Hi everyone,
I've been dipping on and off for the past 10 years. Started heavy in college with skoal pouches and quickly moved to the more real stuff, Copenhagen Long Cut. I was up to a can a day. I was able to put together some pretty long quits. Hundreds of days. After college I was able to quit for 2 years+. I know how much better life is without tobacco but I can't seem to keep my quit going. I've noticed lately that I am dipping 1+ cans a day. Dipping is always on my mind and I am in a constant state of withdrawal. I always tell myself that this is my last can but that is dishonest. It never works.
Relapsing is almost always accompanied by drinking and I must quit that too. It is so hard though. Especially living in American culture and when it is something that I've done since high school. I have this strange fear that when I tell people that I don't drink that they will think I am so crazy alcoholic (which I am). I don't drink every day, not even every week. But when I do drink, I like to drink a lot and get blackout drunk. This has to stop because if it doesn't, I will start dipping again.
I am glad I have found this site and I hope to be able to contribute as much as I take. My plan is to post every day and to replace my addictions with healthy habits like exercising, reading, and cooking healthy food. I look forward to starting this journey NOW! I will see you in the quit groups.
-James