1. what happened.
I cheated, got weak: very simple. Needed a fixÂ….or thought I needed a fix. And I found it, in a garbage can.
2. Why did it happen
Because I let it happen. Because it was there. And I knew it was there. I am addicted to the shit and played a game, little hide and go seek. Only nothing was hidden, and I knew where it was.
And because just like right freaking now Im in bar fight. Its going to be a long day.
3. What are you going to do different, so that it won't happen again?
Piss some more people off on this site. Its very distracting.
Thats a joke, girls, calm down.
This site has kept me tobacco free since Monday. Thats an incredible accomplishment in my mind and I am grateful. VERY Grateful.
I started this process on this site with no understanding of the rules. Most of you took that as disregard or disrespect. It was neither. I still don't know what the rules are (But Ive become quite familiar with a cpl).
Im no team player, or group hug guy etcÂ….will not apologize for that.
I will apologize for any and all perceived disrespect. There are some individuals of much integrity and compassion present.
I came looking for help. As a man, Im big enuf to say I need it.