Quit Day 16 of a four 1/2 year fully addicted tour of hell. 45 year old small business owner started Grizzly mint can a week ended at 2 cans a week- not much chew compared to some unless you are a stealth chewer and are always medicating yourself- side of the mouth-can in my sock-sneek off and load a mini- can't let anyone know- wife and son very anti tobacco-shame and guilt self inflicted: 5:30 am to 9pm never chewed at night but might if couldn't sleep. Dad was smoker 55 fucking years, had heart bypass 6 years ago quit and is still alive at 81-lungs are trashed. My fucked up rational- dad smoked 55 years- I'll be alright, just a little chew. Heard this voice before? the nic bitch has a fucking Phone book full of rationalizations to help us continue on the path of addiction, she just waits for the right monment to whip them out. she was a stinky bitch when I met her at age 12 and she is getting worse with time. I am using my ability to choose who I am in every moment. I am an addict,but today I am not addicted to any substance. There is no situation that I need nicotine to handle, that is for the weak of mind and spirit. I have been there and I will not go back. There are 2 things you can't buy back in life- your health and time with your kids. I am a mentor to a wonderful son and he will live a life free from this addiction if I have any say in it. He will see by my example that a clean life is a good life. The Journey is the Destination!