The rage is real: Right fkn now. Prob wouldn't be a bad idea to talk with someone. Its getting late. Ill just type.
Talked with Rawls earlier today. Do any of you know how ridiculous that seems to me. That some complete stranger would give a shit enough to pick up the phone and call another complete strangerÂ…over tobacco use. Its insane. This resource is insane.
Guess i'm still coming to terms with the fact that such support exists. That this site exists. I had no clue.
Since finding this yesterday, I see now that there are several other sites that are similar. But this one is mine ( if I don't get my ass banned, haha).
Heres my truth. I'm far from what most people in my circle would consider a 'dipper'. Don't fit the 'typical' mold. Educated, white collar, well paid fella with the pretty wife and two darling little kids. Could go on here, but I think you people get it. And I KNOW you get it, because I think theres a lot of people just like me right here. Talked to one today. Again, Rawls, thanks.
Regardless of what I am or am not, my ass dug into a rotting trash can 90 minutes ago and found the gum I threw out last night. All right, I f'd up.
But I also had a victory today. I coach my boys baseball team as I have for years. Middle of practice one of my coaches offered me a dip. Only you reading this can understand that situation. I couldn't see anything but that can in his hand. Why the F did he offer me a dip today? Of all days, what in Gods name made him do that today? That silver top was shining in my damn eyes.
My son was on third base and I STG I had to pry my eyes off that can and stare at my son for a moment. Then I thought of YOU bastards on here railing me. I actually laughed-- and I walked away from that offer.
My mind has yet to come to terms with that course of action. Not dipping during a baseball practice? That'd be considered utter fkn lunacy just 48 hours ago.
Tell you what else I am. I an addict. Im freaking getting that right now.