Day 1

[Its_Got2Happen]

If anyone should read this, below is my post with the January Jackwagins. I was quit for 223 days. That's right! Put in the grind to get to where I was and felt great about the fact that I was clean and quit. Then yesterday, I had a 15 minute window of pure stupidity and gave into this stupid addiction that I thought I had beat. Please, do yourself a favor and get through this quit. DO NOT DO WHAT I DID. This is a quit for life. Take this one day, one minute at a time.

Shu26 The price of re-entry is the answer to three questions:in old group and new

1. What happened?

2. Why did it happen?

3. What's going to be different this time?

That's right Jackwagins, I caved. Please trust me when I say that this is not a badge of honor for me, but of shame. I have no excuse whatsoever but an explanation: I thought I had this licked. I was with some friends who are not on board with their quit yet, and like before they were passing the tin around. For the past 223 days I was good with passing-never even thought about what it would be like to have just one. Then, it happened. Yesterday, I thought I would be alright if I had just one. I didn't figure on calling anyone, or posting because I beat this demon. I caved, and as soon as I did it, 223 days flashed before my eyes. Everything, EVERYTHING I did to fight and claw my way to over 200 days is thrown out the window. I felt gutless, didn't keep it in my lip for even 5 minutes. All that for 5 minutes of a total let down to me, my family and YOU!

The biggest thing that is going to change this time is my effort during times like these. I talked with sportsfan earlier today and for those who haven't talked to him-he's just as much a leader live as he is on this website. I will not put myself in this position again to cave and I will reach out to anyone on this site who has the balls to put in the grind that is the STUPID, EFFING addiction.

I will say this! For those of you who have thought that ONE won't hurt. It does and it will. I feel like I have cheated on all of you. I'm coming clean with this B.S.

Today is day 1-----EFF!

Oh boy. 198 posts since Oct 2012 kind of says it all. Glad you found your way back so quick, but damn what a disappointment. There are so many die hard dead serious quitters on here. It sucks to see someone have such little regard to the importance of their own quit.

[SHU26]

If anyone should read this, below is my post with the January Jackwagins. I was quit for 223 days. That's right! Put in the grind to get to where I was and felt great about the fact that I was clean and quit. Then yesterday, I had a 15 minute window of pure stupidity and gave into this stupid addiction that I thought I had beat. Please, do yourself a favor and get through this quit. DO NOT DO WHAT I DID. This is a quit for life. Take this one day, one minute at a time.

Shu26 The price of re-entry is the answer to three questions:in old group and new

1. What happened?

2. Why did it happen?

3. What's going to be different this time?

That's right Jackwagins, I caved. Please trust me when I say that this is not a badge of honor for me, but of shame. I have no excuse whatsoever but an explanation: I thought I had this licked. I was with some friends who are not on board with their quit yet, and like before they were passing the tin around. For the past 223 days I was good with passing-never even thought about what it would be like to have just one. Then, it happened. Yesterday, I thought I would be alright if I had just one. I didn't figure on calling anyone, or posting because I beat this demon. I caved, and as soon as I did it, 223 days flashed before my eyes. Everything, EVERYTHING I did to fight and claw my way to over 200 days is thrown out the window. I felt gutless, didn't keep it in my lip for even 5 minutes. All that for 5 minutes of a total let down to me, my family and YOU!

The biggest thing that is going to change this time is my effort during times like these. I talked with sportsfan earlier today and for those who haven't talked to him-he's just as much a leader live as he is on this website. I will not put myself in this position again to cave and I will reach out to anyone on this site who has the balls to put in the grind that is the STUPID, EFFING addiction.

I will say this! For those of you who have thought that ONE won't hurt. It does and it will. I feel like I have cheated on all of you. I'm coming clean with this B.S.

Today is day 1-----EFF!

[SHU26]

Welcome. Go to the "welcome center" link and read up about posting to your quit group each day. You might want to start your own introduction post to help journal your daily quit.

