its not something I can turn my back on because some one in the community rubbed the wrong nerve I wouldn't have made it through college hell high school even
I know that I cant want my quit brothers and sisters quit more than them but for fuck sakes how hard is it to respond to texts and emails. As I rant the alarm on my phone says its time to check the forums one final time for the night has rung so off till another day

WUPP EDD ~QUIT HARD AND QUIT PROUD

[Gdubya]

Keep up the great work. It really does continue to get better and better.

[Stranger999]

Day 57

The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .

I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!

'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'

Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.

You are still owning this quit like a boss! Stay strong, stay connected, and it'll pass. It always passes. Just push through it. Here with you.

Thanks it is good to know that these little annoying shits will one day fade away but I think I rather like them now.....
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yep cause they are pissing me the fuck off and making me redouble down and really hold on with everything I got!!!! so go ahead and nag away you little shits me and Oregon mint are going to have a blast tonight!!!!!

Remember that you have so many good days ahead of you nicotine free! There will be funks but stick with it and they will pass. You are just really starting this journey and nicotine has dug its fingers in deep. NIC never sleeps which is why we all need to smack it in the face every morning. Even after HOF there are some rough days.

I quit with you today DC! Day 455.

[Dieselchick87]

Day 57

The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .

I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!

'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'

Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.

You are still owning this quit like a boss! Stay strong, stay connected, and it'll pass. It always passes. Just push through it. Here with you.

Thanks it is good to know that these little annoying shits will one day fade away but I think I rather like them now.....
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yep cause they are pissing me the fuck off and making me redouble down and really hold on with everything I got!!!! so go ahead and nag away you little shits me and Oregon mint are going to have a blast tonight!!!!!

[CavMan83]

Day 57

The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .

I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!

'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'

Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.

You are still owning this quit like a boss! Stay strong, stay connected, and it'll pass. It always passes. Just push through it. Here with you.

[wildirish317]

Day 57

The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .

I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!

'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'

Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.

[Dieselchick87]

Day 57

The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .

I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!

'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'

[Thumblewort]

Day 39

well it was an interesting weekend when to a celebration of life Saturday (which was Day 37) and it was when most of my family
realized that I QUIT!!! Grandma was happy Grandpa said what ever works for you (he is a smoker) then there was the 4 cousins and 2 uncles that had the best names for me pussy, quitter, sissy lala, blah blah blah the list goes on and on while one dip was spit out and another lipped I thought that I would be tempted seeing it all around me but I was more disgusted than anything.

Sunday had a neighborhood bbq and everyone was smoking (no dipper this day) and the smoke made me nauseous which is normal cause I hate cig smoke always have.

I guess that all in all this weekend was good I kept busy so I didn't have time to get wrapped up in my head

The tension in my jaw is going away this morning I started a new morning Yoga routine. I am all in all happy with my new life!!

Way to stay strong Diesel!

Good story, you are strong! I only have 2 family members that dip, but of course, they "aren't addicts" 'facepalm'' . I choose to be quit with you today.

[Nolaq]

Day 39

well it was an interesting weekend when to a celebration of life Saturday (which was Day 37) and it was when most of my family
realized that I QUIT!!! Grandma was happy Grandpa said what ever works for you (he is a smoker) then there was the 4 cousins and 2 uncles that had the best names for me pussy, quitter, sissy lala, blah blah blah the list goes on and on while one dip was spit out and another lipped I thought that I would be tempted seeing it all around me but I was more disgusted than anything.

Sunday had a neighborhood bbq and everyone was smoking (no dipper this day) and the smoke made me nauseous which is normal cause I hate cig smoke always have.

I guess that all in all this weekend was good I kept busy so I didn't have time to get wrapped up in my head

The tension in my jaw is going away this morning I started a new morning Yoga routine. I am all in all happy with my new life!!

Way to stay strong Diesel!

[Dieselchick87]

Day 39

well it was an interesting weekend when to a celebration of life Saturday (which was Day 37) and it was when most of my family
realized that I QUIT!!! Grandma was happy Grandpa said what ever works for you (he is a smoker) then there was the 4 cousins and 2 uncles that had the best names for me pussy, quitter, sissy lala, blah blah blah the list goes on and on while one dip was spit out and another lipped I thought that I would be tempted seeing it all around me but I was more disgusted than anything.

Sunday had a neighborhood bbq and everyone was smoking (no dipper this day) and the smoke made me nauseous which is normal cause I hate cig smoke always have.

I guess that all in all this weekend was good I kept busy so I didn't have time to get wrapped up in my head

The tension in my jaw is going away this morning I started a new morning Yoga routine. I am all in all happy with my new life!!

[CavMan83]

Day 35
.... it is a Thursday it was 5 Thursday's ago that I threw out my can and took back control of my life and WOW what a learning process it has been.

the last few days I have been fighting some anxiety which normally I would medicated with the chemical called Nicotine otherwise know as the BITCH. It got me to thinking I have been dipping since I was a teenager so I really have never gotten to know the adult me........ think about that one for a minute? I am having to meet myself for the first time ever. I don't know how the adult me deals with anxiety or frustrations disappointment excitement literally I get to meet a whole new me.

