What... the... FUCK!?!?!?
I'll admit... you're going to get the brunt of something that's been bubbling up inside of me for a while. Not 100% of it is your fault per se, but you need to hear it cause you're part of it.
There are FAR too many people around these hallowed halls lately with this "better luck next time" attitude. Plain and simple, that doesn't cut it at KillTheCan.org. Its that bad ass attitude that has made us the best quit site on the web and the reason we're getting ready to crack 20,000 members.
I'm glad your wife was crying. I'm glad she doesn't think you can do it. I'm glad you've broken that trust with her and with us.
I'm glad because it's going to make it that much harder for you to succeed here.
However, what's I'm MOST glad about is that you seem to recognize how colossal of a fuck up you just completed. You also seem to realize what led you down a path back toward your addiction and you SEEM to be doing things to remedy that. Good on you. In your cave admission speech, you talk about how you stopped reaching out to your quit brothers and stopped texting. Send me a PM and you'll have my number as another number in your quit arsenal.
You made me go back and re-read this today - thank you for that. You just lit a fire under ol Chewie's ass.
http://blog.killthecan.org/2013/04/chew ... ame-creed/ChewieÂ’s Hall Of Fame CreedI promise to remember the first 2 weeks of my quitÂ…
I promise to remember WHY I quit in the first placeÂ…
I promise to take things a day at a timeÂ…
I promise to recognize little successesÂ…
I promise to post roll on a regular basisÂ…
I promise to recognize those before meÂ…
I promise to recognize that I have great friends on KillTheCan.orgÂ…
I promise to REMEMBER why those people are my friend and what brought us togetherÂ…
I promise to have a way to get a hold of a brother and a way for others to get ahold of me (email, cell phone, etc.)
I promise that I wonÂ’t cave without getting permission from a quit brotherÂ…
I promise to recognize that there will always be a reason NOT to dipÂ…
I promise to be there for a brother in needÂ…
I promise that I wonÂ’t forget all IÂ’ve gone through to get to where I am today.The POWER of KillTheCan.org is that we stand together. Don't be the guy that weakens the system by bringing weakness into the fold. Don't be the guy that does great time and time again through 70 days of quit only to come back and post another day 1.
Don't be that guy. I'll be waiting for your PM.
chewie