Thanks GR8WB,

Only 3 days in, but I swear the first night was the toughest. Weekends tend to be difficult for me as well-like I need an excuse so I'll have to suck it up this weekend. Trust me, I'll be on here.

that will help, spend some time here for sure, If you think it might be too hard, skip doing it and focus on staying quit for a bit longer... nice job on 3 days!

re-reading that I wasnt sure what the hell I was saying... I was trying to say - if it's hard to not dip while you watchfootball, go bowling or get laid, avoid your triggers these first few days, when you think you can face them down the road a few days start knocking them off one at a time...

I get it, makes sense. Thanks for the tip.

[mich 34]

Welcome. Go to the "welcome center" link and read up about posting to your quit group each day. You might want to start your own introduction post to help journal your daily quit.

Thanks GR8WB,

Only 3 days in, but I swear the first night was the toughest. Weekends tend to be difficult for me as well-like I need an excuse so I'll have to suck it up this weekend. Trust me, I'll be on here.

that will help, spend some time here for sure, If you think it might be too hard, skip doing it and focus on staying quit for a bit longer... nice job on 3 days!

re-reading that I wasnt sure what the hell I was saying... I was trying to say - if it's hard to not dip while you watchfootball, go bowling or get laid, avoid your triggers these first few days, when you think you can face them down the road a few days start knocking them off one at a time...

[mich 34]

Welcome. Go to the "welcome center" link and read up about posting to your quit group each day. You might want to start your own introduction post to help journal your daily quit.

Thanks GR8WB,

Only 3 days in, but I swear the first night was the toughest. Weekends tend to be difficult for me as well-like I need an excuse so I'll have to suck it up this weekend. Trust me, I'll be on here.

that will help, spend some time here for sure, If you think it might be too hard, skip doing it and focus on staying quit for a bit longer... nice job on 3 days!

[SHU26]

Welcome. Go to the "welcome center" link and read up about posting to your quit group each day. You might want to start your own introduction post to help journal your daily quit.

Thanks GR8WB,

Only 3 days in, but I swear the first night was the toughest. Weekends tend to be difficult for me as well-like I need an excuse so I'll have to suck it up this weekend. Trust me, I'll be on here.

[GR8WHITEBUFFALO]

Welcome. Go to the "welcome center" link and read up about posting to your quit group each day. You might want to start your own introduction post to help journal your daily quit.

[Dhemry12]

What up. Been two days for me. Shu 26 got me to sign up

[916quit]

I wanted to today-the toughest time for me is when the family goes to bed: Wife and two kids. I have the night to myself and I just indulge. Man, it's pathetic but still it's real and I have to be honest with myself. I need to focus on something else during this time, but it's not easy.

I suggest going to bed :). Not being a wise ass- that was hardest for me the for the first few weeks. Try to go to bed and tell her to fuck off

[SHU26]

SHU, I am Day 58 today. These first few days...These are the "grit your teeth and bare it" days. BUT, here's the cool thing. Some people differ by a few hours or half a day, but all the BS you are going to feel RIGHT ABOUT NOW, will pass after 72 hours. I swear this to you! My hardcore fog lasted 3.5 days. It's physical. It's real. It is consistent. It is an addiction. Face it. Learn to own it.

In my first few days, I learned to "Embrace the Suck." You'll learn what that means. But it helps.

Here's what you do. Spend as much time as you can on here staying connected, reading other peoples' stories of success, sometimes failure, and always effort. I spent pretty much my entire first week on Live Chat (desktop, iPhone as well as Ipad...) The people on this site... They got me through. Them and finally having a big enough sack to do it cold turkey.

Here's another thing that REALLY helped me understand what was happening to me. When I could understand it, and explain it to myself, I was able to fear it less, and accept it.


Nicotine Addiction

Seriously. Read it. It explains alot.

PM me if you'd like my phone number for texting or talking. I have always found, that just staying connected, helps. Helping others helps me. It's very reciprocal for me.