Yesterday I felt lost I could not concentrate or focus on anything it was like

.....gotta change the oil on this forklift crap where is that wrench I need to organize my tools oohhh this needs greased gotta get zip ties for the oil change there are too many papers on my desk that's right I took that wrench home need to sweep tonight .......

I was like a dog chasing a squirrel nothing made sense and all I could do is look at my list getting longer and longer finally I threw my hands in the air and ran to the safety of KTC hopped on chat got anchored back to earth got some good coping techniques and restarted my day today I am having to focus on one specific task at a time and not let other people bother me (like my micromanaging boss)

All I can say is this while some people my see 35 days as a life time....in quit time I am a baby . I have so many things to learn and discover and explore! Today's lesson - One Step, One Task, One conversation, at a time. I don't have to multitask focus on what is at hand crush it and move on to the next its the easiest way to get things done!

Tune in latter for more ramblings from DC

While you are here, you will find out a lot about yourself, others, and life in general.
Some things you will wish had never come to light, some you already knew but kept it in your subconscious for your own sanity reasons. Well, here they are, feelings you have to deal with, without using a veil of nicotine to mask it all. YouÂ’ll learn to deal with everything with a clean and clear mind. ItÂ’s really difficult, but youÂ’ll succeed, eventually, as long as you want it bad enough. You know there is NO excuse or reason good enough to go back to using. I wish for you to be successful. Stay quit, itÂ’s worth it.
You are rockin it.

Absolutely love the way you are owning this quit, slaying that biatch, and getting to know the real you. You, young lady, are a model of what quitting done right looks like!

[ChickDip]

Day 35
.... it is a Thursday it was 5 Thursday's ago that I threw out my can and took back control of my life and WOW what a learning process it has been.

the last few days I have been fighting some anxiety which normally I would medicated with the chemical called Nicotine otherwise know as the BITCH. It got me to thinking I have been dipping since I was a teenager so I really have never gotten to know the adult me........ think about that one for a minute? I am having to meet myself for the first time ever. I don't know how the adult me deals with anxiety or frustrations disappointment excitement literally I get to meet a whole new me.

Yesterday I felt lost I could not concentrate or focus on anything it was like

.....gotta change the oil on this forklift crap where is that wrench I need to organize my tools oohhh this needs greased gotta get zip ties for the oil change there are too many papers on my desk that's right I took that wrench home need to sweep tonight .......

I was like a dog chasing a squirrel nothing made sense and all I could do is look at my list getting longer and longer finally I threw my hands in the air and ran to the safety of KTC hopped on chat got anchored back to earth got some good coping techniques and restarted my day today I am having to focus on one specific task at a time and not let other people bother me (like my micromanaging boss)

All I can say is this while some people my see 35 days as a life time....in quit time I am a baby . I have so many things to learn and discover and explore! Today's lesson - One Step, One Task, One conversation, at a time. I don't have to multitask focus on what is at hand crush it and move on to the next its the easiest way to get things done!

Tune in latter for more ramblings from DC

While you are here, you will find out a lot about yourself, others, and life in general.
Some things you will wish had never come to light, some you already knew but kept it in your subconscious for your own sanity reasons. Well, here they are, feelings you have to deal with, without using a veil of nicotine to mask it all. YouÂ’ll learn to deal with everything with a clean and clear mind. ItÂ’s really difficult, but youÂ’ll succeed, eventually, as long as you want it bad enough. You know there is NO excuse or reason good enough to go back to using. I wish for you to be successful. Stay quit, itÂ’s worth it.
You are rockin it.

[Dieselchick87]

Day 35
.... it is a Thursday it was 5 Thursday's ago that I threw out my can and took back control of my life and WOW what a learning process it has been.

the last few days I have been fighting some anxiety which normally I would medicated with the chemical called Nicotine otherwise know as the BITCH. It got me to thinking I have been dipping since I was a teenager so I really have never gotten to know the adult me........ think about that one for a minute? I am having to meet myself for the first time ever. I don't know how the adult me deals with anxiety or frustrations disappointment excitement literally I get to meet a whole new me.

Yesterday I felt lost I could not concentrate or focus on anything it was like

.....gotta change the oil on this forklift crap where is that wrench I need to organize my tools oohhh this needs greased gotta get zip ties for the oil change there are too many papers on my desk that's right I took that wrench home need to sweep tonight .......

I was like a dog chasing a squirrel nothing made sense and all I could do is look at my list getting longer and longer finally I threw my hands in the air and ran to the safety of KTC hopped on chat got anchored back to earth got some good coping techniques and restarted my day today I am having to focus on one specific task at a time and not let other people bother me (like my micromanaging boss)

All I can say is this while some people my see 35 days as a life time....in quit time I am a baby . I have so many things to learn and discover and explore! Today's lesson - One Step, One Task, One conversation, at a time. I don't have to multitask focus on what is at hand crush it and move on to the next its the easiest way to get things done!

Tune in latter for more ramblings from DC