Boelker 62,

You had a great post, and it truly helped today. You mentioned that there are failures the people have posted....are you talking relapses? I wanted to today-the toughest time for me is when the family goes to bed: Wife and two kids. I have the night to myself and I just indulge. Man, it's pathetic but still it's real and I have to be honest with myself. I need to focus on something else during this time, but it's not easy.

[SHU26]

Welcome to The JackWagin's Brother!!! I am dead middle of my fog man and it Sucks!! But All the Raisin's (Older Guys) ;) On here say the same thing.....Embrace IT!! I text my buddie yesterday and told him, How in the hell am I supposed to Embrace something i Hate?? Suddenly, 16 hours later......It makes sense. No way to explain it...Just Gotta Cowboy UP!!!

I used the chat last night for an hour and it was a huge help!! Lots of laughs and advice. They all know that if you are there and a Newbie you are just trying to keep your hands busy and mind off of the Monster!!

Reach out anytime Bro!! Lots of good Peeps in the Jackwagins!!!! Roll Call Beeotch!! Be there!!!

Thanks for the support. My first day is coming off of a guys trip to Vegas and my Buddy and I decided it was time. When I posted this morning, I felt great that I had made the right decision.

It's now 2pm EST, and the craving has hit me....outta nowhere! I've done a good job of blocking "IT" out, but now I feel like pushing back my date. Seriously! Am I this flippin weak??

Boelker 62, and everyone else, thanks for replying. I am going to work on being clean from 2-3 and then worry about the next hour after that. Thanks for the tip.

[Scowick65]

The road to freedom goes through hell. It is worth the toll. Reach out when necessary.

[Boelker62]

My first few days, on more than one occasion, I would be driving around town (for my job) and I would be purposefully raging so hard I'd be pounding the steering wheel. You know what? It helped. Then, I was able to laugh at myself.

I got through that hour. Then another. I took it one hour at a time. The oldest raisins on here will tell you you have to take it one day at a time. You don't quit forever, you quit for the day. You do that every day. Then you just string them together.

I am not quit forever. i am quit for today. Tomorrow? I'll worry about tomorrow tomorrow.

You? Get through the next hour. Then worry about the next one.

[jhaenel23]

Welcome to The JackWagin's Brother!!! I am dead middle of my fog man and it Sucks!! But All the Raisin's (Older Guys) ;) On here say the same thing.....Embrace IT!! I text my buddie yesterday and told him, How in the hell am I supposed to Embrace something i Hate?? Suddenly, 16 hours later......It makes sense. No way to explain it...Just Gotta Cowboy UP!!!

I used the chat last night for an hour and it was a huge help!! Lots of laughs and advice. They all know that if you are there and a Newbie you are just trying to keep your hands busy and mind off of the Monster!!

Reach out anytime Bro!! Lots of good Peeps in the Jackwagins!!!! Roll Call Beeotch!! Be there!!!

[Boelker62]

SHU, I am Day 58 today. These first few days...These are the "grit your teeth and bare it" days. BUT, here's the cool thing. Some people differ by a few hours or half a day, but all the BS you are going to feel RIGHT ABOUT NOW, will pass after 72 hours. I swear this to you! My hardcore fog lasted 3.5 days. It's physical. It's real. It is consistent. It is an addiction. Face it. Learn to own it.

In my first few days, I learned to "Embrace the Suck." You'll learn what that means. But it helps.

Here's what you do. Spend as much time as you can on here staying connected, reading other peoples' stories of success, sometimes failure, and always effort. I spent pretty much my entire first week on Live Chat (desktop, iPhone as well as Ipad...) The people on this site... They got me through. Them and finally having a big enough sack to do it cold turkey.

Here's another thing that REALLY helped me understand what was happening to me. When I could understand it, and explain it to myself, I was able to fear it less, and accept it.


Nicotine Addiction

Seriously. Read it. It explains alot.

PM me if you'd like my phone number for texting or talking. I have always found, that just staying connected, helps. Helping others helps me. It's very reciprocal for me.